My dog saved my life yesterday

[mydogisagudboy]

I have insurmountable problems. They really are insurmountable. Health issues , work issues , family issues and friend issues.

I rang Samaritans last night and even the volunteer said my plan was well thought through and I'd thought about everything. And i had . I had every last detail sorted.

Except my dog would not leave me . I tried to shut him in the kitchen with a note on the door , and he wouldn't stop crying and scratching to get back to me .
When I let him out he stuck to my side . He wouldn't let me go to the loo alone . He got into bed next to me . He got on my knee . He cuddled into my neck . He eventually got under the covers and made sure he was touching me all night .

So I couldn't do it . I couldn't bear the thought of him crying to get to me . So I'm still here . I hate my life so much but I can't leave him . He's absolutely the only reason I'm here today .

animals are incredible… I’m so glad you are still here xxx

Please see him as a reason to get help and try to get better, this wee dog relies on you for his life and loves you, you're his world.

Thank God for your dog!!

Do you want to talk about any of your issues?

your dog?

the fact it's 2am & we're both awake?

Oh OP this is so sad.
I don't know what to say but he clearly loves you so much. And you clearly love him
Going to make me cry 🥹
Do you want to talk

Dear OP, that is so touching to read that your dog feels your pain and wants to be with you.
please see this as reason to live.
im sure others love you too.
sending you hugs

Amazing dog! Your dog loves you and really needs you.

What are you struggling with OP? what got you to the point of feeling so low?

there are lots of us who can hand hold op. Xxx

Please talk I'm here and have the same dog who just knows everything I'm feeling xxx

My cleaner /home help found my notes id made to stick to the doors . She made me call my manager. And then she left notes in my fridge saying if you feel like this again call me . My manager turned up at my house .

The Samaritans called me back today .

I've got health issues that have rendered me almost disabled. I was turned down for pip .

I'm alone .
No one cares . I don't have my family or friends . My dd has said she can't speak to me because I filed for divorce but Ive but it on hold now because if Ive got something life limiting I'm going to leave things alone . Long story . I can't tell them anything they'll think I'm attention seeking. I did text my soon to be ex husband but he ignored me . I had it meticulously planned. I just couldn't do it to my little man . He wouldn't let me .

I did text my best friend today who said he loves me and I'm to call him whatever time it is if I feel like that again . He said he be round in the focus of fury my home help lady has been so lovely and even though I've only known her 6 months she was so kind. She even offered to come and stay with me.

I'm alright today . I'm still sad . But not actively planning anything. Taking a day at a time .

💐💐💐💐💐
No words but thank god for your dog.
Life can really suck sometimes but our short ride will be over soon enough. Don't rush it.
I hope you find the help you need and meanwhile cuddles with your furry, loving friend.
💐💐💐💐💐💐

I'm just so stressed with everything.
Work . Been off 6 months and need to go back despite not being better and not having a diagnosis.
Family issues .
Xmas . I'm so sick of seeing lights . I used to love Xmas . This year I'll be alone . It used to be a happy time .
Health . Major issues . No diagnosis. Been suffering 2 years. Pain and disability from being fit and active
Holiday booked which I maybe can't take now as was going alone tried to cancel and can't
Isolated . Sad . Lonely . In pain . Scared . Tired .
Financial problems.
Relationship problems.

Just felt like I could solve all these . For everyone .

I'm sorry you felt like this, OP and I'm so glad your dog was there for you. DD's dog has saved her life in the past by refusing to leave her side. They read us and know when we need them.

Do you have the number for the local crisis team? They are possibly better to speak to than the Samaritans as they can refer you to local services to help you and help you get the right advice to apply for PIP. You do usually have to appeal the first application.

I've never felt like I did last night . I had done all my research and was really rational.

My dog just wouldn't let me .

My manager turned up at my house but I said I don't need professional help .

There's a reason that happened. 🐶

Are you booked for any doctor appointments?

You do need professional help. I know it's daunting at first. I've been through it all with DD but people can help. They want to help. Please think about speaking to your GP or crisis team for a referral to mental health services.

There is an organisation called turn2us.org that can offer advice about financial support.
I have read on here that everyone gets turned down for PIP the first time and that you can get support and help to appeal.
I am sure there are threads on MN about it.
I am so glad you have your lovely dog.

I'm ok . My little man is with me again . He keeps giving me the eye . Like if he could speak he'd be very disapproving.

Do you want to share a photo of your saviour? My dogs saved my life 2 years ago. I've been where you are and although I didn't believe it at the time, things do get better

Give him a hug from us. 🥰

You can't leave him. It may take a while but things generally do improve.

That look speaks volumes.

💐Thank goodness for your dog.

Things will get better but you do need professional help, you need to see a G.P asap, about your health both mental and physical.

The majority of people get turned down for pip initially. The form is dreadful, it’s long and you have to be specific and repetitive. CAB can help you. If you post on mn (is there a benefit board I’m not sure) but someone can give you pointers). I’ve just filled in a form for someone I work with, I have a 15 year benefit background feel free to pm.

Christmas can be a really tough time, but it’s just one day.

My boy . The look. No I can't leave him .

I've got a back to work plan . My manager thinks that will help me to be back in the office a morning a week . The rest of the time I can work from home .

Beautiful boy.

I love him so much . He's so weird but he's very intuitive. He hasnt left my side today at all .