My whole past is hitting me, I can’t cope with traumatic experiences and I can’t deal with all the regret and the guilt and my miscarriage and so many messed up things that I have done. My emotions take a toll on me and ruin friendships and I don’t want to be here any more, I don’t want to eat and with any luck I’ll end up dying really quickly if I just starve myself as I’m 6 stone. I’m just done, I feel utterly worthless and I hate myself so much. I hate the fact that I was sexually abused and struggle with sex, I hate the fact that I can’t deal with my past and I’ve been through therapy multiple times and nothing is helping. My doctor’s won’t give me any type of medication. I feel like a lost cause