Confused by police

[Gettingbythanks]

I had a situation where the police spoke to me. I wasn’t doing anything wrong, it was because of where I was, and it being very early morning. They said they were concerned for me, and it was odd for me to be there. Maybe it was, I was frightened at home though, there were people banging on the window waking me up. I wish I hadn’t given my real name, they wanted to take me to a&e to speak to someone. I managed to explain things a bit, I don’t want that, because people are so patronising. They drove me home when I promised I would speak to my GP this week. Will they speak to my GP about me?

Op please dont be sorry you can mention anything you like, it really helps to be honest so people have a better understanding of whats happening and the best advice to give.

Have they located a bed on a womens ward yet or are they coming back to you? It does sound like a mens ward is a terrible idea when you are this vulnerable. Are you at home right now?

They visited this morning, and stopping by again about 6. I’ve been out for a bit of a walk, still jumpy. I had a breakdown a few years back, and my doc called the police because I’d blocked off the bedroom door so they couldn’t get to me. They thought I was go to do that again. I’m not going to hurt anyone, I’m not violent, the knife is a last resort if he breaks in! I don’t even know if I could use it, I’d be shaking too much!

Do you feel you are having another break down right now? Its good you went for a walk, are you able to have a bit of a nap whilst you know its still daytime? Give you a bit of energy?

Are you able to put the knife away for tonight in case you accidentally hurt yourself if you get really panicky tonight?

Keep talking if you can if it helps you and well done for engaging in help you dont even know how much i admire your strength (even though you probably dont feel very strong right now, you absolutely are).

It might be a breakdown, took me by surprise. Overwhelmingly chaos in my head. No beds at either psych place tonight. I’m staying at the attics, taken my meds and will chill to some tunes with spiders. Upset about the Queen, it’s an omen. Normally it helps to write, no need to worry about the knife, I’m not going to hur5 anyone.

Say hi to the spiders for me 👋 I kinda like spiders. I see them almost as little roommates who pay their way by dealing with all the horrible flies and things

You've not come across at any point like anything other than someone going through a really difficult situation — I definitely don't think you're planning to hurt anyone. But knives do make people nervous, because accidents can happen and situations can change. I'm sure you're capable of keeping it somewhere it's not going to cause any damage.

I hope you can look after yourself tonight and try and get some sleep. That chaotic head feeling only gets worse if you don't have an opportunity to rest and sleep so it's important that you get yourself in a situation where you can do that. Psych hospitals are sometimes not the most restful places, so if it's at all possible to get the support and sleep and maybe meds you need while staying at home, then it's worth trying to do that IMO.

Hi OP, just come across your threat so just wanted to say I’m sorry you’re struggling, I know it can feel overwhelming People are always on here to listen whenever you need

Thank you. I’ve been a bit of a mess, the HTT people are working on a bed at the hospital after I sobbed quite a lot earlier. I hardly ever cry, I’m mortified. I’m going to pieces and I don’t really know what started this? They are coming back before 6, I have agreed to stay here (home), take a diazepam, and not block myself in a room. I don’t have much choice.

@Gettingbythanks

I am so sorry to hear how tough you are finding things at the moment.

It is good that you are seeking help.

I think crying is completely understandable in the circumstances.

I hope you get some relief from the diazapam.

How are you doing right now? Are you in your house?

I know its really difficult but thank god you are engaging in help even if it feels they are dragging it out finding you a bed.

Good morning @Gettingbythanks

I've been thinking about you today,
I hope everything is ok

Hi OP. I hope the reason you haven’t posted recently is because they’ve found you a suitable hospital place. Posting so when you come back you can see people have been thinking of you. Hope you’re feeling clearer.

Thanks for your posts, I am at a psychiatric unit. I had a meeting with a psychiatrist this morning, he asked if I was going to throw food at him. I threw something at a paramedic when they brought me here he said, I don’t remember doing that. I remember being upset they’d got an ambulance. There are so many noises here it’s hard to sleep. My ribs and eye hurt, I know he’s not far away, my body’s warning me. I have my phone, just not charging cable.

Well done OP, I hope that you're feeling much better very soon.

Psychiatrists can be like that 😒 I hope he meant it in a fairly good-humoured way.

Psychiatric units are sometimes really noisy and disrupted like that… are you written up for anything to help you sleep through it? If not, you could ask the nurses if one of the doctors would be happy to add something to your chart.

I hope you start to feel better soon.

I'm thinking of you @Gettingbythanks and hope you get some really good rest. Please keep updating when you can if you need to talk 💐

He was being jokey, I think he thought I’d remember, I was worried I’d hurt someone. He said it’s alright because I missed. He seemed quite friendly, I wish people wouldn’t keep asking about the attack though, they have my medical records already. I’m on very sedating meds, I wake up every few hours to window thuds or doors banging. He did mention a sleeping pill, I can’t recall what was said exactly, its frustrating.

I guess the meds they're using to stabilise you in hospital will be affecting your ability to remember stuff at the moment, either that or it's the stress of the things you're going through right now, or the combination of the two… it's so frustrating when your brain won't work right, I hope things start to improve soon

Glad to hear you have a place op and you are safe. Yes to the meds as well as the exhaustion affecting your memory at the moment but please dont stress it will all come right soon. Have you managed any sleep at all today?

I fell asleep in the tv room watching the Queen’s coffin being moved, then got woken up for tea. I was worrying about what I threw, nurses said their notes say bread, which missed the person, so not to worry. They think the rib and eye pain isn’t a warning, just a memory, not sure about that.

Let the staff look after you and try to rest.

I’m glad you are in a safe place. No one can get to you there so even though you can hear noises you are safe.

You need to rest now and allow yourself to heal. Treat yourself with kindness.

Hi OP. I think of you often. I’m glad you are safe and being looked after.
keep chatting

I've only just seen this thread but honestly, I'm so glad you're in a safe place. Just let them do their thing. Take care, rest, your tiredness must have made everything even worse for you.

I’ve mostly been asleep. Keep getting startled awake by noises. I was really agitated in the night, and was given more drugs, something like diazepam with another name. Also paracetamol for the pain, not made any difference, the nurse said it psycho-semantic (!), it doesn’t bloody feel like it, it’s a warming. He knows where I am.The main doors are locked from 9 pm, I think if someone wanted to get in they could, there’s not many staff on. I’m gutted I missed the Queen’s funeral.