Anyone have experience with bipolar?

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Sorry, already posted this on another thread, but I would be greatful for answers!

There had been mention of a bipolar diagnosis, don't know what to do. Ok I was a bit hyper in therapy today, but I'm just happy. I have to fill out a mood/depression chart thing and I have honestly had nothing to grumble about the past few weeks.

I've picked up more shifts at work, I don't need as much sleep, my spending has been a bit bad ok, I'll admit that, but I'm not in huge debt or anything. I get by. My DP said I sounded hyper on the phone after I left CBT this morning, but I was just being chatty? Nothing wrong with being a bit happy and chatty surely!

Does anyone have any experience of this?

I do Steakandkidney From quite a young age, then is stopped for a good few years then started again when I was really depressed. I haven't in the past couple of months though. That's interesting, that has crossed my mind before, but I know two people who have been diagnosed with it and I don't think I act like them! Their moods were swings and roundabouts within minutes or hours, and usually quite agressively.

My moods last longer and don't usually change day to day.

Not everyone with a disorder is the same.
That's why diagnosis is so difficult, it is in part a diagnosis of exclusion, you rule things out as you go along.
There is a 'quiet' borderline persona which is usually where women internalise their anger and angst, and from the outside act normally, but who struggle very quietly with relationships, feelings and self harm. It's a quite high functioning condition, but disabling in different ways.
Does your therapist know you self harm? There are therapies to deal with the strong emotions which lead to it, it's called DBT, and not necessarily for BPD but for anyone who self harms- perhaps worth an ask? x

I think I’m quite borderpolar - only diagnosed bipolar but the more I read about borderline the more sense it makes. Have major impulse control issues, emotional regulation problems and it’s often interpersonal stressors which precede mood swings but they’ll never ever agree so I’ve just filed it away as a useless bit of self awareness!

My therapist and the crisis team know Steakandkidney I was quite open about it. But they never mentioned borderline to me, just bipolar.

I'm actually sitting here cheesing and I'm just very excited! So far, I've decided I'm going to plaster the hallway as that's been needed done for a while, just couldn't be bothered before. Need new flooring. Been looking at sofas as I really want a new sofa. And a kitchen! Just basically everything. Haha.

Sometimes I'll lay awake for hours in bed thinking about stuff like this.

I've managed to clean the oven, and done a few other bits of cleaning around the house. It's either all or nothing for me!

I've just realised I haven't eaten today either oops!

I was told to ring the psychiatric hospital if I got any worse. But I don't know what defines as being worse? To me, I just feel happy. I'd feel a bit of an idiot ringing them and saying yeah, you know thought I would ring because I've been feeling quite happy the past few months. Ok, that's nice...

But something about the way you feel is bothering you or it wouldn’t even cross your mind?!

I have no idea to be honest! Part of me knows I probably won't feel like this forever maybe. I don't know what defines worse though!

Still ok op? Did you contact hospital?

I'm ok. No I haven't contacted them. Yesterday I felt quite angry and irritated, but I'm assuming I was just tired and took myself to bed. Woke up at half 4 and feel so much better today. I honestly feel like I'm in the best mood I've ever been. Well, apart from the wee wobble yesterday.

No word from your psych? Someone was going to make an appointment for you?

Yeah, it was my therapist on Friday. She asked if I was still under the care of a psychiatrist, I said no. I had only seen him twice. And she said ok, I'm going to try and make another appointment for you to see him. Like I said, I don't know why, I wished I'd asked! I think it's because my mood has gone from low to high in the space of a few months. It's in the same building.

I haven't heard anything yet no.

And asked who I had seen before, and said right I'm good to try and catch him and have a word for you to see him again. Sorry, does that make sense? Apologies if I'm rambling haha!

Going not good!

Well I guess on the one hand it’s sort of reassuring that gp wasn’t worried when she saw you and that nobody’s been in touch yet but on the other it’s not ideal is it 😕 will you chase them up or wait for next psych appointment?

I don't really want to chase them up. I was told if I got any worse to ring MHAS, but I have no idea what that means. As you can tell, I don't really ask many questions!

She did seem puzzled as to why the gp wasn't concerned. But I suppose they're not really big on mental health issues. I told the gp I had been hallucinating and how y auntie had died in a psychiatric hospital, and how well she was always just a flamboyant and hyper and she just laughed!

All I was asked was if I had any thoughts about harming myself. I said no. Ok, you can leave now lol

Hopeless! 🙄 worse is so subjective?! Everyone is different but red flags for me would be no sleep at all for more than one night (I’m a poor sleeper anyway) massive increase in The Horn (so lots of sex with randoms, masturbating a lot more than usual) then unhelpfully ‘bizarre schemes’ but obviously at the time they don’t feel bizarre, feelings of power like financial and physical invincibility, weird spiritual shit, being a ‘people seeking missile’ overwhelmingly in need of Chat, drinking heavily, using recreational drugs etc -

Hi op and others :)

Another one here with the university spend fest, shag fest and leave after five months fest.

I was seen in early November 2016 by a psych nurse after a referral from my GP. I was very straight with her, told her all of my weird traits and flaws etc.
I then received an appt to see the psych I think he was only 2 weeks later where he diagnosed me with OCD ( massive relief as I've suffered my whole life ) and traits of EUPD which has baffled me to be honest.

I'm now 40, have never been suicidal, have never self harmed. I don't get attached to people like described in the descriptors, in fact I'm happiest on my own when I've got the chance as I have a busy life with dp and dc, one who has AS.

I experience highs and lows. I am massively impulsive, if i want something then I want it now. I've lived in this house for 4 years next week and have had my bathroom decorated 5 times and as many new floors.
I hardly sleep, I'm very hyper and people have asked me if I've been taking Coke!! I know it's bipolar but how on earth do I get someone to take me seriously?

I also have fibromyalgia and quite bad anxiety which I am medicated for, currently
on Venlafaxine, Propranolol and diazepam for anxiety.

It does sound like you have Bipolar op

Mine is @WhyDidIEatThat

1. Drinking, a lot. I'm still in the pub even though I have work at 6am.
2. Smoking a packet of cigarettes a day. Sleeping less
3. More chatty than usual
4. Flirtatious
5. Spending more money

Hi zoflora, I don’t know how you get them to reconsider 😕 we just went round and round in circles and I gave up in the end. Mostly because, lithium aside, living as if my imaginary borderline is the bipolar they say it is doesn’t do me much harm as it’s more about life balance and sleep and routines than anything. But it’s different the other way around, it might not be good to be on antidepressants without lithium or an antipsychotic or one of the anticonvulsant type ‘mood stabilisers’?

I actually considered just going to another pub on my own, or leaving the country. I actually seriously considered it on the bus, then realised I don't have enough money, and my phone died. And I am feeling very very irritable.

I don't know. Is this the best time to ring the mental health team? I should be going to bed to sleep as I have work early in the morning, but all I want to do is just fuck off some where.

I’m sure they’d always rather hear from you than not, it’s what they’re there for!

I'm feel pretty angry and generally pissed off again. If I had a passport I don't I would be ringing a taxi right now and off.

Or I could go for a walk. But the last time I did that, my DP almost rang the police. Long story, he's a bit of an over exaggerater. But I seriously just feel like giving a big massive finger to everyone and everything and just leaving. Someone talk me down please.