Need help please urgent

[stressedmum22]

I am having strong suicidal thoughts, I have no help. I'm on hold to crisis team. I don't want to be here I don't know where to turn. Can anyone talk to me please. I'm scared

The only mum they will ever need is you.

Keep talking OP, we are all here x

I’m here OP. I’m listening.

You must be in agonising mental pain.

and yet, you have managed the extremely difficult step of reaching out for help.

that is amazing and it shows you know deep down that the best thing for your children is for you to be alive and in their lives.

Your brain is not well at the moment and it is telling you the wrong things. This is a really well known thing that happens to some people after giving birth.

they can help make this better. Please hang in there and get the help you need and deserve.

I think every Mum has been there OP.

Talk to us about your DC. How old are they?

Hi stressedmum22,

We're sorry you're feeling this way.

We can see you're getting some good support from other Mumsnetters, but we thought we'd also add a link to our Mental Health resources as there are many organisations listed which could give you some more support in real life. The Samaritans are there for you too, by emailing [email protected] or calling 116 123, any time.

We also wanted to let you know about a text service called Shout - please click on this link for further information - giveusashout.org. Shout 85258 is a free, confidential, 24/7 text messaging support service for anyone who is struggling to cope. They can help with a range of issues including anxiety and depression or if you're feeling overwhelmed.

We're going to move your thread to our Mental Health topic now.

We really hope you get through to your crisis team soon.

Sending good wishes.

Can you contact your DP

15 & 1

What are they like? How is baby doing? Do they have any quirks that you find funny? What sort of things do they like?

Sending you lots of strength. Parenting is extremely hard. Remember to be kind to yourself, I guarantee you are doing a great job.

I'm here. You are not alone. I have been where you are more than once. Came so so close. Now I'm through it I am so scared I nearly left my children. I didn't realise how much they loved and needed me until I could think straight even when I wasn't being the best I could be. I was still theirs. Hold on. Message if you need to, you aren't alone 💐

The suicidal thoughts are unwellness, they do not mean in the slightest that you don’t want to be here. The way you are feeling right now is feeding itself and it’s horrendously scary.

I hope you get the support you need asap, because there is nothing more painful than the fear and feelings you are experiencing right now but they are classic manifestations of a massive serotonin dip over an extended period. Mental health issues are medical. Not a reflection of you.

No one is answering still, there's no point in this

No

Family? Could someone travel to you.

Ah 15 and 1 ! Quite a combination!

what does your 15 year old think of their new little sister?

Have they answered yet OP? Can you call 999? You are not alone.

If you’re having no luck with the crisis team could you call the Samaritans?

You can call 999, please don’t feel like you can’t you are very unwell and this is an emergency.

Forgive me OP but as you’re reaching out for help, I think you do want to live you just don’t want to live like this anymore. If I’m right then please hold on, because however hard it is to believe right now it will not always be this bad, you just need some help x

Oh I’m sorry, I don’t know where I imagined sister from, you didn’t say.

Hi OP, please remember that today is a Bank Holiday so maybe the usual service isn't available.

If you can't keep yourself safe please go to A&E and ask for immediate help.

Your children need you - and you need support. Please reach out to someone.

Even the darkest night will end and the sun will rise. - Please hang on in there - your children ARE your reason for hanging on. x

OP how are you feeling now ? Have you got support ? xx

Did you manage to get through to the crisis team OP?

I’m listening. And I absolutely promise that your 15yr old will be massively hugely affected if you are no longer there. So so much and they need you. And your baby.
Like others have said it’s bank holiday, so if not get someone to take you to A&E or phone 111 and say what you’ve told us.

I hope you got through to someone OP. We're still here if you need to talk.

Op please remember that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

I've been where you are and I promise, it does get better.

I also have 3 friends who lost their mums growing up and the impact on each of them has been enormous, I promise you that your children need you and want you and will not be better off with someone else.

Feeling suicidal is what happens when we feel our resources for coping are overwhelmed and I know you are struggling with getting hold of the crisis team at the moment but you have us here and we will support you as much as you need for as long as you need. You are not alone.

I'm just in a sort of fog I can't think straight
Didn't get through to anyone
I feel really really alone

I took mirtazapine last night, it's a new one they've prescribed and it's honestly made my dark thoughts so much worse today. As well as feeling so so drowsy and groggy