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Day 8 Off Citalopram And Feel Alive!

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boolifooli · 07/09/2009 12:08

The last 4 days have been yuk but I feel great today! I first noticed yesterday that I am feeling things more, I cried while watching a movie yesterday and that hasn't happened for a while. Although the Citalopram capped the anxiety it also capped a lot of the good stuff. Anyways I just wanted to give some hope to people who are thinking of coming off and worried after reading many horror stories.

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Summertimefizz · 24/10/2009 17:55

Ninas71, great idea in keeping a diary that others will have access to, I'm sure it will be of some help.

Yoda my dear sweet Yoda, you poor thing. Let's be honest though it 'was' the 5 lindt bunnies really . Glad you're feeling better.

All the tension has left my body since talking to H, one of my close friends noticed the difference in my voice when I spoke to her on phone earlier. I hope we can keep it amicable but I have my doubts....

How's everyone's weekend going? xx

ChilloHippi · 24/10/2009 18:07

Summertime, that is great to hear. I am very proud of you.

Yoda, I was really hoping that I would lose weight when I started the Citalopram but alas no. I put it on. Now I am on Xenical / Orlistat from the doctor too, which helps you to lose wieght. It was that or a gastric band - things were that desperate!

Summertimefizz · 24/10/2009 18:58

Thanks Chillo I really don't know where the courage came from, I just took one deep breath and let it all come out. Hope your high energy keeps on going, enjoy the rest of your weekend.

gonnabehappy · 25/10/2009 10:02

Summer - I am in awe. It sounds as though you have 'managed' everything really well. Yeah I expect that will be less than amicable bits as the separation continues but that is one major hurdle you have leapt over. So hope feeling of being less anxious lasts, I am sure that your daughter will pick up on that and it will make everything so much easier for her to deal with.

On the other hand, don't feel as though you have to totally hide any pain you feel. Kids pick up on that too and sending a message that it is sad when a family separates is no bad thing.

Yoda - how horrid. I think family tummy bugs are the pits. It was a noble thing you did eating your son's choc and now you will not gain weight as a result...can you see I am trying to keep my 'Pollyanna' hat on today!

Will drop to the 10/20 today - might speed it up a little now. Can't wait to get off.

OrmIrian · 25/10/2009 10:15

Bit of a rethink. Had a few bad days. I feel really negative and tired. SNappy too. Mood changes all the time. Had a long chat with DH last night - that is a miracle in itself as he's been avoiding me for a day or so, a sure sign that I'm get that worse as he always does that - and he wants to go back to the GP. WHich means taking the pills again I guess. And TBH I'm not averse - I feel so bad. Only thing that I am wondering about is that it might be menopause related - does that happen? I am getting hot flushes and my periods have been on the wonk for ages now. In which case there might be something else that could be done.

But I want to hold out for a few more weeks in case it gets better

gonnabehappy · 25/10/2009 10:36

If you want to hold out for a bit longer do...but how about seeing GP anyway and using this bit longer to get hormone levels checked etc?

Just a thought as ti sounds as though you should anyway and it is something positive to do?

Good luck hun

shockers · 25/10/2009 10:50

When I came off them I started taking Berocca (vitamin and mineral supplement)I've never looked back.

ChilloHippi · 25/10/2009 11:27

Orm, I wish you lived near me (maybe you do!)because there is a fabulous menopause group (I'm 31 so it's not for me, but a very good friend of mine goes) near to where I live. It's mainly attended by pre-menopausal ladies and it's really supportive. I like Shockers' Berocca suggestion. I might try that myself. Why don't you too? It can't do any harm.

Summertimefizz · 25/10/2009 13:50

Hi Ladies,

Orm I agree with Gonna, definitely get your hormone levels checked out before going back on the meds. It's good you can talk to your DH as it takes a bit of the pressure off you IYKWIM.

Gonna - I'm still a little shocked tbh, I think he expected it because he's noticed the change in me since coming off the AD's. I'll try and be as true to my DD as necessary about what's going on, you're right kids do pick up on things.

Chillo - hope you're still riding high and feeling good!

OrmIrian · 25/10/2009 17:23

Thankyou kind lovely people

I will see the GP. I had it all checked a year ago when my anxiety first got too bad to handle. Nothing doing. But the GP did say it was a bit hard to detect as levels fluctate all the time. Also she reckoned I was too young at 43. But I will try again,

Summertimefizz · 26/10/2009 13:13

Hey eveyone, not a good day today, absolutley shattered. DD came back from stage school Saturday evening complaining of a stomach ache, then kindly threw up all over the sofa. Weekend spent clearing up vomit, feeding ice chips and changing bed sheets. Today I feel nauseous, my bones ache hope I'm not going down with anything, really don't need it at the moment.

