Day 8 Off Citalopram And Feel Alive!

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The last 4 days have been yuk but I feel great today! I first noticed yesterday that I am feeling things more, I cried while watching a movie yesterday and that hasn't happened for a while. Although the Citalopram capped the anxiety it also capped a lot of the good stuff. Anyways I just wanted to give some hope to people who are thinking of coming off and worried after reading many horror stories.

Yoda, you've got the chocolate my mistake

You're right you and the rest of the girls are so warmhearted and understanding, I'm very lucky to be apart of this thread.

Hello everyone sorry not been on here for a while. Sorry to have abandonded you all. I've just been feeling really flat recently and not been able to motivate myself to do anything. I'm glad you have all been looking out for each other and again sorry for leaving you all.

Don't know what's up really. I've been off my meds for a week and the head shocks have been really bad. I'm just feeling blah. I don't want to bring you all down.

Do you think this is withdrawl or do you think i should start back up on my meds? Its been 10 days since i last took one and i don't know what to do. Feeling very emotional as well.

On the up side at least my boss is now leaving me alone.

Sorry.

I can easily live with the guilt of stealing chocolate from a child. DOes that make me evil?

Summertime do let us know how the conversation goes. We'll all be thinking of you. It can't be easy at all so stay strong.

BrokenBanana I am so glad your boss is leaving you alone. I think you scared him and he knew you meant business. Good for you! Don't put off posting in case you bring people down. POst away!

I personally think you shouldn't take the meds again. You may well have gone through the worst of the withdrawal now.

And don't apologise because you haven't done anything wrong

Thanks Chillio. Think I will try and put up with the withdrawl for another week.

Hi BrokenBanana, great to hear from you. I agree with Chillo, you're nearly through the worst of it so hang on in there.

Chillo I'm determined to go through with this and not chicken out, I really don't want to resort to having to go back on the meds again to deal with this relationship.

Thanks for your support...xx

Oh god. I am getting so vague. Can't cope with anything much. So tired.

DH just rang. DD walks DS#2 home. DS#1 gets home about 10 mins after that. DH gets gome about 10 mins after that. Today I had agreed that DS#2 was going home with his best friend. But I forgot all about it. So DD didn't know where DS#2 had gone . Cue much worry and fret. Brain is stewed.

Don't worry Orm all were safe so no harm done. I'm finding my memory has improved a teeny bit since comping off my meds but still not very good. I too tend to forget stuff like that as it is outside my routine and it throws me.

I'm looking forward to a week off work. I'm determined to do some exercise this week even if its just a bit of swimming. I'm sooooooo fat at the moment and i'm sure it's adding to my knackeredness.

Keep going everyone

xx

I've been losing weight and it has helped me enormously. I've had quite a lot of energy this week, which is very un-like me indeed.

Orm that must have been frightening. How long was it before you remembered?

How is it going Summer? How was your Thursday?

chillo - I didn't . DH rang me when he got home. These arrangements are a bit string and sealing wax anyway tbh. It has all been fine so far but when something like this happens because my brain is full of fog, it's worrying.

Hi everyone

Have done a fortnight of 20mgs daily now - going to go to 20/10 this weekend.

I am really not too bad at all. Bit ratty (but then with my lads that is hard to avoid) and tired. You know the side effects of stopping slowly seem to be very similar to those of starting - odd huh?

Doing lots of walking and have been very lucky that the sun has been shinning!

Banana - keep going, everyone says the withdrawal should not last more than two or three weeks and you are so far through it now. Has to be worth a try.

Summer - you have so much on your plate - keep posting I do think about how you are

Chillo - fab news on weight loss - that is enough to boost your spirits alone. How much have you lost?

Yoda - no guilt required regarding chocolate theft - just think of the noble manner in which you are preventing your little one from eating too many saturated fats....

Orm as a working mum of three I know exactly where you are coming from - the fog makes our life still more chaotic and tbh it was pretty chaotic before! Don't stress or feel guilty. This is just the way it is at the moment. Your family sound as though they get fed reasonably frequently and sometimes have clean clothes. in my house that is an excellent measure of good enough parenting!

Hey gonna! I like your measure of good enough parenting. I think I will adopt it

I've lost a stone so far. Many more stones to go though, but it is a start and I feel much better for it.

What has everyone got planned for the weekend? My DS has his birthday next week so he is having a party on Sunday

chillo - are you dieting as well? I have put on loads in the last 6m or so and can't wait to shift it. Not coming off so far ...

