Day 8 Off Citalopram And Feel Alive!

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The last 4 days have been yuk but I feel great today! I first noticed yesterday that I am feeling things more, I cried while watching a movie yesterday and that hasn't happened for a while. Although the Citalopram capped the anxiety it also capped a lot of the good stuff. Anyways I just wanted to give some hope to people who are thinking of coming off and worried after reading many horror stories.

Hi summer - no problem! We've all been there Hope things are a bit better now.

banana - good! Sounds like your boss has realised how wrong he is and has backed off. Shame it took a union rep to make him realise this though.

Feeling much much better mood wise. I am getting litle bursts of anxiety but not too bad. And I get terribly sad sometimes but again, bearable. I can feel all the 'stuff I have to do' ganging up on me and I am going to have to fight to keep on top of them and my feelings. I have a stinking cold atm. Which is crap. All in all better than I was.

No worries - hang around tell us how you managed to get yourself in a slightly better place - hoping you have!

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Summer it is great to hear from you! I was thinking about you yesterday and wondering how you were doing. Feel free to come back

Orm, you have put that feeling so well: all the stuff ganging up on you. Can you tackle one thing at a time? I try to do that but sometimes (most of the time) I feel like I am pedalling backwards.

Yes chillo I will. Try to anyway. Christmas is looming atm. I will cook for my lot plus mum and dad and MIL. I love that. But the house is a disgrace. We need a new carpet in the sitting room, all the other carpets need cleaning, and every single room needs decorating (I mean horrible grubby walls). But before we do any of that we have got to declutter - not easy anyway but it's not my stuff that needs decluttering so that's a problem in itself. DS is going to Germany and i have to sort all his stuff. And I haven't even started shopping for presents yet......

Now I have to get a grip

Hi Brokenbanana,
wow im so chuffed for you, that the tosser boss seemed to have eaten humble pie, and that you have mustered up all that inner strenght..WELL DONE YOU. you should be so proud of yourself, if you can face that you can face anything.

HELP anyone know anything aout the workings of facebook????????
having a v v v v bad day, to cut a long story short, ive been blonde haired all my life but was at a low ebb few weeks and decided to dye my hair chocolate brown, which turned oyt like reddish like sharon osbourne! huge mistake and i cried for 2weeks! well some prat has tagged a picture of me (with horrid upsetting hair) onto my public forum page in the section "pictures other people have added of you " and i cant delete it, ive removed the tag but all that has done is take away my name not the picture, so all can now view it! i was just starting to get myself together and feeling bit more positive about life and this happens, i am crying as i write this.... does anyone know how to delete the pictures others have added or does anyone have a husband who is a computer wizz who can help PLEASE PLEAS PLEASE, im devastated about my hair as it is but to have it posted on facebook has sent me over the edge......
sorry to waffle, got to go and blow my nose. love yoda xxxxxxxxx

Thank you all so much for being understanding.

Gonna and Orm thank you for replying so quickly and for being so accepting, was scared of what the response would be.

Chillo, I'm touched that you were thinking of me despite everything, that made me cry...

I'm still off the tablets and can't believe how clear headed I am. I've had some very good days and a few not so good which always scare me as I think I'm reverting back to the very bad times. Still having a drink can't seem to shake that one off completely (don't think I truly want TBH)

My arm is still in a cast which won't be coming off until the end of November which is frustrating and gets me down.

Anyway sorry for babbling, glad to be back and thank you again ladies. I hope I can be as supportive to you as you have been to me...

Hi Yoda, sorry to hear you're having a bad time.

I've spoken to DH he seems to think that you can't delete yourself, you will need to report it to Facebook and request for it deleted. Not sure if correct or not but you can give it a go.....

