Day 8 Off Citalopram And Feel Alive!

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The last 4 days have been yuk but I feel great today! I first noticed yesterday that I am feeling things more, I cried while watching a movie yesterday and that hasn't happened for a while. Although the Citalopram capped the anxiety it also capped a lot of the good stuff. Anyways I just wanted to give some hope to people who are thinking of coming off and worried after reading many horror stories.

Can you arrange to not be alone for next few days and then press on for a little while? Most people seem to have a horrid few days 9sometimes a week or two) and then feel so much better.

If not - there are other antidepressants - do talk it through with Dr.

x

How tou doing everyone? I have now been on 20s for week and am very tired and headachy but not too low. At least I am not crying every day again!

Just checking in. DH and I have norovirus so I won't hang around in case you catch it.

7 Yrs ago i was taking this i had a nervous breakdown, i had to see councelors too which helped, one day i woke up and decided this is the day to stop i had enough of being in limbo so i warned my family i didnt no what to expect anyway i just stopped them and had a dreadfull 10 days then all of a sudden i felt great.....i still have 'downers' but try to overcome them its not easy and depression is a very terrible thing something you dont understand unless you been there.few weeks ago i had an abnormal smear result which resulted in my severe depression coming back big time couldnt eat sleep just cried im becoming bit of a hermit again spoke to my gp who wanted to put me back on tablets so far i have resisted although i am seeing a councellor again it helps to talk....i went for biopsy for abnormal smear 4 weeks later got the all clear but i am still letting the fear take over my life of it returning be strong for yourself mental health is mis understood

Hi everyone. Weekend not been too bad here, apart from missing dh terribly, he's been away for a week at a conference in the US. Due to arrive back on Tues and it can't come quickly enough!

Decided to visit my parents today, they live about 1 hour's drive away. It always feels like a big deal to go there because ds (who still naps for about 2hrs in the afternoon) refuses to sleep at their house. So he has to have his nap in the car on the drive home - result - grumpy difficult child for remainder of the day. But he seemed to have fun there so it was worth it really.

Monday + Tuesday are nursery days so will have a chance to think straight (I hope!)

Do any of you have any experience of hair loss with citalopram? I am losing an awful lot this last week. I had post-pregnancy hair loss that didn't settle down until ds was 18 months old, and my hair was JUST beginning to look healthy again Had lots of blood tests at that time and drs couldn't find anything wrong and it was put down to hormones. I am starting to think that it could have been stress.

Chillo - hope you feel better soon, I had the dreaded Noro recently, it was not pleasant.

Sunfleurs - how have you been doing? Hope things are settling.

Yodayoda - How are the early side effects going? I think I have been pretty lucky so far having only had a mild headache and a bit of a dry mouth. Unless the blimmin hair loss is anything to go by..

Brokenbanana - Hope things at work are now going a bit more smoothly for you

to summertimefizz and sandrella and everyone else

Hi to Everyone, I'm a mess, had a terrible weekend tears, arguments and discussion of divorce. I won't bore you with the details as I suppose this would be a different thread, but the outcome has left me exhausted. I drank half a bottle of rum neat with cocodamol and finished it off with some wine to numb all this drama.

This is the worst I've felt in weeks and it's hit me like a truck, I don't feel I can pick myself off the floor and I hate it.

I really don't know how I'm going to get through this.

Sorry to depress you all, just needed to get it off my chest...

Not surprised you needed to get that lot off your chest.

What a horrible time. Can you find a friend to go for a walk with today? Only a little thing but may help you feel a little better...

x

Hi Sandrella. I hope everything is ok for you.

PinkPussyCat (I keep nearly shortening your name and leaving the cat off ) I haven't experienced hair loss with the tablets, I don't think. I lose masses anyway! Is it listed as a side effect?

Ooooh I must remember to put my prescription in today for more tablets!

The puking has stopped in Maison-de-Chillo, thank goodness, but I am still too scared to eat anything, which isn't at all like me.

Summertime, feel free to air your experiences and feelings here if you want to. I am sure no-one will mind at all. Have the arguments at home been going on for a long time or was it something out of the blue? We all know that the alcohol and the tablets maybe aren't a good choice in such large quantities together, but you can be sure that you won't be the only person to have done such a thing. My favourite quote comes to mind: 'If you're going through Hell, keep going' (Churchill) Sending strong thoughts your way.

hi chillo, so glad you are feeling better and the puking has come to an end, enough in itself to send you demented! sorry been off ine for couple days, been manic here, still v tired and and headaches from hell!

pinkpussycat... my god my hair is falling out at an alarming raate!!!! i put it down to colouring it (have been blonde all my life then had a bit of a crisis and coloured it dark chocolate few weeks ago) bit i am unplugging the pulg hole for agaes after i wash it! then more is on the floor after i have blow dryed it! i an supprised i am not bald already! think its growing back a bit now as i have tiny spiky bits all along my hair line! but its till coming out ! shit !!! i will have to invest in a winter hat and then ask santa to bring mr a wig!
as if we are not coping with enough crap at the mo! the last thing we need is bloody hair loss! gotta laugh or i may cry!

do you still have dry mouth and headache? i am in week 2 now but cut my dose from 20mgs to 10mgs as was having the squitters too, but tummy has settled but head,hair,insomnia,drfy mouth and tiredness still ongoing....... oh well at least it aids the weight loss...again another battle to overcome....small steps and one thing at a time ay?

hows all with tosser boss?????????
xxx

Hi Gonnabehappy anf Chillo, thanks for your replies really appreciated.

