The Anxiety Club (continued) !

[mooseloose]

Hi girls, i have started a new thread for us all. The other was too long. Hope you all find it.

moose its crap when they are away isnt it, i miss my DH so much, I feel so lucky that I have IMO this perfect family and the way my thoughts go is I have everything I could possibly want with them so feel like something has to go wrong IYSWIM. Glas your head is better though and hope your DS arm is better
blissa Wine was good but just had one
How is the leg now? I had sciatica earlier this year was more annoying than sore but went down my leg into my foot and the only relief I got was when DH pulled my foot when my leg was straight.
greyskull hope speech therapy went well.
yommymummy my DH has sky plussed it so will be watching when he gets home.
mumof2000 swine flu really worryin me too but I am also worrying about the jab, am asthmatic and where I work we are being pressured urged to take it dont know what to do havent made my mind up yet.
Oh hte night I had last night, was sitting having a cup of tea when smelt smoke, the dishwasher had went on fire so ran up to get DD's and phoned the fire brigade got everyone out and waited on them, luckily no one hurt but am a bit worried staying here tonight, went to mums last nigh.

Hi All , getting ready for DC going tomorrow ...packed most of boots in there bag for every eventuality .....(hoping they wont need it of corse )
They are sooooooo excited ....bless ... im goig to miss them soooooo much ,

dont want to loose it tomorrow at the airport , going to drop them off and not go in as i will find it really hard not to cry ......

anx will be bad till there there safe and sound .

Hope eveyone els ok

going to have big cuddles now all in bed together

xx

feeling very anx now ..... kids soooooo excited , just had briefing with them ...the do's ad dont's at the airport ....my DD has an old mobile which im letting her have for extra saftey ....
Once there at the villa i will feel a little better , hate all the hussle of the airport ...

On another matter as my anx is high zooming in on freckle on face , they didnt scan my face when i went but dermatologist looked at it ...im worried he may have missed something im only concerned as i was looking back at pics on computer and 2 years ago it was a bit smaller and 5 years ago was very faint .... do moles get bigger or show more pigment as you get older ? im hoping that as he looked at my face if something was v bad he would spoted it as thats his job right ?
have called the clinic but nurse i saw with scanner not in till tuesday , so will ask her then for extra reasurance ....just cant stop checking again ..... plus period due in week so hormone rush again ...

plus my father wants to talk to chldren at 9 am today to say goodbye ... i will put it on speaker phone so i can here what he says i think , hes made me feel so bad bout them going this week i really have nothing to say to him right now as im worried and anx as is dont need another lecture from him ....

Big rant sorry

Hope everyone is ok
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Hope you're ok mumof2000. Have they rung to say they've arrived? Hope the phone call from your dad was ok.

I don't know about the pigmentation etc, but I'm sure that it will be fine. I hope you get some reassurance on tuesday.

Scarey evening for you the other night with your dishwasher ellieloo, you poor things. Hope you are all ok

I've had a lovely afternoon with my sisters and nephews. Took all 6 dcs out with 2 dogs for a long walk and they all had a great time rolling down a muddy hill! They were absolutely filthy

Hope everyone else is ok xx

Hi all.
Kids got there safe and sound

spoke to them last night they were very excited to be there and just about to go for a swim then have chinese supper
feeling a bit calmer as there there now , and the villa is like home from home , they got Sky TV( although we dont have that here ) toys games etc so im sure they will be fine ...

DH and i went out for indian and came back and watched x factor and snuggled on the sofa ..

Going to go shopping today , hoping to twist DH arm to starting some xmas shopping ......maybe a spot of lunch out

I phoned my dad and let his speak to kids on speaker phone , he was ok with them , we didnt say alot , but to be honest i didnt want to as i know his thoughts on it all and dont want to here it again , as it only upsets me more ...

Trying no to think bout face as thinking of DC more , but will phone clinic on Tues as see what they say ..

Blissa .. sounds like fun on the walk with your sister and nephews and dogs , we have 2 dogs so will go out later , was raining all day here yesterday so they only got a quick one ...

How is everyone els ?

Got to get some pumpkins today to as they go so quickly i waited to last min one year thinking there was loads and be fine and then they all went and i only got 1 little one ...so will do that to .

hope all having a good weekend ? xx

Hi Girls,

Sit has been a bit quiet . How are you all?? I have been good, a bit paniced yesterday when I was out, but been okay! I have had a bit of a headache for about a week now, but think its a sinus headache (is that how you spell it, probably not!)

