Feeling v poorly, can anyone keep me company for a bit?

[colouringinpro]

My friend is due back at 6.

I'm struggling to cope with severe depression and anxiety. Have splitting headache which I can't deal with, tearful, constantly on verge of a panic attack and hating myself more as the minutes tick by...

Oh dear OP, could you put on some mindless TV for company? You may not have the energy to read but if you have TV the afternoon stuff would usually be calming.

Do you have Netflix? Could you watch an old movie on it or online?

How about cleaning out a cupboard?

Do you play an instrument- could you do that now for 10 minutes?

I find doing anything to occupy myself at times like this works.

Do you knit or sew? Or colour in or draw?

I’m trying to throw out ideas of things that will free your mind of thoughts but not take much energy.

Please keep posting and we will keep chatting to you

Thank you. I don't feel able to do anything now, even tv is too much noise and movement, head is splitting. Have taken a load of ibuprofen hope it kicks in soon, maybe tv then?

How about a hot water bottle or similar and a lie down?

Be kind to yourself.

Yes am tucked up in bed now, feels better x

Hiya,
Is your user name a clue to your hobby? Do you do the adult colouring book thingies? Maybe you could do one now.
If not there are some available on free apps if you could download them. The ones for children will be easier and better for your head as they are not as complicated so you won’t have to concentrate as much.
Do you feel up for a walk? A bit of fresh air may help.
Anyone else you could call to come and keep you company?

Yes why until the latest round of shit arrived I was an artist-painter... this UN is a nod to all the mindfulness colouring....

App sounds like a good idea. My legs are literally jelly this pm. Did get out for a little walk at lunchtime though

Oh good, you got to bed. Perhaps have a sleep if you can. I used to give out to myself over sleeping during tha day but now, when I feel exhausted I try to grab some sleep when kids go to school and I don’t feel guilty - it helps me to cope.

Yes, your username inspired me to mention colouring - perhaps when you’ve had a rest.

Glad you got out this morning.
Snuggled up in bed with a colouring app sounds like a good way to spend the rest of the afternoon.
Not long now until your friends gets back.
Can you make yourself a hot drink and get some snacks? (Don’t worry about a few crumbs in the bed) hunker down and keep yourself warm and cost.
How about the jigsaw apps too! I enjoy doing those, can make them as easy or as difficult as you like.
What sort of art did you paint? Landscapes or people, animals or can you turn you hard to anything? We have a couple of really nice landscape oil paintings, I would love to be able to draw and paint but sadly have zero talent. It must be so satisfying once a painting is finished.

Thanks xxx yes daytime naps highly recommended here too.

I painted mainly landscapes and skies, expressionist/bit abstract. Absorbing and sometimes satisfying!

Am looking at cheap Christmas jumpers on eBay now...

Best so far...

Or new one

Hi colouringinpro
I'm struggling at the moment as well. Not sure if it's because of the different AD that the GP prescribed for my anxiety 5 weeks ago.
I downloaded a colouring app a few days ago and it does help to distract me. I think self care is so important when your mental health isn't good. I always feel so isolated by my anxiety and sometimes it just helps to know that other people "get it".
Have you seen your doctor recently? What have they suggested?

Hi TC sorry to hear you're struggling too. What app have u got?

Spoke to worlds best GP yesterday, we're going to give it a few more days before deciding whether to up my Fluoxetine (which I've been on ages). But previously that has made me seriously suicidal...

It's a reaction to an insane amount of shit and trauma over the last six years, last four weeks particularly nightmarish...

What AD are you now on? Can take a good six weeks to really have an effect. Going in search of chocolate now...

I take 50mg sertraline. I know it can take a while to work properly and I actually felt better in weeks 3 and 4 but this week my anxiety is back with a vengeance. Seeing the GP on Friday so hopefully she can help.
The app is called Happy Colour. I find I get quite absorbed in it which gives me a break from the panic!
I have suffered with anxiety my whole life, but was only diagnosed in my mid thirties. I used to take clomipramine which worked quite well most of the time, but after having a particularly tough year my anxiety really spiked and the GP felt that I should try something different. I know lots of people take a while to adjust to sertraline but not knowing if it's going to get better is really stressful! How are you feeling now?

Sertraline does have a good reputation, hope it helps soon.

I feel a bit better than when I posted thanks. Was really spiralling/felt that I was losing my mind (more). Calmer now. Feel pretty pathetic spending the afternoon in bed, but really can't cope with anything else.

You wouldn't feel pathetic spending the afternoon in bed if you had flu! Don't ever feel guilty for looking after your mental health. Try the app - Cross Stitch Joy is another one that works for me and mahjong games.
I have to go now but I'll check back tomorrow to see how you're doing. Look after yourself xx

Wishing I wasn't at my friends now. Feel like a freak. Darker thoughts, more agitated again like when I posted.

Is it just you and your friend? Can you talk to him/her? X

No, all our kids around now... Have to ride it out I guess Hoping some food helps

I don't want to live any more

Hello colouringinpro. Where are you at the moment? Is anyone else in the house?

In at my friends. I've no means apart from walking out the door

I don't want to live any more..

I'm sure you do, all you want is a way out of the depression and that isnt that easy. One thing if i may suggest and you may not want to, is to do some active excercise that has helped a few people i know feel better may not work for everyone but it does work for some.

Why not just try ?.

Please?.

Hi colouring in pro. Sorry you feel
Low, are you able to talk to friend ? Or can you distract yourself -maybe a podcast ? Maybe you need an adjustment to your meds ? Take it easy. Always someone to vent to also on here