This situation at home has been going on for sometime now, DH and I have been together for 22 years married for 15. DH plays mind games will say something truly awful to hurt me then do something really nice all in the same breath. He's controlling but not in an obvious way to everyone, his family/friends think he's wonderful. My close G/F's aren't fooled by his charm and so called wit, he knows they see right through it, so he tries to avoid seeing them. DD and I are like trophies he takes off the shelf to polish and show off in public, but in private we're put back and not bothered with. We live seperate lives. There have been affairs etc, I could go on....

Since coming off the tablets everything seems so clear, I've found the strength to fight mine and my daughters corner. DH doesn't like the new Summertimefizz who has an opinion and tells him when he's wrong etc because he's been able to get away with so much for the last 3/4 years. I'd been living in a fog where my senses and feelings were dampend by the AD's.

Seperation/divorce has been mentioned in the past but nothings ever come from it mainly due to DD. This relationship make me ill, I need peace for my DD and for myself, just need to pull myself well and truly together to say I want to seperate/divorce. I've just had enough...

summertimefizz, hang in there sweetie, you sound like you are having an awful time but you also sound as if youve found some inner strength and as you say "the fog" has lifted. only you know if the relationship is worth saving, but you owe it to yourself and DD to be happy and in a nice environment, maybe this may be with or without husband??? but be true to you, and you need to be able to get yourself well and and have the support to do so, and not the degrading and unkind remarks all the time. be strong, be happy and don let it all get you down as you sound as if things have been better since coming off the pills? we are here for you xx

Oh Yoda thank you so much for your kind words, TBH if it wasn't for my DD I really don't know what I'd do.

All the ladies on this thread are very suppportive, sometimes when you're in the midst of everything, you forget there are others who are going through similar and at times worse ordeals than yourself and importantly you're not alone.

Thanks again..xx

Summertime that is one hell of a situation to be in. It's good that you can see clearly now but it's hard too. What a bloody double-edged sword, eh? How old is your daughter?

Hi Chillo, DD is 11 next month will be starting secondary school next year, so my realisation of 'life' has come at bad time really. I don't want to disrupt her life during this time as it's an important year for her, but when will it ever be a good time to split a family?

There is never a perfect time, if you are to take in everyone's opinions, but she's at an age when she will understand what is going on around her.

Just be honest, and take your time. This is your life don't rush into anything.

I feel great today! I am on a high completely (coffee fuelled!). I didn't have a tablet yesterday or today because I have run out and haven't been to the chemist yet. Someone talk sense into me and tell me to go and get them!!

morning chillo, GO TO THE CHEMIST! youe high is more to do with the coffee than lack of pills, no doubt, but if you just stop taking tham you may be heading for a crash in mood and emotion, would be such a shame as you have been doing so so well........ up to you, but the withdrawls of these pills are supposed to be a bugger and it does stress in the leaflet NOT to just stop taking them. if you are keen to stop them just start to wean youself off them, but do go to the chemist, would hate for you to been feeling rotten in next couple of days, whilst you are out, treat yourself to something nice, or a gigantic chocolate bar, keep the high going. xxxx

Summertimrfizz, how you feeling today sweetie? i hope you are ok and staying strong. you are a very brave lady to br managing with all this, your daughter will never be at the right age to be prepared for a split, but maybe long term she will need a stable calm environment to be able to cope with the added stresses of starting secondry school, and you deserve to be happy, gonnabehappy is right though, it is your life and you should takt some time to yourself and evaluate what is going to be best for you and DD. hope you have a happy day.
and ladies- i declare this "chocolate day" and any chocolate consumed today (for one day only) will contain no calories, thats right, NO calories, so gor for it and find the biggest bar or box, (the huge christmas tins are in the supermarket at the mo) and scoff away xxxxxxxxxxx

Got the tablets - taken them! Nobody panic

I'm off to get come chocolcate...

I did not like to tell you to keep taking them - especailly as I am trying to stop! BUT I am so pleased, I think it is really important to get a steady period before making changes.

yeeeha, all is well and i have a house full of lindt chocolate, so as soon as my two sons are asleep i am having a massive pig out, yummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmy.
chillo, glad you got the pills, and enjoy the chocolate. xx

Lindt??!!! YUMMY! You are so lucky! Where do you live? I can come now!!!

Hi Everyone, everyone sounds so upbeat it's brilliant I'm fed up with my arm just want it all done and dusted now and it back to normal.

Yoda, I don't feel brave at all quite weak actually, made the decision many years ago to leave H always found an excuse not to.

Chillo, Glad you got your pills, the ladies are right you've been doing so well, pleased you didn't put a spanner in the works!! I'll give you my address so you can send me some chocolate

Gonna, I've done alot of thinking, too much I reckon but no action. My DD loves her dad to bits obviously and craves for his attention. I'm hoping when the split has happened and everythng has calmed down, my H will make the most of his time when with DD.

I want to have THE conversation with H on Friday as he'll be working from home and DD will be at school, so we'll see.....

Enjoy your chocolate

summertimefizz, you seem vey brave to me ans far from weak, you are facing up to a huge emotional problem and are dealing with it, that ever so brave if you ask me. i hope all goes well with the "conversation" with H on fri. we are here for you when ever you need us ok, there is a nice group of girls on this thread at the moment and are all very supportive, so stay on here and stay strong.

chillo- you are more than welcome to share in the lindt mountain with me, if however you can live with the terrible guilt of stealing from a child!!!!!!!!!!!! DS turned 1 yeasterday and his granparents and a couple of other people bought him lindt bunnies (big ones) so hes ended up with 5!! mmmmmmmm
well make that 4 as i have scoffed one earlier! oops, well fancy buying a baby huge thick, yummy chocotale bunnies anyway? whats a girl to do with the gold wrappers winking at me every time i open the fridge! roll on 8pm and i will e in lindt heaven, sod the diet for today.

brokenbanana- how you doing? hope all is well and the "tosser boss" is behaving himself? was thinking of you today, xx