Its DS2 1st Birthday today! So had to get up bright and early so thay he could open all his gifts before I took DS1 to nursery, first day back after the oct hols! Had a good morning so far! Althoug DS isn;t well (bad cold) so hasn;t really been himself! I am posting pics on FB is anyone is on there!

DH is still away, but back tomorrow so we are all looking forward to seeing him! Going to take the boys out for the day thurs or friday. Just going to the local soft paly today over tea time!

Mumof2000 - so glad kids are there safe and sound! Try not to worry to much about blemish on face, I'm sure it will be nothing - unfortunatly for us anxiety sufferers our minds blow everything out of proportion! Not cool, lol!

Blissa - sounds like you had a wonderful saturday!

Ellieoooooo at dishwasher! Are you all back home now???

BTP - How are you???

Hi to everyone else! Hope you are all well!
x x x

How is everyone else???

Hi Yommy ...
sinus ca give head aches im sure , hope gets better for you , i have had a blocked kind of oise for a while doc said was sinus worst ay night as keep snoring ..

Happy bithday to your DS2hope had a nice day .

Enjoy time with DH and children on thurs/frid is DH home for long ?

Kids having such a good time spoke to them every day and my MIL is very good keeps sending me pictures of what there up to on her mobile ...they'v been to sea life place , chinese , japanese resrurant, the beach , go karts , toy shop ...loads .... and she said the have been so good ..
missing them alot but lovely to here them on phone having a great time .... and only one more night and there be home ....

Phoned clinic today as keeps praying on my mind , she doesnt think it will be anything as she only saw me 3 weeks ago and specialist would have noticed if was bad ..although im thinking ...maybe he missed it ... anyway going tomorrow as she said she can see me to put my mind at rest if i want so i am going ..

how is everyone els doing ?

Happy birthday to ds2 Yommy hope he's had a good day, even with his cold. I'm on FB, I can put my e-mail on here if you want to find me and be my friend! Hope your head is feeling better.

I hope your appointment goes well tomorrow mumof2000, I'm sure it will be fine. Sounds like your dcs are having great fun! When do they come home? Did you get and Christmas shopping done? I need to go out and get pumpkins, might do that when I go and get potatoes tomorrow.

We've had a busy couple of days, went on the train and took the kids out to a nice park yesterday and then been out to a country park today. The weather is lovely, it's so warm! I had my hair chopped off last night, the first cut I've had in a year. My hair was so crappy and had got really long, but now it's in a bob to my chin.

We might take the dcs to see UP tomorrow

Thanks Blissa, thanks ,

Sounds a busy time for you and lots of fun weather had been fab for nice walks , i was up walking our dogs at 6.30 this morning was lovely ..
And would get pumpkins as they all of a sudden go , and shops run out happened to me last year ..
Hair sounds nice , good to have a change (says she whos had same hair cut for years )...

We saw up last week or so was very good kids loved it ....bit naughty took our own sweets ad drinks as its always soooooo expensive ...i hate the way they rip you off like that ..

Feeling ok at moment bit calmer as doing something about my worry , will go tomorrow and hope be ok ...... and then .................

Going to collect my DC from air port .. YAY ...YAY ...YAY ...YAY ...cant wait to see them and give them BIG hugs and kisses .......

Cant wait to see them

How is everyone els to ..xx

There back ...There back .... safe and sound ...
lovely welcome from them both ....

Just back from long dog walk with DC and hearing all about there adventures away .......

cooking roast chicken for them for tea and will enjoy evening all together again ..

Went to clinic all fine said was fine and explained what to look out for etc ..

But Now got another sore in my mouth though ... would you believe .... i went to dentist Tuesday good look round all fine and that spot i had gone and said all looks fine everywhere els ... then last night not sure if i did it myself whilst eating a pampadom or something ...then befor went to bed noticed quite sore cheek of mouth , now today looks like ulcer again so going to put cream on ...maybe i got fro9m dentist or hygenist i saw friday ... hoping nothing bad [hsad ] but im sure wouldnt just appear like that would it ? as i did see dentist tuesday and all was fine ... i must have scratched it with something ..right ???

