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My partner is leaving me

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sadandfedup21 · 10/10/2021 20:09

Sorry it's not an AIBU but I'm so down. I have PND and a 6 month old. He's leaving from tomorrow he's just told me. I have no idea how I'm going to get through it alone. Sad

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candycane222 · 11/10/2021 19:19

Hes really not nice, is he?

sadandfedup21 · 11/10/2021 19:22

@candycane222

Hes really not nice, is he?

He is most of the time. Maybe it's my fault. I don't know anymore tbh

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FooFooFloofyFoof · 11/10/2021 19:24

@sadandfedup21

I'm desperate to check his phone to see if there's someone else but I don't know his passcode
One of the effects of this type of abuse is hypervigilance which means you are more likely to look for explanations for his behaviour like checking his phone. He may well have his sights set on someone else but he is the problem. Honestly you'll be much healthier and happier if you stand tall and end the cycle. Of course you're struggling with being a new mum. Anyone in your position would.
Billybagpuss · 11/10/2021 19:48

@sadandfedup21

I also said today how much I'm struggling with adjusting to being a new mum and how hard it is Etc. He replied "well how do all the other mums manage it then?" So now I'm sure I'm the problem and every other mums cope well.
Being a new mum is bloody hard, he is minimising your struggles about something he knows nothing. You are 100% not the problem here.

When he’s not being a dick, how much has he actually pulled his weight with the new baby and around the house? Other mums cope with varying degrees of success from not at all to supermum. Most just bumble along hoping they’re doing ok. If they don’t have supportive partners it massively increases your workload. His answer to your telling him you’re struggling should be what else can I do to make it easier for you.

toolazytothinkofausername · 11/10/2021 19:57

The fact that you think it might be your fault shows how good he is at manipulating you.

If you want to keep him around whilst you are still on maternity leave so you can use his money to pay rent/bills then fine, but as soon as you are financially able to I'd kick his ass to the curb!!!

MrsToothyBitch · 11/10/2021 19:58

The nice "most of the time" cannot make up for the % of time he's not nice. Look at how appalling he's made you feel in a "not nice" moment- and it sounds like he's been undermining you, too. That's really not nice. That's calculated. It's also part of the pattern of abusers, I hate to say. Can you even him or bear to be near him knowing he could just turn on you again? I'd be kicking him out now for my nerves and sanity. At the very least, this lightening turn around seems unreliable and he should move out to try and work on the relationship- if you want to.

As a pp said, if you feel you can stick to it, could you smile and fake it, welcome him back, take a week or two to set up everything you need whilst playing nice, arrange for some support to be at hand and then tell him to get out? With your dad and/or sister there to back you up? If you feel safe to do this, it could buy you time to think. But only if it's safe and you will stick to it and can fake it. Whatever you do, don't agree to ANY childcare arrangements whilst you're not feeling clear headed and don't let him dictate them.

Lots of new mums struggle. Even the seemingly all in control ones. It's not just you. A quick flick through the forums here or similar sites and even articles in the papers or mags will tell you it's not just you.

No matter what you choose, I hope it all works out for the best. Personally I couldn't forgive or trust; I'd boot him right now, but I'm not you. Good luck xxx

longtompot · 11/10/2021 21:05

He is most of the time. Maybe it's my fault. I don't know anymore tbh
It is NOT your fault at all. Please do not think that.

ColdTattyWaitingForSummer · 11/10/2021 22:30

I’d say most mums struggle with the adjustment.. how could we not? Our bodies go through labour, are flooded with hormones, and our whole lives change. So don’t let him gaslight you into thinking you’re the problem. And I bet without him in your life, your pnd would “miraculously” begin to improve.

Itsokay2020 · 12/10/2021 08:52

OP your situation is untenable and you’re worth so much more. I am 100% certain that if your DP was supportive, loving, attentive, trustworthy, honest and true to you, you would not be feeling like this. You mentioned he has ‘form’, he’s not good enough for you. With all that’s going on, it’s impossible to think straight, let alone rationally. Do you feel a sense of relief when he’s out of the house? If you do, then I really think you need to take a break, can he temporarily stay somewhere else while you regain your physical and emotional strength? Don’t be afraid to speak to your GP, you are not alone, the first year of having a baby is hard, but it does get better and you deserve better!

Love2Luv · 12/10/2021 11:15

How can he 100% not love you, then come back the next day? It makes no sense. Does he love you today?? I wouldn’t trust him at all now. How cruel when you need support the most he’s pulling this crap.
And all us new mums don’t just breeze through it, a lot of us hide how hard it is. I don’t know any new mum who thought it was easy.

Bythemillpond · 13/10/2021 01:23

sadandfedup21

I'm desperate to check his phone to see if there's someone else but I don't know his passcode

Don’t waste your time
He is a nasty gas lighting bully who wants to leave you.
Get rid. Finding out if there is someone else or not is not going to change anything so don’t give it a moments head space.

Bythemillpond · 13/10/2021 01:45

sadandfedup21

I also said today how much I'm struggling with adjusting to being a new mum and how hard it is Etc. He replied "well how do all the other mums manage it then?" So now I'm sure I'm the problem and every other mums cope well

Those that cope have a support network and supportive partner who helps out and does their share of sleepless nights and don’t have to put up with a partner who criticises, bullies, threatens to leave, say they don’t love them then not go and is generally nasty and cruel.

I am sure even the most capable women would not cope if they were sleep deprived and had to put up with a partner who put them through what you have been put through. Especially if you took away their support network

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