Anyone else struggling with anxiety?

[mooseloose]

I've been off work nearly three months now and am just really fed up with myself now. i've refused any meds but I just cant get over it. I started my counselling last week, and am hopeful she can sort me out. it was caused by by son having an accident, and juggling work etc which just got too much and made me cry.
Id had a lot of panic attacks but they are getting better but now I just feel worried when i go out, and that i want to cry.
Today I just can't breathe. I don't know if i'm worse today because i'm due on too.
I just really feel i've lost my way and lost confidence in myself, and i dont know what to do to get myself back.
I'm all crabby and wound up with people too - no patience.
I think the doctor is fed up with me too and i'm also worried she won't keep giving me sick notes, i'm never usually ill.......

found it very hard to get to sleep last night ,which is not like me the ad's im on usually knock me out.
yesterday i kept over breathing and while i knew i was doing it ,i just couldnt stop it and it made my chest tight ,that and the costochondritis.
i really have forgotten what it feels like to be well again.
does anyone else keep taking large intakes of breath ?

i'm always taking deep breaths! The counsellor quizzed me the other week - i cant help it. But she gave me a relax tape. But it helps now if i pull my shoulders right down, and concentrate to get my breatsh even, two in two out. make your mouth into a with o lips. It has helped. But i had got to the point that there felt like no air getting in, and I found i was yawning then to gat air in. But i do think you get into a habit with it, and need to break it.

thanks moose glad im not the only one
are you having counselling every week
mine is every month
how would i get it to be everymonth
my surgery only has one lady and she has a huge back log of patients.
felt anxious for about 2 hrs this morning 0not sure why ,took the kids to toddler club and felt better to be chatting with friends
i due to go out with 10 of them for a night out at the roller disco
im really looking forward to it but at the same time im scared incase i get anxious.
how do i deal with myself if i get in a state?
i dont want to let it control what i do
i need some time to enjoy myself (it doesnt happen very often)

hi candy, i usually go every other week - i have two more sessions booked.Its on private insurance from work.
I went with friends to the theatre and felt really brave going! Counsellor told me to be in control - not it of me. Good advice!
When i panicked I just came out, or moved somewhere quiet. I felt in control and it was good.
Please go with them - you sound like you want to. keep yourself busy during the day before you go out and then you wont have time to think and worry.
I had a panic attack when i went out, but my friends knew it was likely and they kept me talking to distract me. But in the end it was me concentrating on my breathing, and relaxing my shoulders that stopped it.
When are you going out? sounds fun.

thanks for the advice moose im going friday night
i do really want to go
are you on ad's ?
i cant work out why im still getting anxiety despite still being on them ?
i know theres no magic cure for anxiety ,i just hope that i wont have to live with this for the rest of my life

No, not on meds - just doing on my own with the counselling and excercise, of which meds try to mimic the effects aparaently. I have had it since November, and am just starting to come out of it. I was having two or three panic attacks a day and constant shaking. I make sure i go out every day for a walk or a run. it is stopping the panic now xx

ive had a really bad day today -feel like my throat is closing up
i think it is the anxiety as ive had it b4 but its so scary and uncomfortable.
i cant work out whats going wrong why all of a sudden im slipping back into the highly anxious state of a few months ago.
dont have anything stressful in my life right now.
does anyone else get this closing up throat thing ?

i've had it a bit with colds almost like croup.i've also had it with bouts of coughing and after eating tuna,also with chronic urticaria[hives] i had a few years back. Once you think about it and clear your throat it feels worse!It didn't lead to anything serious tho you can get it with allergies.
Have you got a sore throat or cold candy maybe its a bit of local irritation
Drink warm ribena and take paracetamol?
How you doing otherwise candy?

thanks morning sun
i dont think its a allergy
i have woken every day this week with a sore throat so maybe it is a bug
just wish i could take something to relax my throat a bit
when i lie down feels like im choking.
im so fed up i really am i was ill for all of jan and still not getting better i wonder how much more i can take

yes i've had similar when you lie back you feel all choked up
can only think of lots of water,warm squash and paracetamol
watching masterchef lying on sofa?!

thanks for your kind relpies im having a lemsip-fingers crossed
i just want to leave myself for a while iyswim
im fed up of being me

i'm sorry you're getting this really bad anxiety atm candy i've been there and its painful.
has anything helped before?
with me i just had to sit really still and sort of endure it as if that would keep some of the thoughts at bay ,that or try to sleep

i would love to just sit and relax or sleep but i find it so hard
i feel like i need to keep my self busy to distract myself from it.
gone are the days i could sit down on the sofa and chill

is keeping busy the main thing that has helped you before then?
when i was sitting v still i wasn't relaxing i was trying to blank everything out and sort of disappear .
it was hell i hope you don't feel that bad

i should add on a more positive note i feel fine now apart from the odd short lived moment and today i had the most brilliant day with my ds2 what a sweetie

Hello girls. Sorry to hear you've had a bad day candy.....
I had been doing really well, and sort of collapsed again at the weekend. i felt so bad I didn't know what to do with myself, it was really bad. I think it was monday i also woke up shaky all over, but it has got better as the week has gone on. I had a panic eating my tea, and a panic in a soft play, but I stopped it before it escalated. What i mean is candy is that it may just be a blip, and tomorrow or Saturday may be better?
Do you think you will go out to your Disco? xx

hi feeling better today so far !
spoke to one of my friends last night who is also going out with me tonight and told her about my anxiety problems and now i feel better that at least she knows whats going on with me and i have someone i can talk to if i feel bad.
think im going to have some alchohol b4 i go maybe it will relax me a little

had the most fantastic visit from paed nurse
first saw us both,then my dd then me separately
says is teenage issues with complication of her illness and all its fallout
says is so confident and independent cos of way we brought her up
my dd can call her if she needs her
i also feel i can ask her about a problem
she was a counsellor /paed nurse/experienced mother figure all rolled into one
feel much happier!
i love the nhs!

Thats fab Morning - you sound much happier! Its really great to see you feel much better xx

haVE a good night Candy - update us on saturday xx

thanks moose it is a big step forward
the medical clinics don't cover the emotional effects of illness
its hard to parent a poorly child
sometimes we don't know what we're carrying until it falls away

hope you are having a good day today moose!

hi ladies
well i went and it was such fun
no anxious moments at all none !!!!!
im so surprised
and very pleased
i didnt get home until nearly midnight
so quite tired today
hope you all have a good day today
and hey the sun is out !!!!

that's great candy,really pleased for you

Great stuff candy! Well done. Have you had a good day today too?
I have done some gardening while the sun is out! Nice.

yes had a good day too took the kids to town and the park had lunch out ,was very tired though probably because i didnt get as much sleep as i would normally.
went to bed early
woken up today slightly anxious again ?
my chest is hurting today -it seems to come and go.
go to do loads of washing today and do the weekly shop,plus get stuff organised for school tomorrow.
how are you morningsun and moosloose
blissa and greyskull ?

i'm ok thanks candy not sure what to do with my day yet
hope it settles down for you
school tomorrow isn't it~shame!