The Anxiety Club (continued) !

[mooseloose]

Hi girls, i have started a new thread for us all. The other was too long. Hope you all find it.

Hi Greyskull, I hope you are having a better day today Therapy is difficult when it throws up stuff you didn't realise had bothered you. I found that once I had confronted my dad about how he had made me feel when I was younger we had a better relationship, so maybe when you feel ready you could try discussing how you feel with her?

I am having a really bad week this week, I feel so disorientated and panicky. I don't really know how to make myself feel better and I feel so disapointed with myself for not being able to feel positive. I am hoping that I'll feel better after I talk to my counseller on friday as I have not seen her for 2 weeks.

I hope everyone else is having a good day today

Hope you're feeling ok this morning Greyskull. I was going to say what potatocakes has posted, do you feel able to talk to your mum about it? If not now then in the future?

Sorry you are not so good potatocakes. Don't beat yourself up about not feeling positive-you will make yourself feel worse! The weather here is crappy but I just dragged my self out for a little walk with my friends dog, can you get yourself out and about today?

I think I will try and get out and about at lunch time thank you. Did the walk make you feel better? It is horrible weather here too.

Can't talk to mum about it, part of the problem is that she has Narcisistic Personality Disorder, there is no point in ever talking about it, it will just reinforce my freakiness and her sanity (in her mind)

Anyway Blissa good on you for getting out for a walk, the freshair seems to do somthing to help clear out my brain. I hope you manage to get out for a walk pc, my gran always used to say that it isn't the weather that is wrong, just our clothing choice. do you have a warm coat you can get on?

Hi Ladies,

How are you all?? I am feeling good! Had a really good weekend despite feeling a bit paniced on both Sat and Sunday Silly reasons on both days, but it passed and I still enjoyed both days

Sorry you have such a crappy relationship with your mum BTP I thankfully have a great relatioship with mine, i probably rely on her more than she knows I hope ur busy week goes as smoothly as possible! We're here for support if you need us! {{{hugs}}}

PC, please don;t beat yourself up for feeling bad! IT WILL GET BETTER - promise

Blissa - did you have a nice walk?? I find getting out for a walk always makes me feel better! I am going to try to go for a walk every day with DS2 in his pram after I drop DS1 off at nursery! Want to loose a few pounds in the run up to Christmas! I am eating way too much junk !

DH is going back to work tomorrow His two weeks home have flown by! He now has a more perminant job, which as you can imagine as lifted the fiancial pressure so he has been a lot more relaxed lately and we have all had much more fun! Not sure how long the work will last, but we'll enjoy it while it does!

And on an even better note all our christmas shopping for the boys is done Just have everyone else to buy for now .

DS2 has been a nightmare lately Still won;t let me move and his 4 front teeth all seem to be coming through at the same time! Poor wee soul! His mouth must be sore as he has barly stopped moaning the past few days! Does anyone else find it really difficult when their little ones are like that??

Anyway, roast chicken tonight, so better get started or it will never be ready! Roast chicken on a tuesday - whats everyone else having??? I am a crap cook, although I'd like to be a good one! What's everyones family faves??? I have no imagination when it comes to cooking, lol! Ideas this way please!

Hope you are all well x x x

Hi, I think the weather definately affects my mood - I am all twitchy today too! I went to work this morn, and then went for a run- was quite nice actually after i had made the effort - the effort is the worst bit isn't it! Once you are out it's not nearly so bad. I feel quite well mostly, but I still can't go for a run on my own in daylight out from my door, so i went in the car to the park and did 7 miles. I still dont have the confidence to leave home an run on my own - silly isn't it.

Grey- Thinking about your mum I think sometimes we just trundle along in relationships without thinking and analysing them any deeper. My mum is great, but if i think deep I would say she presses her opinions and ideas on me too much, and thinks I will/should go along with her in everything, and then I question myself! For heavens sake i am grown up!!

Hope you are ok x

morning ladies,

have had a horrible night, was late for picking up ds1 from school yesterday had to leave ds2 in the car and legged it as fast as I could, felt really judged and have worried all night that social services are going to turn up and start assessing my parenting skills.
the thing is the tablets I am taking make me really sleepy, and ds2 had an afternoon nap and I fell asleep on the sofa. somehow woke up at 3.30pm
and then on the way back some arse decided to drive too close and knocked off my wing mirror I thought DH would be really cross but he was't bothered, just said that things happen and I shouldn't worry.