Good luck and try and keep your chin up.

thanks summertimefizz, and thankyou to Mr.Summertimefizz too, i have contacted the person who posted it and they have removed it, i also foung if you remove your name from a tagg it removes your photo from yourf facebook.
sounds as if you are going through the mill too at the mo, stay on mumsnet, the girls on here have been a godsend to me since i joined few weeks ago, so wonderful to know we are not alone and not going mad. hope your arm isnt too bad? what happened (if its not too personal) must be so difficult being in a cast, trying to run a home and family, what a nightmare, give yourself a huge pat on the back, as you deserve it. ive got a huge painful ganglion on top of my wrist and now another on the same hand by the web of my thumb, which was booked in to have removed under general anasthetic but had to cancle as they said i wouldnt even be able to pich up the baby for a wekk or so or get it wet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!impossible with a young family so had to cancle my op.at lesst i had that option, you heave had the same situation thrust upon you so well done for managing. thanks again for the facebook info. yoda xxxxxxxxxxxx

Yoda, chuffed you've got the photo removed, you certainly don't need any added stress!!!

Thank you for your words of encouragement, they go along way You're right the girls are great, TBH I don't know what I'd have done especially in the early days without their support.

I'd love to say that I fractured my arm whilst filming an action movie, but reality is I was playing TAG with my daughter, slipped on a runner in the hallway!!! It's been on 9 weeks now and basically I've had enough. What are you going to about your ganglion? You're damned if you and damned if you don't it must be awful. You're very strong to put up with the pain.

Summer xx

Hi, can I join this thread please? Took my first Citalopram 10 mg about 4 hours ago. During that time I have had a dry mouth, been yawning loads and got a bit of a headache. Not sure whether these are side effects this early in but they certainly feel like it. Just feel a bit tired and rubbish really.

I was scared beyond measure about taking it but I know I have to do something as my quality of life is really being affected by anxiety and panic disorder.

So hello all and any positive stories and bracing advice would be most welcome.

Sunfleurs, just on my way out, but welcome to the thread, we are all in the same boat, stay on mumsnet its a huge support and the advise is uplifting. youre not alone. the headache and dry mouth i have too and am on day 7 so far so thinks its normal, there are some lovely ladies, chillo, brokenbanana, booli etc who have great advice on the pills so hope they will pich up on your questions and help you through. im on it for severe postnatal anxiety too! we can all help each other out. love yoda xxx

summerfizz, checked facebook and horrid very bad hair day pic defo off thankgod! xxx will log in soon xxxx

oops meand advice, not advise!!!!!!!

sunfleur - I had very little problem with the pills at all, apart from incredible sleepiness which, after months of feeling on knife edge all the time, actually felt quite nice .

It did wonders for me and the I felt better very soon.

I was out of control with anxiety - losing weight, had 'stress tummy' all the time, felt physically run down. Citalopram made me feel like I'd come in out of a cold wind and could relax. Notwithstanding how hard coming off has been, I wouldn't have been without them and will take them willingly if I need to again.

Hi Sunfleurs, Welcome to MNs!!! These symptoms are your body adjusting itself to the meds, a bit strange at first and will normally settle down soon.

I started Citalopram 10mg for depression after the death of a loved one, it was the best thing I did. Yes I did have some dizziness and some out of body experiences, but they also gave me calm, I was able to scrape myself off the floor and start to feel a bit more positive about life.

Try and stick with it, you'll definitely get all the support you need from the girls on this thread, so post anytime.

Hi everyone. Thanks so much for your support over tosser boss! Will be touting my union membership loud from now on.

Welcome back Summer great to be hearing from you again.

Hi Sun.

I've been off my tablets for 4 days now and getting some wierd effects so was just wondering if any of you had the same thing. I keep getting this rushing sort of sound in my ears and a sort of throbbing in my hands and feet. It's not happening all the time but i don't like it. Don't really know how to explain it properly but it feels horrible. Anyone else had like anything this?

Orm, our place is a disgrace too, so you're not alone. We rent, though, so I refuse to pay to do up someone else's house. It's embarrassing to have people around At least we have a roof over our head, though. I love your description of how Citalopram made you feel: coming out of a cold wind. Thank God for drugs, eh??!!

Glad you got the photo sorted, Yoda. There are some horrendous ones of me floating about on FB What's a ganglion? [thick emoticon]

Welcome Sunfleurs Sounds like the citalopram could make a difference to you, in a good way, as it did for me and others on this thread. Feel free to offload here.

BrokenBanana, I have experienced stuff like what you describe since I have cut down from 60 to 40mg. I get like the wind rushing crossed with a sort of throb in my ears. It's almost like the noise you get in your ears when you are going to faint, but without feeling faint. I have had some bloody annoying restless legs type feelings too, but they seem to be going.

