Need an outlet and people who understand

[Strugglingalone]

Mumsnet keep deleting my threads and the last one had no reason whatsoever but the only way I am getting through at the moment is with random chat with people on here

Been struggling the last few days without a thread

My sugars are through the roof so I’ve caused panic 🤦🏼‍♀️

Well if they are going to give me glucose and no insulin that’s what is going to happen ....

I feel really rough and teary

Goodness how have they missed your insulin??? Xx 😲

Well I was in for having far too much so was the only way they could stabilise me but now it’s swung the other way and combined with a panic attack I feel rough!

I hope your ward is not too noisy, or do you have a room? I like to play the spot the plug socket game! They are like gold dust in hospital haha.

I just used some sanctuary lotion- have you heard of the brand? The smell is my absolute favourite. I used hand lotion a lot when I'm out to ground me when I'm panicking or stressed.

I've started a new thread called March support thread if you want to get involved? X

@PurpleFrames it’s a new hospital - like 15 years ago so multiple plugs by every bed 😍

It seems relatively quiet tonight 🤞🏻

I’ve just got into hand cream for the grounding smell - that’s not one I’ve heard of - my favourites are l’occataine lemon smelling cream, body shop pink gratefruit and a marshmallow smelling one I got from Tesco! Use them all under different circumstances - also have orange lip balm and a tingly strawberry lip balm which is also help grounding

Been using it all tonight :-(

I’ll have a look

Hello @Strugglingalone and anyone else. Apologies for my desertion - I'm in hospital too (not me - my mother was taken ill last night) so haven't been able to post. I'm both sorry and relieved to catch up and learn that you're in hospital. The relief is obviously that you are being cared for, ok to some extent and monitored, ditto which we simply cannot do from a phone.

Please reach out to anyone you can do. From your last couple of posts you actually sound calmer, and I hope I'm not reading into that. I was thinking a few minutes ago that you might be at the hospital (East Anglia) where my mother was treated for her brain injury, but from your update probably not.

Take care of yourself and we're all still here despite sometimes going AWOL 😀. Is someone feeding Blossom and Albus?

Ooh I think you have exactly the same sense of smell as me OP! I love those scents- I think the loccitane is called Verbena.

Sorry to hear your mum is in hospital Lobster - did that happen suddenly? Is she going to be ok?

@PurpleFrames that's kind but I don't want to derail. She's nearly 90 and had bowel surgery a few weeks ago.

I'm so unsophisticated with scents. I do cheap stuff in general but always wear Flower by Kenzo.

Please feel free to post on my other thread Lobster x

I don't wear perfume but do find a lavender roll on and the hand cream combo can help when out and about. As much as anything can obviously!

Goodnight OP hope you get a good sleep. I need to hit the hay, speak tomorrow x

I'm sorry you're going through this. I'm no expert but your messages here are exactly like the ones DD (17) sends me. She has BPD with a tentative additional diagnosis of PTSD and Bi-Polar.

Are you getting additional MH support now you are in hospital/or planned additional support for when you leave?

@Lobsterquadrille2 I’m sorry to hear this :-( hope you and her are as ok as you can be!

You are right, I was a lot calmer as diabetes stuff was out of my control, I’ve freaked out this morning as they want me to control my insulin pump again and I can’t trust myself 😕

@PurpleFrames that sounds about right - it’s gorgeous I set out to buy a lemon hand cream for distraction purposes and it’s heavenly!

Slept because of meds 😂 but slept late as meds were late so missed breakfast - I’m not fussed but the nurses are🤷‍♀️

@pinotgrigio funnily enough the tentative diagnoses are what I think I have. They have said it’s not bpd

I’m waiting to hear from mental health, not physically well enough yet

Hello all x

What's ended up happening with your pump? Do you have any ideas about the next few days will pan out like?

I also like molton brown hand creams but only every affordable in dutyfree/Outlets... pink peppercorn is my fav but rhubarb is a close second :)

@PurpleFrames I’m still waiting for insulin to fill my pump (not that I want control back), but being discharged supposedly with crisis team support - I’ll believe it when I see it!

Just given up hope of them understanding let alone helping

Ooh I love them too - but I have them as shower gel as my luxury Christmas presents from outlets, in fairness they do last a very long time!

Insulin pump is back on, really panicking and thoughts are back in full force

Nobody gets it, so fed up of trying to explain something that no-one understands

I can’t do this

Just waiting for discharge letter and being sent home, I give up!

No one gives a shit, im out of fight

Hey op I've just read your thread. I can't believe how much youre having to fight to get support. Sorry to hear you're in hospital. Is there anyone there you trust enough to tell them about your thoughts?

Waiting for a bus to go home

There is no fight left

Hi there what a journey you have been on. Can your arrange to speak to your special case worker op, the one who gets you xxx safe home

@Myshitisreal I have an appt with her tomorrow but getting through the night is going to be hard enough

Ok that's really really great news and really positive. Do you find her easy to talk to and easy to get your point across??? If not it might be beneficial to write write write. Even if it is and you don't need to worry about communicating, writing can still be cathartic, brain dumping. Your don't have to do anything with it, it's just the act of writing.

You talked about your hands creams grounding you, what else grounds you???

You have this thread which is a positive.

What else can keep you busy or distracted???? Tv. Craft. Jigsaw. Colouring. Doodling. Gutting cupboards. Cooking. Cleaning. Writing lists. Rewatching an old favourite such as silent witness or midwife or a new programme. Give them bunnies a good cuddle too xxxxx

Really struggling this evening, I’m sorry