How is everyone els ? xx

Hi everyone, hope you are all having a good week

I am not having the best week, as I seem to get every cold going and that always makes me feel more anxious The CBT is working, but sometimes when I get myself into a real downward thinking spiral I find it very hard to come back out and I am having a lot of difficulty sleeping at the moment.

Mum of 2000 you must be so pleased to have your dcs back, were they very excited to see you?

Blissa did you go to see UP? I thought it was so lovely, but incredibly sad, my ds enjoyed the animation though (he's too young to understand the storyline)

YommyMommy I hope you are feeling better today, sinus headaches are horrible.

How is everyone else doing?

Evening Ladies,

How are you all?!

Mumof2000 - so glad kids are back safe and well And even better, sounds like they had a fantastic time! As for the mouth thing - my money is on another ulser brought on by all the worring about DC and stress caused by ur Dad?! Just keep a wee eye on it!

Potatocakes, I have been feeling exactly the same way as you the past few days! have the cold hanging over me ans starting to develop a cough which is freaking me out a little! .

Blissa - how are things with you? Sounds like you are having a lovely time with the DC! Love the new hair cut ! I really need mine done to!!!

Patientky waiting on DH's train coming in so that we can go pick him up!! Its going to be a late night for the boys . I have to take DS2 for his jags tomorrow only 2 days after his b'day too! Not sure if they will give him them as he has been unwell! I have a new HV which I am meeting for the first time tomorrow. Hope she doesn;t ask me abything about anxiety as I don;t really want to talk about it with a stranger! Do they usually check notes before a visit??? Hope not! I know my old one did as she used to always remind me that I hadn;t been for my smear after DS2 was born! She was lovely and knew all about my anxiety...

Hi to everyone else!

Anyway, only half an hour til Dh's train gets in . He is home for 2 weeks! Woo Hoo! x x x

Hi all ,

PCakes , sorry your not having the best of weeks , and hope cold gets better for you soon ..can you take anything for it ? I today bought some vitamins to try from Tescos , efavesant ones , 3 for 2 offer theres ones for immunity which has lots vit Bs and zinc and c , another one big vit c one and cant spell this one called Ecanasha ? i think all theses supossed to be good for boosting health may be good for colds to ..
so i should be fizzing around tomorrow with bags of energy

Hi yommumummy , Bet you all cant wait to see DH/daddy and wont hurt for them to have a late night im sure .
Hope your new HV is as nice as last one , mine was fantastic to really nice ..gosh that was a long time ago now ..time goes so quickly ...

Mouth sore, will cover with iglu tnight , just noticed 2 little ones ow right up under top lip ... i really wonder if dentists stuff was clean now? as didnt have them this time yesterday ....hmmm i didnt realise stress can bring them on though could be that i suppose as have felt vety anx stressed for a while now and that can supress immune system i think ...hense all thye vit i bought today hope they work ...

Hope your ok Blissa x

Children playing in there rooms now had lovely dinner and ready to have cuddles ....

Take care all xx

Hi ladies

Looks different in here... Anyone else or is it just my pc?

Stress can definately cause ulcers mumof2000, combined with being run down. I hope you've not developed any more today and that the vitamins are kicking in! Good to hear your appointment went well and that you feel reassured about your face. Lovely that your dcs are back and had a good time.

Did ds2 have his jabs today Yommy? Not a nice birthday present! Hope all went well with your new HV. I never really got involved with any of mine, they were all pretty useless! Hope you have all had a lovely day with your dh

Hope your cold is getting better Potatocakes, everything seems worse when you aren't getting enough sleep. We did see Up yesterday, we all enjoyed it, but I wouldn't be fussed about seeing it again. I felt the same about WallE. I think Dd1 (8) understood most of it but a lot of it went above the younger ones heads.

I only have ds at home tonight, the girls are staying at their friends house. Dd1 stayed at another friends last night as it was a birthday sleepover, they all stayed awake until 3am . I made her have a nap this afternoon, she slept for nearly 2 hours.

Going food shopping in the morning and will pick up bits for halloween. Got the pumpkins yesterday, so just need sweeties

Hi everyone sorry not been on for a while ~ had some problems with my dh and didn't come on mn for a while then posted under a namechange to try to sort it out.

Glad to see you still here blissa,moose,bythepower and yommy hope you all ok ~seems so from the thread
Hello to mumof2000 and elliooo I was on here a while back and had been struggling with post traumatic stress.

