The Anxiety Club (continued) !

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Hi girls, i have started a new thread for us all. The other was too long. Hope you all find it.

I can't believe I just found this thread, may I please join you? I have read so much of what I experience in your posts. I have had general anxiety since childhood and have never met a soul who understood - some of your posts describe the feelings so well...

Evening everyone! Just finished clearing up after dinner, made a lovely roast chicken today, so feel all smug with myself (watch out rachel allen)

Welcome choclab and itsabeautullife. This anxiety lark is not much fun but it is so common unfortunately. Choclab - I have suffered with breast pain from time to time and it could be a number of innocent things such as 1) Hormonal, 2) Have you wore a new bra? That can actually effect your breasts. 3) Lifting something heaving and straining neck/shoulders which in turn gives you a pain.

I went to the doctor over breast pain and she discovered I had bruised a rib! From lifting my 9Ib 3 oz ds out of the cot/pram. This is not to discount your worries . If it continues go and see your GP to put your mind at rest but it probably is something innocent.

Have my 2nd counselling session tomorrow. Feel more positive going, god only knows what I will be like coming out!!!

hi girls, i' in centre parcs this week and have no access other than my phone. Kildare, how did ur session go today?? Well i hope! Welcome new faces, happy to have u around. Will have a proper catch up when i get back. Hope everyone is well x x

Hi YommyMommy, Hope you are having a lovely time in centre parcs! Got on grand with my session last night. Felt very comfortable with my counseller and talked about loads of things that I hadn't thought about in a long time. So I think I am on the right road anyway which is half the battle! Talk later.

Hi ladies,

How are you all?? Hope you are all having a lovely weekend :D I made my drive up from England alone yesterday, I had one teeny tiny little panic, which passed so quickly So proud of myself for doing that!!! Feel like its been such a break through :D lol! Can you tell I am pleased??!!!

I am just going to have a wee day at home today, other than a quick trip to the park n shops. Need to catch up with all my house work

Anyway, just a wee quicky whilst I am eating whats left of my lunch (DS2 is helping me eat it) rolls eyes

Be back soon x x x

you know guys i thibnk i need to gewt a counclior how do i go about it .

Think your first port of call should b your GP kurves - they will arange for you to see one! Good luck and keep us posted

xxX

hi choclab i get the shooting pain in the breast and am always checking them but i know its anxiety cause they happen and all the other symptoms kick in. you will be ok i check mine regularly too.

Afternoon Ladies!

Where have you all gone???

Hope you have all been keeping busy and aniety free! I am doing pretty well at the moment! Long may it last!!!!

Loving the Easter faces!

Just wanted to wish you all a happy Easter! Hope you all come back soon!

x x x

Hi Yommy. I'm back!

Good to hear you're ok, hope you had a good time in Centre Parcs, well done on getting through the drive. Nice to see some new faces.

Just got internet back on today so just popping in to say hello. I'm off out for a meal with a friend tonight so will catch up properly tomorrow

xxx

Glad to have you back Blissa!

Hope you have a wonderful night out with your friend!! x x x

Hi Yommy

Happy Easter!

Had a lovely meal last night, and then got a lie in this morning as dp got up to watch the Grand Prix. Have managed not to let the dcs scoff chocolate all morning- they have just got back from the park with dp. I caught up on the housework and now just have the roast to do.

So glad to have t'internet back again. Had to get the phone line fixed first and then spent all afternoon on the phone yesterday getting back on line.

How is your eye now Yommy? Is your dh away again now?

Hi to everyone else, if your all around

xx

Hey Blissa,

Happy Easter to you too! And anyone else reading

Sounds like you are being soiled! lol! Enjoy it while it lasts!

DH is away at the moment to just enjoying Easter with my boys - who have been eating rubbish all day Oh well, its only one day out of a year!!! Think I have sickened myself with choc today! Been to visit the Grand Parents - boys got way too much, so i'll obviously have to share it with them!!! Then I quick trip to the park on our way home, then slammed my leg in the car door! Ouch! Think I am going to have a massive bruise!!!

Couldn;t be bothered doing the whole roast thing today - so going to treat myself to chinese!

My eye is fine, thanks! Healing really well, think I might just be left with a tiny scar!

Hope you enjoy the rest of your day!

x x x

Hi Yommy

Hope your leg is ok, and that you're enjoying your Chinese- yum!