I am trying to be calm, I have been late for school twice in 3 years so not a frequent offender I guess it is because I know I had fallen asleep.

sorry for the wibble, am going to snuggle for the day with DS2 he has a rotten cold so we are not going to toddlers today.

Oh Greyskull, we've all been late at some point. And I've left ds in the car when he was younger and ran into the school to get dd1. It's the first time you've fallen asleep, don't be so hard on yourself . I usually set the alarm on my phone if I sit down on the sofa in the afternoon- it's lethal isn't it?!

I hope ds2s cold gets better soon. How long will take to get your wing mirror fixed?

My relationship with my mum is pretty much how you describe moose. She said a lot of things to me after I was in hospital about how dp and how he wasn't there for me and I deserve better. I don't like my parents knowing too much about our lives. I talked about it to the councellor once and she said I am basically trying to seek their approval, when I really don't need to. Like you say I'm a grown up!

How long will dh be away for Yommy? That 2 weeks has gone very quick. Poor ds2, 4 coming through at once- ouch! How was the roast? My dcs had soup last night as we were in a bit of a rush. I find we eat the same things every week, there isn't much variety and dp isn't very adventurous in his tastes! Main staples here are roasts, spag bol, shepherds pie, casseroles, sausage and mash, something with chips. Sometimes I'll do a curry or something.

I'm not great today. Not feel anxious just feel like I want to go back to bed and hide for the day. Me and dp had a little falling out last night and the dcs were all quite rude this morning so that hasn't helped. I just feel like if I let myself I could sit and cry. Trying to keep busy so that that doesn't happen. Got a headache too, think I slept funny

Blissa, I sometimes think that having a good cry really helps when I feel anxious like a release of tension. Maybe you could watch a sad film or a channel 5 afternoon movie? (my guilty secret :D)

Greyskull you must have really needed the sleep to fall asleep when you had somewhere to go so you shouldn't feel guilty about it. When I was on tablets I used to fall asleep at my desk at work all the time, its a horrible guilty feeling when you wake up i hope you feel better soon.

I am having a better day today, only a little disassociated

Hello Again ladies,

BTP, please don't beat yourself up about yesterday! I have left DC in the car a few times just to nip into tesco or to nip up to the nursery if its chucking it down! I have to admit I don; do it much as I get paraniod that someone will be watching, blah, blah! Social services wouldn't waste their time with a brilliant mummy like you

Blissa, I think we may have gotten out of the same side of the bed this morning . I also have a headache and could cry at the silliest things today! Was talking to DS's nursery teacher about him going to school and I could feel myself welling up at the thought Hope u and DP have a nie evening tonight {{{{{hugs}}}}}

Potato, Glad you are having a good day When I am feeling anxious I find cryong helps sometimes too, like you say its a release!

Hi to everyone else, hope you are all having a good day!

x x x

P.S. Blissa - DH is away for 2 weeks!

Nice to know I'm not the only one Yommy . Have felt a bit better this afternoon. Don't know if it's because I'm due on soon- i think, or just tired.

How old is ds1? I put ds's application form into school last month- where does the time go?

Hopefully the next 2 weeks will go as quickly as these 2 weeks have xx

Haven't managed to watch a teary film Potatocakes-ds is watching Fireman Sam . Before I had the dcs, on my days off, I used to like to sit and watch old black and white films on BBC2 or Channel 4. They don't seem to put them on very often any more

Blis - my ds both had soup lst night too - pumpkin! I always usually cook a dinner.
I do a Sunday dinner (mmmmm), regulars are - macaroni cheese, spag bol, tuna pasta, mince and mash (ds fav). Chips sometimes, chops. I'll tell you what is lovely is Hunters chicken - chicken breast- wrap in bacon, slice pineapple, cheese and the BBq sauce - you can buy the coleman (i think it is) mix for the bbq sauce. Is dh fave.

Ooo moose that Hunters Chicken sounds scrummy! I do make macaroni cheese sometimes when dp isn't here- the only pasta he will eat is spaghetti

My lot didn't get home made soup last night it was tinned tomato. Haven't tried making pumpkin soup, I made pumpkin cake from the innards of our halloween pumpkins- now they are delicious!

confesssion =- pumpkin soup was a covent garden one - 99p offer in Sainsburys - ds adores it - can only buy it end of Oct!

Aha

I love the Tomato and Mascarpone Covent Garden soup.