Am working atm so keeping busy and getting out of the house!

Hi morningsun lovely to see you, have missed you! Sorry to hear you've been having a rough time, I hope things are better now? What is the new job?

Very quiet in here ladies . Hope you are all ok. Dcs went back to school this morning and it was nice to have a break from their fighting! Back to the old routine, at least it had stopped raining for the school run.

Hi all , got rid of last ulcers , feeling good all day now think another ones coming or iv bitten again without knowing ...i could cry ... its not sore yet so should i out anything on it yet or wait and see ..? whats wrong with me ...feeling anx again now ..

How is every one doing ?

Hi Morningsun

Blissa , have you recovered from your DS sleepover ?

Its gone ...well popped ....very strange was having a look and think must have popped it ...[smile ] was like a little water blister ..v strange not sore can hardly feel or see it now ...

thank goodness ...(sigh of relief ..)

but does still high light how quickly my anx sets in . practically ruined my afternoon as was in good mood in morning ...

how can i cure my anxiety ....grrrrrrrr

sorry i must sound totally nuts ...x

me again , horrid nights sleep anx high again , can still feel spot/thing in mouth not so big maybe is saliva glad , not painfull will ust keep eye on it i think ...

trouble is its really made me down with anx and worrry ,again just want to be free of this feeling ...

sorry again x

Hi Everyone

Really not feeling good today, I have woken up feeling incredibly anxious, so much so that I threw up whilst brushing my teeth My DH is really finding this hard to deal with and has said he can't see us together if I don't help myself, but I don't know how to get out of this anxiety spiral... Its weird because I can feel great one day and the next I just want to die

Mumof2000 I hope you feel better throughout the day, I'll probably be on and off if you need to talk

Hi potatocakes ....

sorry your having a bad day (((hug)))

Why do you feel anxious today do you think ? is something on your mind worrying you ? ( you dont have to say if you dont want to )

It is a horrid feeling , i to am anxious today lots of reasons one being my mouth ...but have lots of little worries going through my head that im sure contributing to my long term problem with anxiety ...

It is hard for our DHs to understand , mine tries but sometimes im sure he has had enough to ...

I was feeling good yesterday , walked the dogs with a spring in my step , cleaned all the house ....then found spot in mouth and im then floored ......ust like that ...today just walked dogs a quick one as not feeling great ...
One day i feel in control and almost dare i say it as though i dont have anxiety ...then something can happen and im in a state again ....

just going to make a cupa ....BRB if you want to talk x

Morning ladies

I'm sorry you are both having a bad day.

Is there anything you can think of to have made you feel so awful this morning Potatocakes? My dp said pretty much the same to me and more when I was really bad a few months ago, he didn't mean it he was just frustrated with me. It is very hard for anyone to understand anxiety unless they have been through it, especially if they are a 'get on with things and don't think about it' sort of person. One thing that I said to my dp was that I didn't expect him to fix it for me, just listen to me, and if he thought I was talking bollocks that was fine- just don't tell me I'm talking bollocks! It seemed to help him

How is your mouth this morning mumof2000?

mumof2000 i have the same thing, i feel great for a few days and i think 'finally i am getting better' but then i will just wake up with palpatations and the rest of the day is awful... i am pushing through and still going to work, but it is really hard

I am not good at dealing with new things coming my way, so like tonight i am starting an evening class with my mum and tomorrow we have a big day of meetings at work, so i guess it is that.

How are you feeling, are you any better?

Blissa, how did your DH take it when you told him he didn't need to help, just be supportive? I don't know how DH will take it he is not very patient

I think he felt relieved tbh potatocakes. He has said some really awful things to me, which he now regrets, but at the time he was so frustrated, angry, stressed, worried that he just flipped. I am not making excuses for him, but I can see it from his pov.

I had basically given up, was so convinced that I was going to die that I was just waiting for it to come and get me. He told me there was nothing left to love as the old me had just disappeared. Maybe he said it to try and shock me out of it.

My MIL later told me that he talked to her and said that he couldn't understand me, as, if it were him, he'd be grabbing life with both hands and making the most of it.

I'm not saying that everything was instantly better after I spoke to him, there was still times he got angry with me. But things are much better now, he still doesn't understand, but he tries and he can recognise the signs of when I'm not right