Ish. I'm not very good at dieting. I have got Xenical / Orlistat from the doctor and that is sort of doing the shifting for me.

Hi Everyone, thanks for your messages.

I'm proverbly peeing my paints this morning, H is on a conference call so waiting for him to finish so we can talk, I feel physically sick...

Anyway, more importantly.....

Orm - these things happen, around a year or so ago I went to the vets to get my cat's vaccinated, parked up went to get them out only to realise I'd left them in their basket in the hallway!!! By no means as frightening as your experience, but an example how these meds can affect your mind, so don't be hard on yourself.

Banana - As I said before, you're doing so well so please don't give up as it will be worth it in the end. Take it from someone who's been there

Chillo - That's fab about the weight loss, it's definitely a confidence booster and gives that feel good factor. Hope your good mood carries on into your weekend and there on after.

Yoda - Hope you're well hun and enjoyed your chocolate, anything exciting planned for the weekend? i'll probably have to disappear with DD I'm certain the atmosphere isn't going to be great here!!!

Wish me luck everyone, I'll be in touch xxx

Summer I hope the talk goes well. Stay calm, if you can. Let us know how it goes, won't you?

Good luck summer!

Hello everyone. Plans for the weekend include seeing my mum who us back froma weeks holiday in spain and making rockets out of old squash bottles with DD. Also prob going to look for a halloween outfit for DD so pretty good really. I'm off for half term now too so no work for a week. Yipppeeee

Chillio that is brilliant news about your weight loss. Good on you.

Orm I too think i will adopt Gonna's good parenting measurement

Summer good luck and if you can let us know how it goes.

Gonna - well done on the cutting down. Like you said being a bit ratty is farily normal for any parent i think.

Take care everyone

Where have Booli and Pink PussyCat gone? Hope you are OK. Drop in and let us know

In the face of full scale adoption of my parenting standards I should add that as child psychologist (the phrase 'good enough' was coined by a chap called Winnicott) there is something I forgot - hugs! Lots of them...and makes me feel better too!

Seriously there ain't any such thing as a perfect parent - as soon as we all realize that we can stop beating ourselves up!

My 15 year old has just gone back to cuddling in public, can't wait for middle son to grow as as unselfconscious!

Hi Everyone,

Firstly, Gonna - So sorry I didn't mention you in my last post, thanks for thinking of me. Great news on cutting down

I did it!!! H has agreed to move out and stay with his sister and we're going to take it from there. TBH it was too easy, no put downs, arrogance and the rest of his usual behaviour, makes me kind of suspicious but that's another day?!!!

Feel very relieved, next step is to explain this to DD, but that's in the next few days. I'm exhausted.

Thanks for your support xx

Good Luck to everyone who is coming off citalopram. I'm keeping a diary ( with some lighthearted bits)to track how long it takes to come off and how bad/good it gets. You can follow me on: citalopram.myinternetblog.net

xx

fantastic news summertimefizz, so so pleased it all went well for you and it didnt turn into world war 3. you ARE brave, you see! must have taken so much courage and strength to face it, but you did it.....huge pat on the back and well done hug for you.
sorry for not posting for a bit, we all have yet another stomach bug...... me and the two boys puking all the time..... i thought it was down to the 5!!!!!!!!!!!!! huge lindt bunnies i ate but it seems i wasnt being punished for stealing my sons irthday chocolate after all.
Chillo- wow , great news on the weight loss, it seems half the people who take the pills pile on the weight and the other half seem to have it drop off! im never in the half that has the weight loss side effects of medication, i blame my mother for passing on fat genes to me! well done you though-how did you do it?
Broken- hows work sweetie? hope the tosser is behaving himself?? hope you and DD had fun making the rockets.
gonna-how things with you? must be nice having cuddles in public again ? what is it with teenagers? cant believe i was ever one! seems so long ago!
well i feel so much better, havent tried to buy a boad for some time now!!! had my awful sharon osbourne hair coloured back to my normal blonde and joy of joys it didnt fal out and i havent ended up looking like freddie boswell, so between looking more like myself and feeling more like myself due to pills kicking in things at last seem to be looking up, despite having my head down a loo for most of the night. well got to dash as off to visit mu mum for cake and cuddles, not looking forward to the 6 hour car journey though. will post again in few days, xxxxxxxx

oops, meant to say that i havent tried to buy a "boat"