Anyone have experience with bipolar?

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Sorry, already posted this on another thread, but I would be greatful for answers!

There had been mention of a bipolar diagnosis, don't know what to do. Ok I was a bit hyper in therapy today, but I'm just happy. I have to fill out a mood/depression chart thing and I have honestly had nothing to grumble about the past few weeks.

I've picked up more shifts at work, I don't need as much sleep, my spending has been a bit bad ok, I'll admit that, but I'm not in huge debt or anything. I get by. My DP said I sounded hyper on the phone after I left CBT this morning, but I was just being chatty? Nothing wrong with being a bit happy and chatty surely!

Does anyone have any experience of this?

I remembered another one. Fancing the pants off most people in my work. And I am now fantising about the psychiatrist I'd seen, which I don't understand why as he really isn't attractive! But I can imagine that's quite common. I'll stop writing now, as I feel like I'm digging myself into a bigger hole!

I’ve only fancied a psychiatrist once but he was absolutely beautiful and had the same effect on everyone.

I would upload a photo but someone might reverse image search and identify him and that would probably not be good.

He's not the most attractive person in the world but I don't care, he's attractive to me This is why I know my mood is changing.

I used to (and I'm kind of ashamed, kind of not) go into a nightclub/pub when I was feeling the way I am now, and just snog the first guy I saw. I'm actually in the mood to do that now. Luckily I'm in the house!

I had the same consultant for years and I once dreamed I was married to him but it wasn’t a great dream, we had 14 children together and I had to look after them all AND work as his receptionist at the same time (he was a dentist in the dream) and the only way I could escape was by driving a car at high speed in reverse through a busy city 😀 I hated him for years but sometimes I miss him now

Oh dear! Haha! I remember a dream I had once, when I thought my DP was cheating on me, woke up, still half asleep, slapped him in the face and went back to sleep. The next day. 'Why did you slap me?' Did I? I don't remember that I did remember

This is when I know I'm getting bad. Everyone looks great to me. As in I could probably sleep with anyone right now.

I've done this in the past with disastrous consequences, so at least I've recognised it and try not to act on it!

Hopefully someone from your team should be in touch soon, are they usually quite prompt with this sort of thing?

I have no idea. This is the first time I've spoke up about stuff like this. Apart from a brief interaction with the gp 10 years ago. This is all new to me.

I saw the psychiatrist the same day when I was having a crisis. I thought that was normal! Never realised it can takes months to see one!

I was awake at half 4 yesterday, didn't go to sleep until about 12am and was awake again today at 5am.

It shouldn’t take months 😯

I mean obvs is normal to only check in every three months or so if all going well but if there are concerns someone should get back to you, even if not your own psych.

It's only from what I read on here really. So I don't know. But told me on Friday someone will be in touch, either her or the psychiatrist. But because she's mentioned bipolar before, it's stuck in my head now! And now I think well that's probably what she's thinking, but who knows!

I'm diagnosed with bipolar. It's been stable for a while but it's not right now.

I called the crisis team twelve times in three days last week (all for good reason!) and they put an urgent referral back to my assigned psychiatrist - who can see me in July next year

They've just called with a cancellation in a few days, thankfully, or I'd be in real trouble. The psychiatry service seems to have really disintegrated since I was diagnosed.

That’s horrific Cinnamon, I hope you’re more stable soon. It’s very similar here, such a different story from when I was diagnosed around year 2000 - was never a very compliant patient either. If i was becoming unwell now (still hate that turn of phrase!) for the first time I think it would end really badly. Even in those days we were often sent out of area for inpatient treatment but now people are hundreds of miles from home and there’s virtually no community support.

That's awful @CinnamonVanilla. I've heard similar stories on here before.

I was on sertraline, made my mania sooooo much worse and this was what lead tommy diagnosis. I have type 2 so it's more hypomania than mania and you sound very very similar to me. My hypomania lasts around a week-10 days and the depression can last weeks even months. The episodes have got longer and more reckless as I've got older but I suspect that's because I wasn't diagnosed until 35. The GP just kept pumping me full of antidepressants which actually makes the mania/hypomania worse. I'd go to the GP and ask for an assessment with a psychiatrist and maybe asked for a mood stabiliser while they assess you. That's what they did for me and I started to improve and went moths without a manic episode. Stress is a major trigger to so I try and keep that to a minimum, not easy with 2 kids and being a single mum! X

@recoveryishard
I've been like this, gosh 3 weeks now? I was actually quite levelled out for a while (I think) then bam! I bounced into work at 6am this morning, put the radio on and started dancing haha. And I'm feeling really, really flirtatious, which always ends up bad.

The first time I went on sertraline 50mg about 4 months ago, I was like this for just over a week, then crashed a bit, then levelled out, then had a couple of wobbles at work. Crying mainly.

You will keep going up and down until they can stabilise your mood and even then it can still happen. To sound manic to me by the way you are talking. Does your mind go a million miles an hour? Mine does, and I talk fast, spend money, drink, sleep around, get irritable, think I'm the queen of the world, get very loud etc. Then I come crashing down and spend weeks unable to get up and leave the house. I'd get assessed ASAP and the sooner the better x

All of the above. Apart from the sleeping around part, but I have so many fantasies it's getting ridiculous with more than just a single person (separately obviously) thought I'd make that bit clear! I have slept around and been really bad in the past (slept with a married man twice my age) which I am not proud of! This was years and years ago though.

And this is what I do. I start over sharing 🙈Arrgh! I know I am, but I can't help myself.

That's another thing I do, say really, really in appropriate things about sex 🤦‍♀️ lost my last job because of it 🙄

I had a warning in a previous job about language and then in the job I'm in now got a warning over sending of emails which are overfamiliar. Actually that happened in a previous job as well.
Fortunately all knew it was the illness so were kind but I was so humiliated afterwards. It truly is embarrassing.

It's embarrassing, I remember, looking back, not now, but a few years ago, I was talking about vibrators and how I used it, and thought that was a normal conversation!