I feel so pathetic writing this. I know lots of people have things going on, more so worse than me. But I've been holding on for so long and life has been rentless. I'm so so tired. I've started fantasizing about driving my car into a wall. I'm so so unhappy. I've never felt this unhappy before. I've gone into a major state of depression and have begun dissociating. I feel unattached from everything and life is flying me by. I can feel I'm reaching to a pinnacle and one crack away from a mental breakdown. I know no one can help me and again I feel so pathetic being this desperate. I dont know what I'm trying to achieve airing this all out but I really dont want to give up on life. I have a baby to live for. I just want to be happy