Does depression ever go away?

[Inkdrinker]

I've been struggling with my mental health on and off for a long time now. I've tried copious amounts of medication and did DBT (similar to CBT) therapy. The therapy was great. I've stopped trying to kill myself every other week but I still feel so low, all the time. Medication just doesn't really work. Doctors don't know what else to do, psychiatrist just says to take deep breaths and remember tomorrow is a new day and I'm just done.

Is there even a slight chance of me living a normal happy life and not fucking up my kids mental health, like my parents did to mine? Even on my good days where I feel happy, depression is always at the back of my mind, always wondering when I'm going to feel that dark cloud cover me.

I'm tired of fighting and trying, I'm tired of failing everyone. I am angry at myself and at everybody that contributed to how I feel about myself now. I forget that I am 25 years old sometimes and still take on the hate that was given to me when I was a teenager.

If meds were working, then great, I wouldn't have an issue with medication but they dont help. They do nothing and I just want to stop them. I'm no good to anybody like this.

I’ve struggled with mental health all my life. You need to ask for stuff.

Ask about Nardil or Parnate
Ask about lithium

Your pyschiatrist sounds crap.

www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3907330/

Hi OP. I sympathise. I was depressed from 14, sometimes very severely. I am much better, but work very hard to manage my depression, I try to make it my priority. These are the things that help:

Medication: I know you said this doesn’t work for you, can you try different types?
Diet: the less sugar I eat, the better I feel. I have only just discovered this. Also try to eat loads of veg, high fibre. Was v sceptical about this, but it has a huge effect.
Exercise: even a few mins of running. Outside of possible. Daily.
Meditation: again, thought this was bs. I just sit and breath for 5 mins twice a day.
Sleep: I need eight hours.

All this is hard to fit in with life, but I know now that I have to do it, otherwise the chances of spiralling are large. Is also try coming off your contraception.

All the small changes add up eventually. Hypnosis has also worked for people I know.

I wish you much luck.. three steps forward, two back! X