i am that thick that i cant even end it all properly

[UselessWasteOfSpace]

im a regular poster who has name changed.

tonight, i decided to end it all. i got all my pills together and took the lots (around 80 or so) and guess what........im am still here. i am that useless i cant even kill myself. i used to be a self harmer then my life changed.

now it has gone downhill yet again.

my dp has just told me that it is all my fault why he has been online cybering with women. hes told me that i am a crap mother and dont deserve my child.

he is always telling me how lucky i am that i am with him, living in his house. well you know what, i dont fcuking feel lucky. if i was lucky these pills would have worked.

and just for the record, i have not just posted this for the attention which i am sure you all think. i know i am a pathetic excuse of a human being. i just need to put it all in writing just to prove to myself how worthless i am.

i am really sorry to you all if this is burdening you you. i really am. im forever saying sorry in my life but sorry doesnt make things better. sorry doesnt make life better. and sorry doesnt make me better

Where is your dp? Get to a hospital, you don't know if it is working, get help.

thats a lot of pills..what pills?

some pills affect your heart, some other organs and not necessarily staright away

You're not worthless and your child needs you. Call an ambulance, get to a hospital.

you need to get medical advice now. URGENTLY. you should call 999 for an ambulance. NOW.

the pills might have a delayed reaction. no bloke is worth it.

call an ambulance. please.

where are you? want to use your name but refuse to call you useless. are you there? stay here while you call

WHAST HAVE YOU TAKEN?????

sounds like you should be phoning for help.

No one is that shit. Nothing you have done is worth killing yourself for.

Since you have namechanged and are safe what is so awful. really? TALK. DON'T FUCKING DIE.

theres no point honestly. i am fine. dp is asleep upstairs. please dont think badly of me anyone. i really do try to be a good person, i really do

think of your poor children. don't be so selfish. you need medical attention. Get off here and phone for an ambulance.

you're fine............?
did you take those pills
what were they

If you've taken paracetamol, you better get medical attention quickly.

If transquillisers, they will kick in soon. Consider carefully whether you really want to die. Is your other half REALLY worth leaving this wonderful life? He sounds very abusive, and a nasty piece of work, who has (successfully it seems) managed to make you lose all faith in yourself.

Get medical attention now, and consider relationship options later.

Whatever you've taken, 80 of them is going to have an effect, and you MUST get help.

What pills did you take? Please get some help.. please do it now! Where is this OP of yours...

Have asked MN HQ to help, although it's late and I am not sure what they can do

DP sorry!

Wake your dp up and tell him what you've done, he needs to know, for now, for your future, for sorting it all out.

how do you know you are fine? what did you take?

get your phone, bring it to the computer and call now

Again. please tell us what you have taken.

have you drunk anything? you must call someone, we're all in a panic

please call 999.

please call 999.