can't motivate myself to do anything - please give me a nudge

[monkeyonthetable]

I wake up every morning and have zero motivation for anything. There are loads of things I'd like to do or could do but I seem to have an invisible block stopping me from actually doing any of them. I found it hard enough this morning to just have a bath and get dressed. Weirdly, the stuff I most want to do is even harder to get motivated about.

I am managing a walk most days, a bit of cooking, shared with DH and the bare minimum housework. But even the house seems so perpetually grubby from having everyone home all the time, and I don't have energy to clean, only to see it undone within 24 hours.

I feel like I need someone to tell me: do this now. I just can't find the ignition myself.

Anyone feel the same? Or have advice? or fancying telling me what to get started on? I know it seems silly but it is really dragging me down and making me feel deeply self-critical. Slippery slope.

my sleep is ok as i take an anti anxiety med at bedtime. I do the writing thing normally. I tried it today but i just couldn't think what to write.

i went downhill after bring ds back from his cranial osteo appt. Why? I fantasised about the guy whisking ds and I away and making everything better a bit, not a lot though.

Just seen your last post, sorry to hear you are feeling down, evenings can be tough. Improving on your work situation for the future is definitely possible, maybe when you are feeling a bit better try accessing a mentor (there are some free websites that match you up)?

Relationships are another ball game admittedly. There is hope though. My best friend is 57, her husband died a few years back and she has had a new partner for the last year or so, all going well and he is a good guy.

For now though you don't need to worry about these things, it's you who is important, with or without a fancy job or a BF. I hope you can tune into what it is that you need right now and provide it for yourself. Life won't always be this hard. Hugs.

How is the cranial osteopathy going? I'm interested in trying it out myself. Is your osteo married?

Thanks xx

yes he is!

ds sleep and appetite has improved since first session - related? At least I feel like Im doing something for him. He hasnt walked in 6 weeks now.

Six weeks is a long time, sounds really hard.

Thanks for being so kind, i really appreciate it.

Have PM'd you.
How are you this morning?

Have replied thanks. Anxiety still massive. Beginning to wonder if it's at least in part alcohol related. Back bad this morning. But no kids all day!