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Confused by police

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Gettingbythanks · 04/09/2022 18:57

I had a situation where the police spoke to me. I wasn’t doing anything wrong, it was because of where I was, and it being very early morning. They said they were concerned for me, and it was odd for me to be there. Maybe it was, I was frightened at home though, there were people banging on the window waking me up. I wish I hadn’t given my real name, they wanted to take me to a&e to speak to someone. I managed to explain things a bit, I don’t want that, because people are so patronising. They drove me home when I promised I would speak to my GP this week. Will they speak to my GP about me?

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teaandtoastwithmarmite · 07/09/2022 12:49

Glad you're ok and well done for getting help. I don't think it's ridiculous. I have suffered with anxiety and it was very bad when I was pregnant. The fear is very real. I hope you can get some rest

ShaneTwane · 07/09/2022 12:58

The fear you are feeling is very real and its debilitating to have to go through. Do you think maybe a short hospital stay might help you? You would be safe and monitored by people so he cant get to you and it will give you a chance to sleep and let your body recover from the constant tension and stress of listening out for every noise? Absolutely keep taking the meds they give you.

I hope your feeling better soon. PTSD sounds a very real possibility and the issue with that is often replays and flashbacks that seem so real, so without help you can become stuck in a permanent loop hearing him when hes not there.

PeterPomegranate · 07/09/2022 13:35

Hey OP. I have only just seen this thread. I can feel the fear from your posts so I can only imagine what it’s like for you.

I have some experience when my son was a baby truly believing there was something wrong with him and he was going to die. It wasn’t true (thank god) but it was real to me.

As others have commented we don’t know whether there is someone banging at your window or not. But your fear is real.

I hope the team can help you and if you need a stay in hospital that’s ok. You can get better. I promise.

take care xx

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Gettingbythanks · 07/09/2022 13:38

I just feel sick with all of it, trying to figure out somewhere I can go while it’s light. Don’t want that bastard anywhere near me.

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PeterPomegranate · 07/09/2022 13:39

Do you have a sympathetic friend or relative you can call? If you were my friend I’d want to help if I could.

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Gettingbythanks · 07/09/2022 16:14

Two ladies came round before, they suggested hospital too. They said it wasn’t safe to block off the living room door if there’s a fire - which isn’t true, but now I’m worried about a Molotov cocktail being thrown in. My nerves are shredded, I’m jumpy AF with the thunder starting up again. I guess a hospital might be better than the attic.

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ShaneTwane · 07/09/2022 16:28

The hospital sounds like the best place to be right now op. You should try get there as soon as you can especially if your fear grows bigger the later it gets. You will be safe and taken care of there.

blobby10 · 07/09/2022 16:33

@Gettingbythanks We've never met but I just want to put my arms around you and hold you tight until you don't feel scared anymore. You are so brave reaching out for help - that's often the hardest thing you can do. I do hope you get into a hospital - it will be safer. xx

TokyoSushi · 07/09/2022 16:43

OP, it sounds like the hospital might be a good place for you just now, you would be safe and could have a little rest, please think about going there

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Gettingbythanks · 07/09/2022 18:16

I hope it’s ok to post here again while I try to get myself calm. I had a shower because I’ve forgotten about looking after myself, and there was knocking on the door. The mental health people had come back but they didn’t bloody phone, so I wasn’t to know! Now, I’m waiting for diazepam to kick in, and not sure what to do. I know it’s not normal to be showering with the biggest kitchen knife I’ve got to hand, but you do what you have to to cope sometimes. I’ve agreed to open the door at 6.30 when I can breath, they’re going to make me go to hospital aren’t they? Fuck. They said they’d phone!

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Gettingbythanks · 07/09/2022 18:18

Why did they have to knock?

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Leafy3 · 07/09/2022 18:26

Hi op just seen this thread.

I don't think you sound irrational but deeply traumatised and on that basis I think its normal for the police and health professionals to be concerned.

Have you ever been assessed for ptsd?

So you know, even if you're on the electoral roll, you can have your entry hidden so people can't look you up.

Take some deep breath and try to self soothe a bit. You're safe right now.

If you're at risk of this man still it might be worth seeing if the police judge the risk great enough to install a panic button.

Keep engaging with those trying to help, you're doing really well

ClumpingBambooIsALie · 07/09/2022 18:31

It's so irritating when mental health teams don't do what they'll say, and assume they can turn up whenever and you'll be ready to receive them. Please reiterate to them that it causes you extreme distress if they don't call beforehand and ask for that to be written somewhere visible on their notes.

I hope it goes okay.

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Gettingbythanks · 07/09/2022 18:32

To everyone who’s replied, thanks. I think they’re going to want to admit me, so if I don’t update any more I’m on a psych ward somewhere. It’s not like I can even run. The knife is back in the kitchen drawer, the living room is still blocked off.

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XenoBitch · 07/09/2022 18:34

Sorry to hear your struggles, OP. It sounds like a scary time for you.

If the MH team want to admit you to hospital, then please go with them. They will keep you safe, and eventually help you feel safe in yourself too.

Leafy3 · 07/09/2022 18:36

Good luck, op,I hope you're feeling better very soon

Ihatethenewlook · 07/09/2022 19:02

Oh op, you definitely need help. You do know this isn’t normal :/ ❤️

SkygardenTower · 07/09/2022 19:19

Good luck and use the time to rest. I hope it goes well.

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Gettingbythanks · 07/09/2022 21:11

I don’t really know what that was. Mental health assessment, they think I should be in hospital … except the only bed was on the men’s ward, which isn’t a good idea. I have stuff written down: increase meds tonight (important), do not leave the flat until daylight also important. Eat something. Don’t block any more doors off. But if I push my bed against the door, and move it before they come tomorrow morning, they’re not going to know. Thuds on the windows 6 ish tonight, front window only, room still blocked off, nerves fucked.

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ShaneTwane · 07/09/2022 21:14

Oh op thats not ideal. I hope they find you an appropriate bed tomorrow. Definitely take the meds.

Do you have anyone you trust who could stay the night with you?

TokyoSushi · 08/09/2022 07:58

Where are we up to today @Gettingbythanks? All ok?

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Gettingbythanks · 08/09/2022 09:03

Got to wait for the Home treatment people to come again about 11. They have promised to phone from outside this time, they did apologise for that. I took my meds and crashed out last night. Woke up about 5, a bit better now it’s light. Burnt out really.

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HappyHamsters · 08/09/2022 11:17

All the best for today

Ihatethenewlook · 08/09/2022 11:24

Please take whatever help you get offered today op, even if the wards less than ideal. Anything’s better than sitting at home with a carving knife or hiding in your friends attic. You’ve said yourself you think what’s happening isn’t real. I’ve got visions of an innocent person coming to your door and you thinking it’s the wrong person, or your friend coming in and startling you and getting stabbed in her own home :/

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Gettingbythanks · 08/09/2022 12:02

I’m trying to work with them, they decided the bed on the men’s ward was a bad idea, I think they’d got crossed wires somewhere. I’ve only had the kitchen knife on me when I’ve been home on my own, I wouldn’t answer the door with it on me. I’m sorry I shouldn’t have mentioned that.

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