I saw the doc this afternoon and he asked about cutting down to 20mg, but I said not yet, maybe next month. Chicken, huh?

Hi BrokenBanana, thanks for the welcome back, really pleased you got that Boss of yours sorted

Chillo, Chicken? No!! If you don't feel ready then end of conversation really. Only you know what you're body does and doesn't need.

Thanks loads for your messages. It was definitely time to do something. I have just been existing really trying to get through each day. Not depressed on the depression scale just constantly anxious spilling over into horrendous panic attacks, nervous tummy, can't tolerate loud noises, bad tempered etc. Just want to go back to being the Mum I used to be with my dc. Not the one who is too scared to even take them to the park but is also too anxious to be alone at home as well.

It is so reassuring to be hearing other experiences as well, yodayoda, even just hearing that you too have the dry mouth and headache is so amazingly helpful and calming to me. Funny thing is I was on an AD years ago and remember wholeheartedly recommending to my sister who had been ill and was depressed to get on them and get sorted. For some reason in the intervening years I have become utterly terrified of taking any kind of medication, even freak if I take a paracetamol .

The last 3 months had been the worst of my life and I really mean that, just hope that his medication helps me find a way out of it.

Thanks Chillio sorry you had to go through it but am relieved its a side effect and not me having some other health ishoo.

Sun - I do hope the meds help. don't be afraid. there are loads of us out here who are gulping pills and doing okish

Sunfleurs - keep going it will be a while until you reap the benefits and most of the side effects become very manageable.

I am trying to stop - but will never regret taking them.

Chillo - you will know when it is right for you to stop - and even then you may get it wrong and have to go back for a while. Have faith in your own perceptions.

Broken - yipeeeeeeeee!

Summer I can't wait to get to where you are now.

In the meantime - cheers!

Hi all, had a good day today, managed to get through a couple of outings with ds without feeling completely stressed. In fact it was quite enjoyable! Most definitely a placebo effect though, I'm only on my third day of the citalopram.

Like sunfleurs I have found it immensely calming to read that others are having/had similar minor things like headache etc. I'm delighted to have found this thread and am going to make the effort to post regularly.

Aside from that, anyone know what to do with a 2 year old who doesn't respond to bribery? I'm sure he checks MN on the sly and has sussed my motives

Hope everyone is well, thanks again for being so lovely and welcoming x

Well done PPC, on the outings.

I'm going to give some very un-MumsNetty advice with regard to 2 year olds When bribery doesn't work with my DS, and he seems to have grown deaf to my voice, no matter how softly I speak or loudly I shout, I take him firmly by the arm and say directly to him 'we are doing this and you need to do as I tell you'. It usually gets a few crocodile tears, but he stops resisting, and I've got used to the dirty looks from other people (they may or may not be in my mind. The looks, not the other people!) as I drag lead him away. It's the only way I can do it sometimes.

Good morning. Well I had a horrific night. Started having panic attacks at around 9 pm they went on for a couple of hours. Managed to sleep only after a friend came round and sat with me, then woke up at 4 am panicking but listened to a relaxation cd and managed to get back to sleep. Finding that I have to keep taking really deep breaths as well as I don't feel that I am getting enough air in. Horrible headache too. Can someone tell me if they went through any of this because I am feeling very much like not taking todays dose because I can't face another night like that.

Doctor has prescribed Diazepam to get me through the first couple of weeks but I am reluctant to take that too. Should it really be this hard? Any thoughts or advice would be really helpful.

Morning sunfleurs. I did have panic attacks for quite a while when I started the meds, and I remember holding on to DH for dear life when we were out. Are you on your own at home? What a lovely friend to come over and sit with you!
A relaxation CD will help, I'm sure.
I know it's hard, but try not to focus on things too much, like the breathing.
I've never had Diazepam.

Thanks for replying Chillohippi. Not sure where to go from here really. I felt 100% worse last night than I ever did before so I am wondering if maybe this drug is just not for me. It is hard to know what to do. I know if I ring the GP she will tell me just to press on but I am just too scared to.

Oh well have another hour or so before I absolutely have to take them so will see then.