General support thread 2

[Helplessandheartbroke]

All welcome. No judgement and kindness all around x

Is anybody on? I’m having a horrible morning 😢 I had the first panic attack I’ve had in months this morning and I’m so scared I’m going to end up back where I was again 😢😢😢

I'm here. Talk away to me.

There's no reason you'll end up there again. Your brain is likely catastrophising which is a common cognitive distortion.

Talk with me. X

I just suddenly feel really low again like I don’t want to be here anymore if this is how I’m going to feel. But I have my two children who need me. I’ve had a good few months and now I feel like I’ve hit rock bottom again x

If you've had a good few months this is likely just a blip. It's important to try not to feed the blip. Ride it out but don't put a narrative onto it.

Do you know what's led you to feeling panicky today?

I had another nervous breakdown this weekend. And then insomnia and then anxiety and panic attacks.

I've finally started to make new friends. Then my DM (she's not really dear at this point obviously) became hysterical and attention seeking again.

I started crying because I realised that I find it very difficult to improve my life. Even if it's good things they amplify my anxiety and dread because living with a toxic person takes most of my time and energy.

Funny isn't it? I have so much guilt for ghosting my new friends but I just couldn't handle it. She is there. She is always there. Why can't I be strong enough to let good things in my life? Why can't I? 🥺

I'm sorry everyone. I don't know how..😢

I think I’m just overwhelmed. I was meant to go into the office today ( I mostly work from home) so maybe that was it but I’ve been going in recently and enjoying it so don’t know why today. I almost feel like if I’m feeling bad I need it to get so bad just so people realise I’m not ok?! I know that sounds pathetic but I think people forget that mental illness never goes away entirely and are shocked if it rears its head again.

but then I feel bad burdening friends with my worries when everyone has so much going on themselves but if I don’t share I feel like I’m pretending to be ok! Overthinking at its finest! That’s half the problem! X

Sending hugs to u @snowfoxglove it truly sucks to feel like we do xxx

Just catching up and I just wanted to say to @hk1993x thats amazing that u started your course! You may still feel anxious about it but compared to a few months ago that is a massive achievement!! Has it got any better? X

Hi all, I'm sorry I've not been on. Ds started school last week and dh has gone OK nights this week so it's been manic trying to do EVERYTHING!

@hk1993x well done on starting the midwifery course! Seriously! Either was great but I think midwifery will be amazing especially given you must love kids to have a few yourself ;)

@Whycantgiraffesdance sorry I wasn't on yesterday but I'm here. How have you been today? Were all allowed blips

@snowfoxglove don't put so much pressure on yourself. When the times right maybe message new friends and explain its not a good time right now but try and take some time for yourself

Sorry I can't remember everyone's posts I've just read. I hope you're all having a decent day and sending best wishes to you all lovely ladies x

Never apologise @Helplessandheartbroke we all dip in and out and support where we can, it’s what the threads for after all!

im better than I was weds, I was determined not to let it break me but the morning anxiety is back. I think the new school term has triggered it, I find the pressure of getting the kids to school and nursery really overwhelming and I just don’t know why!

how are u doing? And everyone else? X

I could really do with a chat, if anyone is around to listen to me ramble 🥲

I'm here @Anobodyagain

What's going on? X

Hi all.

I've just had a cry over my ex. Still missing him and feeling very lonely. It's hard.

Thank you so much @Helplessandheartbroke @Whycantgiraffesdance

It means a world to me that despite your overwhelm and stressors you managed to find a little bit of time to write words of kidness and encouragement to me ❤

Perhaps this is why this thread works. We all have our lives and we are overwhelmed and tired so it's good we have MN and this thread to pop in when we can.

I think it really is overwhelm. When too much stress and guilt (self-imposed or not) bottles up, we start to feel anxious because all of us are human beings and we can all take so much.

Sending UnMumsnetty hugs to everyone 💐

If you can keep posting. Most of us have been/and are going through similar things so we can at least honestly relate to each other xx

@Anobodyagain we’re here lovely, if u want to chat xxx

Hi ladies. Sorry haven't been on for a while.
@snowfoxglove I see you mentioned peer support. I've been having sessions with a peer support specialist (someone who had a condition, recovered and then has done a peer support certification) and I've found it extremely helpful.
@Whycantgiraffesdance I had an increase in symptoms 3/4 weeks ago and I was like you, terrified I would end up really ill again.
It lasted a few days then I felt better had a good couple of weeks and having a slight wobble today. Peaks and valleys.
@hk1993x you've done amazingly well to get back to uni. You should be proud of yourself.
Hope everyone else is OK. X

@Ilovedogs1 thats Reassuring to hear, thank you! Hoping it’s just a blip! I am seeing a peer support worker as well as part of perinatal support and I’m really grateful for it too, she literally just chats to me and lets me offload for half hour!

@Whycantgiraffesdance @Ilovedogs1 thanks for sharing about the peer support I've not heard of it before but may benefit some on here.

I completely understand the morning anxiety too. Ds school is in the next I suppose town along (different part of Manchester) and some days I can be there in like 12 mins and other days it can take me 25 mins so my anxiety has been bad in the mornings and this travelling isn't helping.

@JamSandle it's fine to have a cry. It's a loss. I've cried over ddog a couple of times recently. Are you still spending time with db?

@snowfoxglove hey! You always send words of encouragement so will absolutely do the same that Is what the threads about :) did you manage to take some you time?

Sending solidarity to everyone ladies. Lifes fecking hard at times and I love the support of this thread. It truely helped me get through my worst time x

Also I found this the other day in ds drawer 😄

Sorry this...

The inspiration for my name! Love that book 🥰

Hi ladies, welcome to Monday. Feeling frustrated. Having a bit of an uptick in symptoms, feeling a bit deflated by it. Trying to just sit with the anxious feelings but obviously anxiety doesn't feel great.
My brain is jumping from one what if to the next. Euhhh. 🤯

Ditto @Ilovedogs1 i just can’t shift the anxious knot in my stomach. And it doesn’t seem to be because of anything specific just life in general! I wish I could just enjoy life without overthinking everything! 🤯

I genuinely can't do this anymore 😔 the panic, the intrusive thoughts is just too much. I love my family and kids so much and I don't deserve them. I just need to go and not be a burden anymore x

If you do genuinely think like this then consider checking into a psychiatric ward or crisis centre/house.

I did this this summer for about 6 weeks total. I won’t lie, it was not fun being in A&E waiting to get checked in and then being on the units - both of them were more short term, not long term but it meant I was treated and helped myself and lots of different people have been there. Be kind and be selfish to yourself.