General support thread 2

[Helplessandheartbroke]

All welcome. No judgement and kindness all around x

Thanks for the encouragement. I don't think I could stand to hear myself recorded! I'm writing notes in the vain hope that something will stick in my head.
Good on you for organising some things.

@fara20 I'm ok. I'm struggling with lots of intrusive thoughts atm. I've got that dread feeling in the pit of my stomach. I'm being a bit overly sensitive also and I know I am. I'm caring to much about what other people think. Just feeling generally anxious and out of sorts. X

@Ilovedogs1 I hear you on that, I'm feeling much the same. Trying to keep myself occupied but still anxious.

Thank you Fara. I hope the revision for tomorrow is going well. What time is the interview? I'll send you some good luck.

Interview is Tuesday at 11. Yes, please send me good luck!

You have lots of time! Sending good luck and some calm energy your way.

Arghh. My mind is too busy!!! @robinshields how did you accept that OCD would always be there?

Intrusive thoughts are bloody relentless. X

Im sorry you’re struggling so much @Ilovedogs1 - for me it took many years from when the OCD first started to feel at peace with having the tendency to obsess and deal with those obsessions through control and compulsion, probably 10 years from when I first started having symptoms. Both ERP for specific obsessions / compulsions and CBT for general anxiety and working on understand why my brain works in the way it does. I know I likely have a genetic component due to the behaviour of family members.

Have you got any strategies that work to quieten things for you at the moment? I find loud music with a strong bass in earphones whilst I walk is helpful, but I know that wouldn’t work for anyone. Would it help to discuss them at all?

I'm here reading, just struggling to know what to say. I need to book another drs appointment but I don't know what I'd say in that either 🤷‍♀️

The kids are going to my mum's for half term, which I'm really thankful for, but I know that means DH is going to want to make the most of having some time together, but all I want to do is curl up under the duvet and cry and/or sleep all week.

Well done to those of you having interviews. I hope they go well. The thought of that seems really overwhelming to me so I am in awe of you all!

Hi@jbiscuits sometimes it's hard to put things into words. I hope the week can be restful for you.
Yes, interviews are very overwhelming for me. Part of me thinks it's stupid to be doing them when I feel like this. But, I need a job. If I didn't have this temp job I don't know what I'd be doing, going crazy most likely.

@robinshields I do find exercise a massive help. I've been pretty good on that front this last week. The intrusive thoughts and fears I still find so baffling even after all this time. It's like you know deep down it's your brain playing up but when it flares up the doubt and fear I feel is unbearable. I'm trying to use the techniques I've been taught and trying not to get engaged with the thoughts but it's like the doubt is screaming at me 'but what if your wrong '. All I can think to do is to try and get on with stuff I would be doing, accept its flaring up a bit atm and try to just roll with it. Every now and again I get this little smidge of a feeling of clarity/calm and I'm just holding onto that. It's very fleeting though.
@jbiscuits sorry to hear your feeling so down. Sending a big hug. Xx

My heart hurts tonight. Missing my ex desperately. Its physically painful.

Fara, good luck for the interview tomorrow! Keep us posted!

Sorry ladies just catching up! @fara20 hope yesterday went well and good luck for today x

@JamSandle @Ilovedogs1 hope weekend went OK for yous x

@Whycantgiraffesdance have a nice holiday! I. Off to lanzarote today and feeling very anxious x

What's making you feel anxious @Helplessandheartbroke?

Can you break it down for us. Perhaps we can support you.

Thank you so much for the good luck wishes. Interview has been moved to 12 today. Unfortunately I already feel like I'm going to make a mess of it and not impress at all.
@Whycantgiraffesdance and @Helplessandheartbroke I hope you both have wonderful holidays.
@JamSandle I'm about if you want to talk.

@JamSandle I just get nervous until I get there x

My relationship ended recently and it was my fault. I'm gutted.

Everyone around me seems to be in relationships. I had a really good one and I f-ed it up. I am in therapy but finding it really hard to forgive myself.

I completely self sabotaged and destroyed the relationship.

Are you okay once you get to the airport on the other side or the accommodation?

@JamSandle I'm really sorry you feel so bad. Hopefully with time you can forgive yourself and get more perspective. What kind of therapy are you having?
I know it seems like everyone has someone, but it's not true. Single people just aren't in your face reminding you all the time!

I don't think I did very well in my interview. I think I need coaching or I'm just going to keep un-impressing. It's extra hard when I have such low confidence at the moment.

Thanks Fara. At the moment I feel so deeply sad and hollow. I just miss him so very much. He was my best friend, and it only went up in flames because of me. I'm not sure yet how to forgive myself and live with that regret. It's just a physical pain in my body. He has blocked me on everything so I can't do anything but leave him be. But God it hurts. It's painful too because he was my person but I lost him. I see so many of my friends happy and building lives. I could have had that but I totalled it. Just want to cry.

The therapy is online - I'm not sure if it's a specific style. They were recommended to me. I don't know if I need something more intensive.

Congratulations on turning up and getting it done! What makes you think it went badly? Coaching isn't a bad idea at all. I know someone who kept getting rejections so decided to do some coaching and got herself the job she always wanted. It's definitely a good idea if you find a coach that resonates well with you.

Do you know why your confidence is low at the moment? Just remember you're doing better than you tnink.

@JamSandle be kind to yourself. Everything happens for a reason x

@fara20 I'm sure you did great x

Hi everyone. Woken up today feeling massively anxious. Got loads of thoughts bouncing around my head. Got that horrible anxious 'dread' feeling. Trying to not get sucked into the thinking cycle.
God this anxiety thing is hard work.
How is everyone else? Xx

Is there something you can do to cut it off at the source?

Just some suggestions, you'll have your own thoughts:

Journalling
Quick walk
Call a friend

Even if it interrupts it just for a bit.

Sorry to hear you’re struggling @Ilovedogs1

i made the mistake of reading a thread about people having a horrid virus and it’s done terrible things to my health anxiety. I’ve come out for some fresh air and try and calm down

@JamSandle I've always been bad at formal interviews. I don't know how to sell myself and I feel awkward. They asked me a question I wasn't prepared for and I totally blundered it.