Dp has gone out for a bit, so I am catching up on here with a glass of wine. Dcs are settling all together in the same room , we'll see if ds goes to sleep.

Hey Blissa,

Leg is fine and chinese was lovely! Although I was short of cash when I went to pick it up lol! I only had £10 on me and no purse or bank card (who would have expected a meal for one to have come to more that £10 ) Anyway, it came to £10.90! I offered to go back home, but the they let me off - how embarrasing, lol!

Did you get DC settled okay last night! Can;t wait til my two have that closness! Its so sweet!!! This is the first night since the holidays started that DS;s have been in bed for 8 and it feels great Going to have some time to myself n catch up on fb!

We just had a wee day in the house today as the weather has been so rubbish. Its been a little boring, hopefully weather will be better tomorrow!

Have you got anything nice planned for the holidays??

x x x

HI all, been awhile but just not finding the time. Yommy, we had chinese today and was lovely too!

Happy Easter, hope everyone had a good weekend. we've 'left' dd1&2 at the inlaws so just have baby to enjoy for a couple of days (scary that 1 baby seems so easy now).

kildare, glad counselling is going ok.

I'm seriously thinking about asking my GP to get counselling again as I don't feel I'm getting over this horrid anxiety. today I felt really detatched from my dd's since i was concentrating so much on being anxious. i just don't know how to handle it.

and now that I'm not worrying about my abdominal soreness, I'm focusing on glands that seem swollen at the back of my head... wtf? do you do that? once you find a 'cure' or answer to one ailment, there's another one to worry you?

I'm actually worried to check my breasts for fear I'll find something (have just finished BF so am going to wait a couple of weeks so the lumpiness goes away, otherwise I'll freak out; it's happened the last two times I stopped BF).

ok, just offloading. hope you don't mind .

plans for the hols: my sis is visiting from the US with her 1 year old DS, hurrah! i really miss my family so any visit is a treasure.

any holiday plans for you, Yommy and anyone else?

oh, and blissa, I wasn't very good at managing the DD's scoffing choc, they ate so much and were on sugar highs for most of the weekend! thankfully, there's no chocolate left.

evening ladies,
sorry for evaporating the last few weeks, things bouncing between being great and absolute dog shit.
therapist is away for a couple of weeks and I have managed to convince myself that the reason she is not around is because she is testing me to see if I can cope. I am really really trying not to let her down.

promise to try harder friends.

greyskull, please don't be too hard on yourself. Hope you're ok.

Morning ladies, Feel a little anxious this morning. I don't know what over yet No counselling tonight as therapist is away on holidays. Not anxious over that. I've had a couple of glasses of wine each night since Good Friday and I don't think it is the best thing to do when you are prone to anxiety and on ADs.

I have say though typing my thoughts down is quite calming and it is great to have this tread. I had a lovely Easter, had my parents around for dinner on Sunday and a good time was had by all. My dcs got loads of easter eggs and are in chocolate heaven!

Yommy - meant to post earlier and say well done on your long road trip. Its not easy. I have lately got anxious driving on motorways. In January when the weather was really snowy and icy, I had 2 incidents of where I drove over black ice and lost control of the car. Thankfully I wasn't going particulary fast and didn't crash but I nearly had a heartattack on the spot! Since then I am a little nervous but I keep saying to myself that I am a good driver and that the car is in good nick so nothing to worry about . I went for a long drive on Saturday to visit friends and I was dreading it but I just put negative thoughts to the back of my head and just concentrated on the road and it worked. I had a lovely time and coming home was much more relaxing. Its amazing how the mind works!

Greyskull - How are you this morning? We are all here for you.

Younger - I have done that before, when one thing is fixed, look for something else to worry about. Its like we have to feed the anxiety . Go back to GP and have a good chat with her. What age is your baby?

One thing that struck a chord that my therapist said to me is that she thought I was very hard on myself, which I never considered. I think as mothers we all tend to want everything to be "right/perfect" and life is not like that. Our expectations and the realities of life do not always meet up in the middle.

On a lighter note myself and DH watched Jonathan Creek on Sunday night, I watched from behind a cushion for most of it!

