I’ve been having suicidal thoughts and I can’t seem to make them go away. They have been worse at night which I ride out til the morning. However, over the past 7 days I have started having them in the day. *[text redacted by MNHQ]
I try to live my life with honesty and with good character. I prefer few friends and to keep my circle small. At times I wonder if I have undiagnosed SEN because no matter how hard I try to be a good person people always view me a certain way. And it’s always negative. At work I have been called, “scary” by people I don’t directly work with. They actually meant it as a compliment as in, “you take no crap off of anybody” but I found it upsetting.
I have noticed that I am crying more frequently and not telling people. I have started to tell people ‘I am done’ but no one seems to realise I am not ok.