I just feel shit.
Spent an hour watching everyone open presents and I got a one present which was a very small box of 6 chocolates, not that I'm not grateful but it's just sad.
Everybody had literal mountains of things.
I feel like the worst human in the world for not to get anything.
I haven't received a text/phonecall from anyone ...
Sometimes I wish I wasn't here. I often pray not to wake up.
Life is too hard. I want to know why I am hated so much. I try my fucking best with everyone. Help anyone. I really want to be liked by someone.
I spent two solid years listening to a friend on the phone every-single-day for hours talk about her relationship/life etc and she randomly ghosted me. Not once in those two years did she ask 'how are you today?'. And I'm not even lying.
I'm back in bed dosed up with sleeping pills to try and forget this day is happening.
Happy Christmas to anyone reading this.
xxx