Sorry this might be a bit muddled. I’m in difficult situation with my life, I’m a single parent, my disabled child hurts me everyday, he’s a lot bigger than me. I am scared of him, I think one day he is going to seriously injure or kill me. I also have PTSD, it’s a horrible combination. I give everything to him so that he will be ok, I love him so much. But there’s nothing left for me, and nothing left of me.
He’s not in school atm, it’s been months. we have a sw and Camh involvement, they all say the right things and are sympathetic. Things will get better in time apparently.
I wrote my own suicide note last week, I am so deeply miserable. I feel like I have no options but to end my life or to run away.
I don’t know what else to do, as much as I say how difficult things are no one really seems to hear me.