Due to start citroplam today - positive stories needed x

[Painintheass22]

Hi everyone

Due to start citroplam today and I’m nervous. Been prescribed different AD’s over the years, take for a couple of weeks then stop. Due to googling and scaring myself. But I literally can’t go on the way I’m going on. I need help.

please tell me ur positive citroplam stories please.

big hugs to you all x

@Painintheass22 I’m afraid so! Just focus on getting through the first two weeks and then you’ll have broken the back of it and you’ll gradually start to feel better

@Cameleongirl i am having a clear out today in house. Hoping it clears my mind too. One minute I’m so tired then I feel like I’m buzzing. Up and down. Crying at everything. Haven’t heard from DP all day. Just want a hug so badly.

Do u all think 10mg is enough for me to start with?

@Cameleongirl i do need to set the phone down. If you only knew what I googled 🙈 every damn thing!!!!! Then it sends my brain into a frenzy. I am mentally, emotionally and physically exhausted x

I believe 10mg is the usual dose to get your body used to the medication and then your doctor can adjust as necessary. Otherwise the initial side effects would be worse! Wishing you all the best, you can do this. 💐

Ladies thank you all so much for ur kind words and advice. I can do this!

Wow - the insomnia was something else last night again. And the gut clenching 😐 and my overthinking was in full steam too. Really bad.

*jaw clenching!!

Morning OP, sorry to hear you had another bad night. Keep going with it, though. What time did you take it yesterday?

And have you heard from your DP?

@FetchezLaVache it was around 6pm. Definitely think I need to tweak the timing. I’m shattered here. Up all night and tired all day lol. Yes all ok with DP again, though I was going on again last night with the questions

’do you love me’
’are u sure’
’are u happy’

i need to stop this and I can’t

I'm sorry you're so tired, it's so difficult to be positive when you're shattered.

Perhaps it might be an idea to tell your DP that as you're feeling so tense, you're going to get on with some things on your own tonight - I do that when I'm feeling angry or anxious, it's better to keep out of each other's way, IYSWIM.

I say that I'm feeling off and I'm going to do the washing/ironing, etc. I put on an audiobook and block everyone out, so I don't end up saying anything negative to them! As long as I explain that I need some space, my DH is fine with it. Sometimes silence is golden. 😂

@Cameleongirl thats true. Do u still find urself this way even on the AD’s?

My relationship is so strained and it’s so not fair on both of us. I love him deeply but there is only so much he will take. I need these tablets to work desperately.

I describe myself as an extroverted introvert so yes, I do still need time by myself to regroup. But it’s not due to anxiety anymore, it’s just me enjoying alone time. I’m pulled in a lot of directions right now with family and work commitments ( teenagers and an elderly parent) so being alone doing ironing is relaxing. 😂

@Cameleongirl it really is nice to spend time by yourself. Nothing I love more is driving at night with some music on. I find it so unbelievably soothing. Ironing? What’s that? 🙈 I can’t wait til get my energy levels back. I have got so lazy as past couple of months and I knew something was brewing. With house and my appearance.

i have just taken my AD now at 9pm instead of between 2-6. Hopefully I get sleep tonight. Going to out to garden with a cuppa and listening to the birds then bed. Fingers crossed.

You sound better now. Hopefully you are starting to get the occasional calm period ? This can help keep you going .

I was really abrupt in a meeting today and felt a bit rubbish as I thought I'd be better now I'm on the medication. Turns out I'm still mardy! But it's only day 10. I can't even tell I'm on them now it's so weird , but I don't feel depressed so much as I did last week. I also slept until my alarm this morning !

@stillherenow have u felt any better in the last 10days? I’m up and down but today has been the better day from I started them. Though i am still quite short fused and tonight I can feel my anxiety grappling at my chest! I’m so determined to power though with AD though. It can only get better.

Yes I'm definitely better. Up and down but the ride is getting smoother, when I'm down it's not as extreme. Before I went on them I cried every day and I've not come close to tears this week. Definitely looking forward to the month then three month marks which I think are the key periods

@stillherenow glad it’s working for you. Excited to see how we feel in a couple of months.

Update..

Took my pill last night at 9.30 and definitely slept better. I woke once around 1.30am to get a drink of water and straight back to sleep! Thankfully! Anxiety was high though but I got past it. Feeling more positive today but overthinking still so so so bad.

That's progress - and brilliant news that you slept better!

@FetchezLaVache if I could just get a hold on this overthinking.
it’s really shocking. Making up scenarios in my head of my partner cheating etc. Constantly accusing him. Ugh. I hope it stops in next few weeks xo!!

Hi OP, I'm 2 weeks in. I was really struggling to cope, tearful, constant feeling of overwhelm, couldn't concentrate on anything. The first 5 days were difficult, felt more anxious than ever, was out in town and had to leave as couldn't cope with all the people and noise. This last week things have really settled, and I feel like the fog has lifted. It was definitely the right thing to do. I hope you feel better soon.

I didn't get on with it. Nothing bad, just didn't work for me so switched but you have to give them at least 6 weeks to settle. Even if you get side effects, they resolve as soon as you stop so really you have nothing to lose by giving them a chance.

The one I ended up staying on came with dire warnings of side effects, a yearly ECG to monitor its effect on my heart rhythm and an antsy GP who refused to prescribe higher than 50mg with a psychiatrists approval.

As it stands I get a bit of a dry mouth and the first 2 weeks had some dizzy spells. And it works. I feel a lot better. No other side effects, no heart issues except my GPs blood pressure. 😂

I’m on 20mg. It’s ok. I feel a bit foggy and my appetite has increased a bit so I need to get a better handle on that but I do feel better and less anxious.

@LouLou198 thats great it’s working for you. I can’t wait til I am the same.

The vivid dreams!! Lol.

last night was a real good one, guns, shooting, drugs bust...and me stuck in the middle of it! 😅

Has many of u gained/loss weight on Citropalm?

first few days I could barely stomach anything but appetite has came back yesterday and I’m bloody well starving all the time even after I eat.