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I just cant talk to Samaritans with my kids in rhe house

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colouringinpro · 02/01/2020 23:52

And dd 15 ASD still awake cos she wont go to sleep til I'm upstairs Sad. It's only Jan 2 and I've no idea how I can get through this month, let alone year Sad

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cakeandchampagne · 04/01/2020 21:37

I hope you’re okay- maybe you are sleeping- or maybe you are watching a show right now?
Can you go out again tomorrow by yourself and get another little break?

colouringinpro · 04/01/2020 21:50

maybe.

I just woke up and I still feel really bad. my head is not good. kids are home now. head is splitting, feel sick too

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cakeandchampagne · 04/01/2020 21:52

Being hungry or dehydrated can make you feel extra bad. Maybe you need something to eat & drink?

ememem84 · 04/01/2020 21:56

Drink some room temp water and cold flannel on forehead. Lie down. And in a bit eat something. Something bland (toast/rice made with chicken stock are my go to foods when I’m feeling a bit sicky)

parkersnose · 04/01/2020 21:59

Keep talking. There's always someone up through the night.

colouringinpro · 04/01/2020 22:48

thanks. had some cheese and biscuits and water. wide awake now. having to try not to think

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cakeandchampagne · 04/01/2020 23:34

Did you have a good Christmas/holiday, or did the disruption of your usual schedule make the children unsettled?

colouringinpro · 05/01/2020 00:56

Christmas and Boxing Day were lovely. I was exhausted, Nov and Dec were vv difficult.

Dd just down. Apparently she had significant thoughts of self harm last night at her dad's. She now got lots of spots on her torso and hasn't been feeling well.

It is totally relentless

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ememem84 · 05/01/2020 07:25

Actually trying not to think is tough. I hope you managed some sleep.

colouringinpro · 05/01/2020 10:35

Yes it is got to sleep at 2 30. Head still splitting. Feel like I might break

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danni0509 · 05/01/2020 13:49

Do you see any professionals for your mental health? Can you make an emergency appointment? I know from your previous posts on here you feel like they use this against you but you sound like you desperately need some help and to be honest that would be the least of my worries right now - (ds with Asd myself and know how you feel worrying it might get used against your ability to cope it's exactly the thoughts I had when struggling)

Do you take any medication?

Have you felt this bad before? And if so, what if anything made things a bit easier?

Keep talking to us Thanks

colouringinpro · 05/01/2020 16:34

thanks danni I'm just under the care of my GP. Do take anti depressants - have done since exh's first major mh crisis.

kids are being good but it's not quiet Sad.

I will speak to my GP if no improvement this week. but it's mainly volume and severity of shitty life stuff that has proved too much. On top of ASD dd, ptsd ds, fragile ex with Bipolar I've also been having building work done and builder has pissed off without finishing Sad. That and CAMHS referring us to social services while they fail to respond to GP and psychiatrist requests for support has all caught up with me. None of that is easy or quick to fix, some impossible to fix.

Feel dreadful now Sad

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danni0509 · 05/01/2020 16:58

Try not take it personally about the professionals referring you on. I remember when ds used to have people come to the house when he was younger, play therapist from the LA I think she was, well she wrote to nursery asking if they had any concerns with me or ds' home life and who to contact if they had. I got a copy of the letter, he has moderate autism and learning difficulties, nothing about me or his home life caused his problems and since she used to visit the house I thought that would be obvious to her. I found that really hard to not take personally when I did everything I could for ds.

I think it's probably just standard procedure. I do feel we are more under scrutiny when we have SN children though, I've thought that plenty of times! Anyway as you said SS were happy with everything with you, so fuck who referred you!

I do totally understand your mental health taking a battering with sn children though, I flit between coping to really struggling and then back again, it's the hardest thing I've ever done.

You have issues going on with your own health, and other areas of your life on top so you really are doing bloody brilliant in my book! Even if you can't see it yourself.

And hell yes regarding volume. Ds stims all day and he's incredibly loud! I've put his ear defenders on my own ears more than once. (Would this be a possibility for you?) I've got really sensitive to noise over the years, probably because there is never much silence. Really does drive me mad!

Hope you start to feel better soon OP

colouringinpro · 05/01/2020 20:13

my friends have had enough.

my ds just nearly drowned in the bath. ptsd causing fnd. seizure. friend told me to have a good sleep. nightmare nightmare nightmare nightmare nightmare

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colouringinpro · 06/01/2020 21:59

GP signed me off with shock today. unfortunately ds also off.

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colouringinpro · 06/01/2020 22:00

my head is seriously f*ed

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cakeandchampagne · 06/01/2020 23:25

I hope at least you had no new problems this evening and bedtime went okay. Flowers

DidItWorkForYou · 06/01/2020 23:28

You sound so much like me OP.

It's horrible

hugs

colouringinpro · 07/01/2020 00:21

thanks.

dd struggling tonight, flashbacks of last night. I feel for her, I Really do, but I'm empty. ds won't be at school tomorrow so I'll have to look after him.

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colouringinpro · 07/01/2020 13:48

anyone around? my head feels like it's about to explode. my dd's really struggling, ds practically immobile.

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cakeandchampagne · 07/01/2020 14:14

Has everyone been eating today?
When will your children be gone again?
Flowers

colouringinpro · 07/01/2020 14:23

ds and I had a late breakfast. ex coming over shortly to help with lunch. dd at school.

just had really hard and upsetting phone call with CAMHS 😓😓

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cakeandchampagne · 07/01/2020 14:26

Sorry about the difficult call.
Did you feel like they really listened to you?

danni0509 · 07/01/2020 14:53

What happened with CAHMS hope your ok x

colouringinpro · 07/01/2020 15:55

thanks cake I'm not sure. I think I managed to sound reasonable and grovelled enough to get an initial appointment. No idea when that will be though...

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