I just cant talk to Samaritans with my kids in rhe house

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And dd 15 ASD still awake cos she wont go to sleep til I'm upstairs . It's only Jan 2 and I've no idea how I can get through this month, let alone year

You have my sympathy OP.

I have a ds with Asd & Learning difficulties and it is so very hard.

the train motion is quite nice

thanks

Yes, I find train movement quite soothing.

What time are your children home today OP? what are your plans for this evening?

It’s good to get out and about. Can you get yourself something nice for dinner whilst you are out?

about 7/8. I feel totally spaced out. am going to get off train shortly otherwise I don't think I ever will

Op you will always have someone to speak to you on this sight. You are never alone

thank you x. really not feeling good. I know I have to go home but I can't see a way to goback to everything.

Don’t think about going home yet (unless you need to leave now I’m order to be home in time). If you have a little more time to be away then try not to think about going home until it’s time to go. Have you had something to eat?

I just want to find somewhere to hide. don't think I'm at all well . need to finish this coffee and get train home.

Remember the thread I linked to. Read it before you go to bed, and leave your worries with them.

perhaps you could give the Samaritans a call now before you head home? Thinking of you OP

feeling really agitated again. sorry I'm just rambling. I'm too ashamed to bother my poor friends who've listened to me for years.

fuck. crying on the train.

thanks for listening x

There is nothing to be ashamed of. You are exhausted - emotionally, mentally, physically. Everyone needs to rest sometimes, everyone needs to get away for a bit. For some people, that’s very hard to actually do.

Wishing you peace tonight. Don’t think too far ahead. Minute by minute, if you need to, one foot in front of the other.

Can you ring the Samaritans now?

This is tough but you've muddled through so many tough times already. This is no different and you can manage, one tiny step at a time. What NEEDS doing today? Is it just getting home on time for the kids? If so then plan which train you'll take back and then spend the rest of the time doing something you have enjoyed or found calming in the past (eg favourite music, buying and eating a chocolate bar you like).

Those friends who have listened to you for years are still your friends.
Maybe call or text one of them. Or contact Samaritans.

I texted a friend, she was nice, but is out in town with a friend. I texted a neighbour to ask if her OH could help me out with a house issue. still on train. think I will just go to bed when I get in. thinking I should have just stayed there!

I’m glad you went out & had a little adventure today.

When do the kids go back to school? Do you have to go to work? Can you have some well needed rest when they go back

As @danni0509 has said can you take some time off work to have a bit of respite?

home. if I don't go to work I won't get paid and as ex resigned from job, I have no option. me and kids all back Monday. going back to bed.

Is it worth going to docs for help?