Weather is terrible today, I think I will bring ds1 and ds2 to a indoor playcentre later on. They can run around like lunatics and I will enjoy a gossip mag and a cup of tea! Talk later. xxx

Hi, am supposed to be working (job is work from home) whilst baby is napping but saw Kildare's post. I'm not very good either when drinking. I've drunk quite a bit at the inlaws over the weekend and have had terrible, anxious nights subsequently.

I had a just a small glass of beer with my DH last night and noticed a huge difference in that I was more relaxed and my headache/swollen glands went down. I think i'm going to stop drinking altogether or at least just leave it to a glass or two on weekend nights (easier said than done!).

Kildare, 'baby' is growing quickly - she'll be a year on 2/5 (!). HOpe you have fun at the playcentre with your DS's. my older DD's are doing the same today but with the inlaws (lucky them!).

take care and I think it's good to remember your therapist telling you you're hard on yourself. might bring your standards down to a more realistic level so you can relax a bit more (as said earlier - easier said than done!).

Hi ladies

Ds didn't settle in the end Yommy, he ended up back in his own bed at 9pm. Hope the weather has been better today . How long is dh away for? Have you heard anything about your job applications yet?

We still have lots of chocolate left Youngerthan, and I made a cake yesterday too, oink! Hope you are enjoying your day with the baby, it does seem so much easier when you only have one at home. When do the others come home? I think speaking to your gp is a good idea. I went through the same last year- I would stop worrying about one symptom only to find another, it's exhausting, especially when it's all you think about. How lovely to have your sister over, are you from the US originally?

Hope you are ok Greyskull. It's always good to see you. Has convincing yourself that she is testing your coping ability helped at all? Try not to put too much pressure on yourself. We are here if you need us.

Hope you're feeling better kildare, and that you had a nice time at the softplay. I think you are absolutely right about us pressurising ourselves, but sometimes it's hard not to isn't it. We need to learn to slow right down and go with the flow.

I understand what you both say re drinking. I am probably drinking too much atm, but am finding it hard to cut down. I don't like to drunk though, I did have a bit too much a few weeks ago and I really didn't like it.

Dd2 has been at a friends all day today so I took dd1 and ds to a country park for the afternoon, it has been lovely. They have the dentist in the morning and then dd1's friend is staying over tomorrow night. We are going to stay at my sisters on sunday for a few days, so I have my own long drive to worry about. I am usually a confident driver, but it is over an hours drive on the M25 to get to my sisters. I had an accident on the way there years ago and it has always made me a bit jittery since

Evening Ladies,

Kids are finally in bed This has been a long day! DS2 has been up since 6 this morning, so I am feeling pretty tired today. Watching Supersize v's Superskinny trying very, very hard not to think about all the chocolate in my fridge! Its it just me or do Easter eggs just taste better??? lol!

Nice to have everyone back

BTP, nice to see you again You are going to manage fine the next few weeks without your counsellor - if things get tough you always have us!!! How is the cake making business going???

Kildare - hope your day got better! I always feel more anxious in the morning when I am worrying about things, but I think when you feel rough from drinking it can mimic anxiety feeling, therefore making you feel more anxious IYKWIM?? lol! Did you have a good time at the soft play?? Can;t wait til mine are old enough to play on their own at these places!

Younger - hope you managed to get your work done!!!

Blissa - the drive will be fine just keep thinking about all the fun you will have when you get to your sisters! We also have the dentist tomorrow morning, lol! Our weather was pants again today - had to drag the kids out this morning . Hoping it is going to get better towards the end of the week.

Anyway, I am going to head to bed now to prevent myself going to the fridge for more chocolate! !

Goodnight all x x x

yommy easter eggs always taste better! I've just been watching The Delicious Miss Dahl, and she made some scrummy looking things. I haven't eaten yet and now I'm starving!

Good look with the dentist tomorrow!

xx

Morning everyone. Hope everyone is well. We had a lovely time at the playcentre yesterday. My 2 ds had a great time by the end of the session they were sweating buckets I sat back and relaxed with the latest Hello mag and a cup of tea. Perfect!

I am going to take it easy with alcohol as well. I am fine with once/twice a week but I think anymore than that and I find I get too anxious.

Younger - I have a May baby as well! Actually he's not a baby anymore he will be 4 this May!

Blissa - good luck with your drive, you will be great. Just think of the good time you are going to have with your sister!

Anyway the sun has decided to appear where I live and I need to hang out washing! Ah domestic biss Have a anxiety free day everyone xxx