Hi Ladies - I am a fellow anxiety sufferer (for 5 years) although only realised I did not have a terrible illess recently and that it was anxiety . I am thinking of starting an anxiety club in my local area (Blissa thanks for replying on the other thread) for fellow sufferers so we can get together and talk freely about it. It will also benefit me as I'm quite isolated as I just can't talk to people in social situations but I think knowing someone is going through the same thing will make it easier to talk. Have posted in AIBU but not many replies.

I was going to put a notice up at the DCs school tomorrow (not giving any personal details, just my mobile so I guage interest before I go ahead with anything) as surely I must not be the only one!!

Before I do so can someone give me their thoughts on this - would it be a silly thing to do, would you come, as I am getting anxious about doing it of course!! Part of me just thinks go for it, someone will be interested surely and it would be a really positive step for me but another part thinks what if no one is and everyone thinks I am a freak !!

Evening Ladies,

Had a bit of a crap day today Was on my way to tesco, but wasn;t feeling up to it so just went to the local shop at the bottom of the hill. Wasn;t really feeling that anxious, just worried about having a panic when i got there, if that makes sence! Just an off day I hope!

Had a wee thing at DS's nursery this morning about the importance of rhymes with your children! Was really quite good, was talking about when they go to school and the jollyphonics (sp?) they use now to learn their letters/sounds/words. It seems like a brilliant system. Not all schools use it, but both my school choices for DS do

Anyway, going to go to bed n watch octomom I thought you guys were brave having 3 kids, never mind 14 lol!

Hope everyone else is well and having a nice relaxed evening! x x x

Hi Bigmomma3,

Welcome to the threat! We both must have been posting at the same time

I think your idea about a local support group is a BRILLIANT idea! I would truely love something like that in my area!!! Might already exist, i've not looked for anything like it! Although, if yours turns out to be a sucess I think I might try ot myself!!!

Why don;t you put a notice up in your local GP surgery too???

Good luck and keep us posted as to how you get on!

x x x

Hi Bigmomma3. I was going to link you to this thread but was on my way to do the school run- hence my short post. Glad you've found us.

Like I said I think it's a lovely idea, and I'm sure people would be interested.

This thread has been quite a few months now and these ladies have been a God send to me. It's been said before on here that it's a shame we can't all meet up for a coffee.

I think Yommy's suggestion of putting a notice up in the doctors is a good one- you will reach a wider audience.

Good luck, I look forward to hearing how it goes

Hope you're ok Yommy. I'm sure today was just a blip.

I know of the jollyphonics, it is good. Dd2's school use something called bigcatphonics which is similar I think. ELC do a range of jollyphonics if you are interested in getting started!

There was an interview with that lady on the radio this morning- I just cannot imagine 15 dcs!

xx

14 even!

Hi Bigmomma - that is a great idea.
It definately helps to talk to someone who knows what you are thinking and feeling - while the rest of the world think you are cracking up! Even my HR at work had no idea and I felt patronised by them, and a little stupid. That is why is is great to come on here and offload. Noone thinks you are daft or plain insecure. I certainly say things on here my RL friends have no idea about - it's nice to be anonymous and say whatI need to say. I do worry 'what people think' too much.

I have got brave lately saying 'yes i feel fine' but today I have had those familiar butterfies and the shaky hands, and the jerky breath again, at work. I found a quiet corner to have a drink (water!!) and really felt upset I felt that overwhelmingly bad again - the shaking, the deep breaths, the need to cry. Horrible.

Hope tomorrow will be better.... x

moose - really sorry to hear that you have had a horrid day today, has anything changed in the last couple of days that you can see may have contributed to it? Have you started to feel so much better that you are taking on a bit too much too soon? I hope tomorrow goes well for you and that you have a better day.. tis nearly the weekend..

Yommy - we do jollyphonics at our school, the elc stuff has a cd with the songs on and booklets that are great introduction.

BigMomma - I think your group sounds like a great idea, but I am going to be honest ( I think that is what you are after) I would not be able to go, my anxiety about the unknown, about opening up to a group of strangers albeit people who know how I am feeling, would be overwhelming. I believe that if I could get there I would find it really helpfull and would appreciate the feeling of not being "the only gay anxiety sfferer in the village"
I also think approaching your GP would be a good idea, they may have people who they would want to quietly mention it to.
Good luck, I hope all goes well, I look forward to hearing all about your success!