Anyway less of my moaning, how's everyone getting on? xx

ChilloHippi · 26/10/2009 18:38

Oh Summertime, we all had a pukey bug last weekend. It was short-lived but left a lot of washing. Hope you're ok.

I'm fine. I've not been sleeping very well for the last few nights, but I think that is just me worrying about going back to work. I registered with a supply agency today. I just have to focus on the money!

gonnabehappy · 26/10/2009 18:52

Oh no - maybe we should rename thread...citralopram and puke! You are all having such an awful time I am reluctant to post that I have started the 10/20 and so far so good. On a serious note do you think when I get to 10 every day I can just stop? I know I did it way too fast last time but am getting so impatient.

ChilloHippi · 26/10/2009 19:16

Good for you, Gonna If I were you, I would go gtom 10/20 to 10, and then to 10 every other day first before cutting it out altogether. I remember doing that with my Prozac years ago and that was good and limited the side-effects.

Summertimefizz · 26/10/2009 19:48

Hi ladies,

Chillo - Will you be going back full or part-time? I know money is the focus, but remember so are you (I don't want to sound patronising)

Gonna - Really pleased you're getting on well with 10/20, got my fingers crossed for you. I just stopped whilst on 10 and it was dreadful, not something I'd advise as the come down was absolutley awful. However, the side effects lasted around 5-7 days then I started to feel alot better, very clear headed less fuzzy IYKWIM. How about taking 10 on alternate days? Then increasing the days between each tablet? I know you want to get it over and done with but you don't want to set yourself up to fail either, just take it easy...

ChilloHippi · 26/10/2009 22:54

Just part-time. I am doing a college on a MOnday and I go to a group on a Tuesday, so the most I can work is three days a week, but really I would like just two.

I feel so different since I have cut down from 60 to 40mg. I think in a month I will go down to 20mg. It's like my head is clearing.

gonnabehappy · 27/10/2009 07:32

Hi

Yeah I know to go slow really!

Chillo - sounds like you more than work full time to me - and as though you are a full time mum too.

It is exhausting just thinking about it - take care of yourself.

ChilloHippi · 27/10/2009 23:00

I'm going to visit my folks for a few days so I won't be around (I will try to check in if I can). Everyone take care of themselves

gonnabehappy · 28/10/2009 10:19

Chillo

Hope you have a good time? My head is clearing too so I know what you mean...but I seem to get side effects very similar to when I started taking them when I drop the dose - do you?

ChilloHippi · 01/11/2009 17:01

How worrying that no-one has posted for a few days. I do hope everyone is ok.
Gonna, I haven't had side effects with coming down a dose, but maybe I will when I go down to 20mg.

Stayingscarygirl · 01/11/2009 17:26

I'm sorry I haven't posted for a while - I've had a visit from my dsis and dbil, and then a visit from my best friend, so have been a bit busy.

Mood wise I have been up and down - sometimes managing to get quite a lot done - including finishing a painting for my best friend, and another painting of a ginger cat that will be exhibited by our art club - and other days, hardly doing anything.

I had a great time with dsis and dfriend, and dsis told me she especially wanted to come because she was worried about me and the depression, and wanted to take me out for a treat to cheer me up.

Sadly she also gave me her cold, which is now entering its third week - dh and ds1 have it too, and we are mainlining nightnurse and benylin (though not at once), and the house resounds to our coughing at night.

How's everyone else - the darker evenings and nasty weather aren't very helpful to us, are they?

ChilloHippi · 01/11/2009 17:40

The painting sounds great. I am very envious. Even my stick men look dodgy

Sorry to hear about the colds, but it's lovely to hear that someone was concerned about you.

The weather is very stormy today. It's certainly not uplifting.

My DH has done a 12 hour overtime shift today and is away tomorrow until Weds with work. I'm really worried about how I'll cope with DS>

Stayingscarygirl · 01/11/2009 17:44

You will cope fine, I am sure, and we'll be here to lend a shoulder if it gets a bit fraught. Chocolate will help - applied to either ds, you or both!

{{Hugs}}

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OrmIrian · 01/11/2009 19:02

Took 10mg today. I can't cope anymore and I can't put my family through it anymore.