I think im an alcoholic

[tyeanddye]

I only feel "normal"when im on the edge of being pissed.I cant seem to stop it.

In what way do you mean "normal" tyeanddye?

How long have you felt like this? How are you at the moment?

Sorry - that seems like a bombardment of questions, just trying to get a sense of how it is for you at the moment. It must have been a big step to send the OP.

My lifes too much for me to copw ith,i drink to feel stable

I used to be on a problem drinkers thread,doesnt seem to exist now.Ive too much on my plate

Hi tyeanddye

I send [hugs].

Sounds like things are pretty overwhelming for you at the moment. I wonder if you have support in rl from anyone?

Have you been in touch with AA? A few people close to me are in recovery, and have found AA a real help - a couple of people I know have said that it saved their lives.

Oops - didn't mean to put in a bogus link there! . Twas supposed to be a hug!

Thanks dp,i have support yes,but i havent fessed up quite how bad i am.

Why do you think you have not fessed up? Are you giving yourself a hard time about the fact you are struggling?

maybe,i keep my cards close to my chest i spose,search for my threads for enlightenment on my history if you wish,i rarely cry,but i should.

T&D...how are you???? Great to see you, I've not been on for ages myself as I'm in Oz at the moment. How bizarre the first thread I shoulod look at is yours. OK to answer your questions, Drinkers' thread is still going somewhere, it has lulls and I haven't been on for a while, but there are a few of us now who are AA members so maybe you can come over to the thread and discuss your thoughts.

I always wondered where you went and hope external stuff has improved? This is just the next stage of growth for you. Don't worry, you're not alone.

Hold on, I'll go and find the Dependent drinker's thread, there are a lot of fantastically supportive posters who will be there for you too. And everyone is at different stages.

dependent drinkers' thread

So glad you're back x

Hi Kokeshi!!!wondered where you were,thanks honey,ive left him,but still having trouble,kids staying tonight for the first time with him since i left in june,worried about dd2,shes only 3 and its the first time shes been away from me.

thanks lorayn,i buy those mini bottles and drink them on the way home too,i have a lovely man now,who is non judgemental and supportive,heres hoping i can sort myself out.

That's great you're feeling happy with your new man. What do you want to do about your drinking? Are you ready to go to AA yet? Why not come over to the drinkers' thread and discuss your thoughts there?

I know from my own experience once that line is crossed into problem drinking, it's impossible to go back. It can only get worse, and you deserve a real shot at happiness.

Thinking of you x

Feel like i hate my 7 year old sonhes disturbed,i know,but its so hard,and hes such a little shit all the time,relentless.theres a question that he may be adhd,i swing between loving him to bits and wanting to shut him in a soundproof room before i strangle him.my heart breaks for his distress,ive just bellowed at him and sent him upstairs again,i just cant cope,not one bit,im sober and i wish i wasnt

desperate,but cruising on heres calming me down,have to confess to a small glass of wine though,i need to go cold turkey kokeshi

T&D I know little abut excess drinking (actually my dad was an alcoholic and 2 uncles died from cirrhosis so eprhaps more than I want to admit but anyway), but I do know about coping with children who have behavioural issues. Is he being assessed for ADHD? Are you a member of time to rant (cant recollect who is and who isn't)- if not, its a support yahoo group of Mn members with kids with varying special needs. CAt me if you are intersted, it may be a good breather for you and you might get some good ideas as well.

It sounds just from this thrread that you have been through lots recently and that you're still going through it, don't be too ahrd on yourself. We all have blips and now that you are ready to admit your problems, I am sure that this will become one of those blips as well. Don't underestimate the difficulties you have ahd and be kind to yourself.

not familiar with time to rant,no,my mum keeps telling me i should give myself a break too,im exhausted,on every level.I have two exes,both of which i had 2 kids with,both of which are controlling and emotionally abusive.recent exe became increasingly violent and paranoid and is quite ill himself on some levels.1st exe has backed off a bit with the help of my mum,after 10 years of needling,bullying and financial penalties etc,i will cat you if i can,thanks.

If not my email is peaches and cream o4 at bt internet dot com, and I can get a moderator to contact you then.

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He hasnt yet been assessed,because of the family breakdown,they are waiting to see if he improves when things are more settled,hes extremely ocd,emotionally immature,tantrums,clingy etc....all of which can also be due to emotional damage.he witnessed his beloved daddy pinning his mother to the floor and bellowing abuse into her face.and threatening his teenage half brother,andandand

exe is playing the burning martyr,accusing me of being a slag.whore.liar..cos i left him THEN found someone else.he has it all wrapped up so he can treat me like a speck of shit on his shoe

oh tandd, i have nothing practical but i just wanted to post my support and admiration, you're taking a grand step forward here.

Poor kid- and poor you as well.

Are you in touch with someone like womens aid or the NSPCC who could probably help with the abuse he has witnessed?

I have a domestic violence support officer who is faultless,and pushes me gently when needed,linked to shelter and local plod,shes been bloody brilliant.i need to call her again very soon,