Help....

[whispywhisp]

I don't know whether or not I have got depression. I have never been to a Dr etc.

I am always snappy. I find it hard to get through a day without shouting at DH or the kids. I know I'm not the nicest person to live with at the moment and I've been like this for months.

I lost my Dad suddenly 2.5yrs ago. Since then my life seems pointless. I was very close to my lovely Dad. There's been many a time I could have craved a shoulder....

I have two lovely daughters whom I adore. I have a husband who I have been married to for 14yrs. I do love him but not in the same way I used to, iyswim. He tolerates the way I am but thats about it. He doesn't know what to say to me anymore. We just seem to plod along with life.

We are permanently skint. DH has a very good job but with a mortgage etc etc we live very much borderline. I work from home - but I hope to go back to a 'normal' job when dd2 starts school in September although finding a job that will allow for school hols/inset days etc will be hard to find.

I have no family help with the kids at all. DH has nothing to do with his parents (long story) and my family are too busy doing their own thing.

I feel so lonely sometimes. I feel like shutting myself away. I love to read and could read all day if I could. I see it is a form of escapism. Get into a good book and forget about our worries.

I am on the pill - have been since dd2 was born - I wonder if that is causing me to be so miserable? I don't know.

I am overweight - have been for years - I am always trying to lose it - I lose some then put it back on. I know my weight plays a major part in how I feel. Vicious circle because I eat when I feel miserable.

Does anyone know of anything herbal I could take to help pick me up? I don't want to go to the Drs. Thanks.

Hello girls, how are you all ? Well it was sunny first thing but bucketing it down now, cant be classed as April showers anymore either !!

We still own our house, and are now the proud owners of the longest after time its taken to sell a house on a 28 day exchange cup (21st December this was decided) No chain, our house empty and first time buyers going in.

Poo poo and buckets of poo.

Whispy you walked your marathon yet today ?

Lucy, I think I have crossed you on some threads, hope you are ok and having a good day ?

Its farking raining AGAIN - DD and i were both kitted out for going in the garden to plant up the corgettes. Literally as we opened the back door, the heavens opened and DD doesnt do rain! Back inside then. I feel knackered so i think, be a lazy mummy and stick a video on for DD whilst i try and grab 20minutes on sofa - bastard Telly broken, been on its way out for ages, does this thing where it switches itself off and then may or may not allow itself to be switched back on - but today it is being stubborn. I dont rely on the TV, in fact i never watch it, but sometimes its nice to keep DD occupied while i have a break or do some housework - so no housework done, toys everywhere, and im feeling dispondant.

Was supposed to pay the mortgage yesterday but didnt go down there, now will have to brave the storms - bloody hell, im pissed off today.........that horrid, im bored, self pitying, cant motivate myself to do anything pissed off......

Consequently..........DD bored too!

Come on now, make a break for it when the sun comes thru again, it just has here.

Me and DS will dash tothe brabours later as he is slooking a bit surfer dude again !

It sucks when you have little or no motivation doesnt it !! I know that when I do something with the kids they are happier, they pick up on our moods so easily and then when they turn into little shits it drags us down even more.

Have a cuppa, lunch and plan the rest of your day, you may even still get out to plant those courgettes, or could you do it on your own if its lamping it down, can DD be trusted indoors ?

Come on Lucy, fight fight fightthe black cloud sitting overyour head, you CAN do it.

could you be just around the corner vag, cos its stopped raining her too, and the birds are singing - that might mean it might stay dry???

I'm glad, the weather doesnt help when you feel so glum.

Keep posting though coz its good to talk !!!! Where do you live btw ?

have you just had a thunder storm?

No but I think there is one brewing, lashing it down and both fire engines have just gone out. We are in Alton in Hampshire and live opposite the fire station so always a good attraction for the kids!!

Checked your profile but doesnt say where you are.

You must have had the one we had, i am in Kent. Day not got much better - but tomorrow is another, right

Absolutely, today is done, move on. Sorry to hear it did not improve.

Where is that Whispy, probably Forrest Gumping her way round where she lives with the fittest dog in the world ?

Our house we are trying to sell is in Gravesend Lucy. Thorn in my side that it is, but hey as quoted by yourself, "tomorrow is another day"

That is so spooky - i read the first bit of the thread, it showed, "where's that whispy...." and i thought, i'll type, shes probably done a forest gump!!!!

Do do do do do do do do do do do do to the tune of the twightlight zone