Onwards and Upwards - the cvq/ns support and hot chocolate thread

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Since we've nearly tipped the last one over the 1000 posts mark, here's the new thread for cvq and for her friends to help this lovely lady to keep on getting better.

thanks mellyonion.
trouble with me at the moment is im too emotional and forget about how other people feel.i forget about being rational etc. so every thought i have just tumble out.and its not until i read stuff back the following day or whatever that i want to kick myself.or i go over conversations wishing id not said what i did.but its always too late.you cant retract something already said and done can you.

i need a fag

hiya, glad you managed some sleep last night. Onwards and upwards?

struggling a bit with onwards and upwards but ill get there

Morning NS

Please don't bottle things up, can you have a dish towel or a coloured cloth that you can have nearby and when you feel a rant coming on you can wave it as you let rip, your mum will know it isn't at her as such but a release of pressure and she may be able to take a step back mentally and listen with a thinking mind not a confused one?

I love the SFA-OYC idea, i often think of my old and first ferret who was an absolute sweetie, very affectionate and playful.

Re the tablets, can you show her you have taken it? you need a fair number given the dose your on to do anything wonky at all!!

I so agree with TW it is your behaviour not you that happened yesterday, the fact that you feel so bad about it shows this, if it was you then you wouldn't have a care about any hurt feelings / unfairness at all.

Do the milky drink and SFA for sleep this afternoon with a tablet before the hot drink so that you can really relax.

Would a text or email to your friend help you? you just need to say sorry for the outbirst yesterday and that when you are stronger the two of you can talk about.

How did it go with the CPN yesterday?

in all honesty mnp i am a complete mess and i hate constantly feeling like this.i spent most of yesterday and lastnight in floods of tearsive got no control of it at all.my mum is even taking j to nursery because if he cries at me again like lastweek i cant cope.

the cpn turned up when i was shouting at my mum.but i couldnt talk about why i was so distressedi cried through most of it not saying a lot

oh sweetie...

there is no quick fix to this unfortunately....its a question of just getting through each hour my love....

you are doing so well...really, you are.

i can see, like i've said before, your posts this last few days are so much more than they were even this time last week....last week you were barely able to put down two words, now you are writing in coherent sentences...and you are telling us how you feel.....thats good ns....really good.

remember baby steps....mostly forward, uck if you do go back, you get back on track, and continue to move forward....

i wish there was something more i could do to help....

xxx

i was doing well but this low has just gone on and on and on.if i could just see some light in terms of my emotions that would be nice.but i swing sharply from ragging anger to sobbing my eyes out to not talking at all and just wallowing.theres no structure at all.i just want a bloody break before i end up a complete psychiatic nutter

You are still doing ok sweetheart. Mellyonion is right about baby steps - rememebr how far they've got you already?

The end of the tunnel is there, it's just not lit at the moment - it doesn't mean you won't reach it. It seems far as you can't see it, but it's there, and there will be light soon x

Can you get outside (in the garden, wherever) for 5 mins. And just look at the clouds, and try to think of nothing other than what shapes you can make out in them? Just for 5 mins. Sorry if that seems like a really stupid thing to do. Its one of my ways of slowing down how I'm feeling sometimes

But you are feeling emotion and that is good.

The tunnel opening is near your just taking the slow lane.

Can you write what ever pops into your head on a daily laptop word document, then start a new one for the next day and maybe go thru them every few days, when the CPN visits?

Evening NS and Friends

evening NS
am sat for a while.. lathered in eczema cream so can't move for a few hours - if you are around and want to chat..

Oh No, are you having an outbreak GreySkull

sadly seems constant at the moment - the cream stings though so I only have a bath and put it on every third day.

i think ive lost it.i think this could really be itgod help me im so distraght

what's triggered this?

NS are you ok? What's happening?

ns, talk to us.

there si n point.im giving up

Serioulsy pet, what's wrong? Why do you want to give up now? Has anything else happened?

hang on in there, ns.

Are you there? Please talk to us and tell us what's going on?

i have nothing left inside me