I don't understand.
Okay so my mental health isn't great at all by any stretch: can't work at the moment, just started intensive therapy, dosed up on meds and generally am a mess.
Intense anxiety disorder . Clinical depression and other diagnoses as well.
Why do I keep thinking I don't deserve help. I am deserving of this pain. Of this absolute torture.
My sleep is appalling. I eat like a bird and I am incredibly fragile at the moment to anything and everyone it seems.
I have children. Beautiful children. And I love them with all my heart
So why oh why do I keep having thoughts of suicidal ideation. I've no plans or anything like that but fuck me it's intense.
Is this normal? Anyone out there for a hand hold and advise please?