Anyone have experience with bipolar?

[BippityBoppity87]

Sorry, already posted this on another thread, but I would be greatful for answers!

There had been mention of a bipolar diagnosis, don't know what to do. Ok I was a bit hyper in therapy today, but I'm just happy. I have to fill out a mood/depression chart thing and I have honestly had nothing to grumble about the past few weeks.

I've picked up more shifts at work, I don't need as much sleep, my spending has been a bit bad ok, I'll admit that, but I'm not in huge debt or anything. I get by. My DP said I sounded hyper on the phone after I left CBT this morning, but I was just being chatty? Nothing wrong with being a bit happy and chatty surely!

Does anyone have any experience of this?

This is why I can't drink as it turns a switch on in my brain and my paranoia goes through the roof.

Well, now you’re in a bit of a better state of mind do you think it would be a good idea to tell him that he should phone someone next time? He might need you to sort of say to him that he has your permission to do so. He could also leave the child at his mothers and be home to support you.

I don't know. He rang someone when I seriously self harmed a few months ago but they didn't really do anything. I was still under the care of the crisis team though.

I think he was just worried that I was going to get admitted yesterday.

Why didn’t he leave the child at his mothers? Is he a bit shit? (Sorry if that sounds rude)

You might get a different response from the he crisis team if they know you are suffering paranoid thoughts.

To be fair he had to come get him very late at night as he was round there watching the boxing. He thought if I just went to bed I would calm down.

Sounds like he’s just a little lost with how best to help.

How are you feeling tonight? I hope better than yesterday.

I feel generally crap and I've gone and put myself in for 5 shifts next week, when I was in a good mood! And now I'm deeply regretting it as I think I'm going to struggle with how my mood's turned. Couldn't pull myself out of bed until late afternoon as I just thought what's the point.

Maybe being at work might help take my mind off things.

Long shifts? Perhaps see if you can drop a day/do a half day on one or two days if you think it’ll help, you don’t want to suffer burn out.

When you’re feeling crap it’s best to try to keep to a manageable routine. Wake at the same time, 3 meals a day, some exercise at a certain time (even just a slow walk for 10 mins) and sleep at a good time (I’m shit at that though ) .
Write out a plan for the day and tick shizzle off as you go along.

Btw, I’m sorry if I sound like I’m telling you what to do, I’m used to caring for people so tend think while still in that mode.

3 of them are 6am starts. One is an 8-6 and the other is an 11-8. I should be in bed now as I need to be up at 5am tomorrow. But my son is ill so I'm worried about him.

Oof, those are not the best times. Would you feel comfortable aski g to drop one of you think you need to?

Sleep on the floor next to your child or have him in bed with you, you’ll wake when he needs you I’m sure .

I'm not sure, probably not. If it's quiet I might be able to get away early.

He's sleeping on the sofa just now. My DP says he'll keep an eye on him, but I still worry.

Lots of love Bippity, sorry you’ve had such a difficult time of it. Fingers crossed your psychiatrist has some helpful ideas x

I'm really nervous about tomorrow. I have no idea what he's going to ask. Or if my therapist has filled him in or what. No idea. Had to stop myself from crying today. I cried on Saturday, first time in months I broke down as I had been completely the other way before.

Either way, I can't wait until this year is over. I feel like I've been on a rollercoaster.

Don’t worry, it will just be like when you saw them before - how long has it been since your last appointment?

I can’t remember anything useful about any of the meetings with psychiatrists before I was diagnosed, it was in hospital and then moved to a hospital closer to home. I remember the first ones mentioning bipolar but I didn’t know what it was, I just thought it meant kidney problems which made sense to my mind at the time! They spent more time talking to my friends and family than me tbh.

I've only seen him twice and this was months ago. But my therapist has raised concerns to him about my moods so he wants to see me again. I'll be going on my own as my partner can't be there.

I'm so nervous about tomorrow. I don't want to go. I talk myself out of things and just think, no it's fine. I've just had a bad year, that's why I have reacted the way I have.

I just want to bury myself under the covers and stay there until the new year.

The appointment will be fine, they’ll just get background info, ask about symptoms, perhaps ask how you feel about medication or therapy.

Therapy I think is not really helpful I'm not going to lie. I just feel I'll mention one thing, sometimes innocuous and that's what will be focused on for about 20 minutes.

Medication, again, I have no idea. I thought it was helping, but I've felt very up and down since starting it 5 months ago.

Definitely go. You know it makes sense.
to you OP.

Well, it’s a good thing if they take the time to try to get a full, in-depth understanding of you.

You’ll be able to discuss differbet medications, just because one doesn’t work doesn’t mean another won’t.

Try not to worry, go to your appointment.

Of course you must go, it sounds like you could really use some more support 💕 you could always ask for your care coordinator or whatever they’re called to be there, or any random cpn who’s on duty?

I know. I'm just angry and fed up. It's just one thing after another. My DF took all the photos when my DM died. I was feeling fragile and upset and just let him take them at the time. He's always been emotionally abusive (another story) and now I'm asking for a photo, even just take a picture and send it to me. But no, the photos are in the loft! Who puts personal photos in the fucking loft?!

How are things today? 💕