I just cant talk to Samaritans with my kids in rhe house

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And dd 15 ASD still awake cos she wont go to sleep til I'm upstairs . It's only Jan 2 and I've no idea how I can get through this month, let alone year

Sorry you are feeling bad, don't know if this would be if any use

www.giveusashout.org/

It is 24/7 text service

How was your night? Did you manage to sleep?

I did sleep thanks. kids are going to friends at 1.30. currently on screens... My head feels totally scrambled this morning.

Can you ring this afternoon then? I know you are concerned about having involvement from other services but it sounds as if you need more support. If CAMHS were difficult with you could you approach a local mental health service. In my experience, SS can be supportive and much more likely to be if you self refer rather than if someone makes a referral about you as you are acknowledging there is a problem.

yeah I've found social workers more helpful. last one I spoke just before Christmas was v sympathetic, but in reality there's nothing they can do. Ex will always have bipolar and find it hard to work. My son's condition us a medium term thing

And dd will always be ASD.

I woke up at 12. still exhausted. the sun is actually out. I can't get out of bed. the dcs are out. I have a long list. can't bring myself to ring anyone, feel totally useless, overwhelmed. haven't even washed school uniforms. house is a mess. everyone's back to school and work on Monday. What do I do???

First thing, gather up all the school uniform and put it to wash. You'll feel much better not having that weighing on your mind.

Next, take a black bag or big washing basket and go through the downstairs and pick up all the mess/rubbish. Leave the bag itself for another time - you don’t need to sort it all today, just get it off the floor/counters/whatever.

Then, make yourself a hot drink. Do you like reading? Have you got a book you can snuggle down with? Even if you only read a few chapters while you have your hot drink.

Then, have a shower and let the water wash away some of your worries. Imagine them all flowing out of your fingertips and toes and out of your hair.

That’s all you need to do today.

Could you just go throw the uniforms in the wash & get back in bed for a bit?

ive managed to email my ex to say we need to sit down with his brother and wife and talk about money, work, housing situation. ive been protecting him from stressful shit last couple of months as he's looked unwell. at expense of my health. He resigned from job as of end Jan. has got dcs hopes up re new house with 3 beds even though he can't afford it. his brother is only family he has left (other brother died by suicide a year ago). although he's not always helpful he should know what's going on I think.

Some excellent advice from @Ninkanink and sounds like you’ve taken a big step by contacting your ex. Can you make some notes about what you need to discuss?

Also, tonight before you go to bed, have a look at this thread:

www.mumsnet.com/Talk/mumsnet_classics/3770751-It-is-one-o-clock-in-the-morning-I-need-the-night-shift-to-mind-my-worries-whilst-I-sleep

The worry guardians will watch your worries for you while you sleep.

put washing in had shower. really agitated.

Is it nice weather where you are? Can you go for a walk round the block?

Fresh air really helps me.

I second the Shout Crisis Textline suggestion.

Just text SHOUT to 85258. It's similar support to Samaritans but done via a text message conversation so ideal for times when you need to be more discreet

I was just about to suggest Shout crisis line but I see it's already been mentioned.

Text 85258 in times of crisis. They'll be there to text you back and help you to a calmer place. 24/7

so I got on a train

I think you've made a really positive step to tell DC's dad that you need to sit down and make arrangements long term. Where is your train heading?

Oh a train ride is good. Where are you off to?

don't know

London?

Are you okay OP??

Don’t go too far, just a few stops. Do you like to read? Or do you like colouring books? They can be very therapeutic. Can you treat yourself to something just for you?

OP is there a reason you're on a train?

thought I might b able to meet up with someone but they're busy