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Need to talk - need distracting - can you talk to me

156 replies

tulips · 13/06/2007 19:48

I am falling apart

I need distrating

I know I need to talk but I cant pick up the phone

I have come on here to see if this helps

talk to me

please

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Scootergrrrl · 13/06/2007 20:49

for tulips

lulumama · 13/06/2007 20:51

we are here to listen, tulips, and to help in any small way

many of us have been there

i have

i survived and came thorugh a better stronger person

i am proof it gets better

you can do it too

i know you can

you are stronger than you think

imamummy · 13/06/2007 20:54

Also could you let DH know how hard you're finding things? I think he might be able to give you more emotional support if he knew? I think you'll find your family care more than you could ever imagine so it's important!

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tulips · 13/06/2007 21:01

I am definitely not strong

hopw ironic is that?

I used to be that person lol

But I am not anymotre

I never was

It was all a pretnece

I just want to go to sleep and not wake up

Then everyihng will be alriught

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milkybarsrus · 13/06/2007 21:01

dear tulips, when you feel the way you do and you feel knowone can help, if you have a bible then open it anywhere in the book of psalms and just read, read, read.god is the only person who truelly knows all our thoughts, feelings, and fears. Pray to him and he will help you to cope with your situation. xxxx

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tulips · 13/06/2007 21:03

Milky bars I have tried

I have tried

tried

tried

tried

I am a hopeless cause

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Scootergrrrl · 13/06/2007 21:03

No you're not, you're just in an appallingly shitty situation

Dior · 13/06/2007 21:04

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lucy1975 · 13/06/2007 21:05

Tulips,
so sorry to hear how ur feeling, how old are you children? do they understand what's happening with dh?
Do you feel actively suicidal? If so, you've done the hardest bit by disclosing it.

Dior · 13/06/2007 21:06

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lulumama · 13/06/2007 21:09

tulips...the fact you are here talking, asking for help, is good, that is strong , taking steps to make it better is good

ask anyone for help

friends

family

CPN

doctor

samaritans

or just walk into A&E

lucy1975 · 13/06/2007 21:09

Tulips,
do you have a network of friends who know your situation, who could perhaps look after the children or dh for an hour/afternoon/day?
What is dh illness?

imamummy · 13/06/2007 21:10

I totally agree with Milkybarsus but didn't dare say! And absolutely no-one is a helpless cause, and definitely not you. I think Milkybarsus' advice is really worth it as indeed everyone's and hope you will feel better even if a tiny tiny bit better to start with

EllieG · 13/06/2007 21:10

Hey tulips have just read this thread - sorry to butt in but I just wanted to say how sorry I am that you are feeling this way, and that I care, and everyone here does too. I have been depressed, and although no one can ever understand another's pain, I know what it is like to feel like you can't go on, but if you do, it might get better. When I was wanting to finish things and just spending nights getting drunk and crying etc I would just think that I should postpone doing anything harmful and wait and see how things change after a few months, and although the situation did not change much, my ability to cope with it did.
Please don't feel weak for not being strong (i know that doesn't make much sense). You are only being human and we can only cope with so much.
I am sending you lots of love xxxxx PLEASE keep talking

Dior · 13/06/2007 21:11

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EllieG · 13/06/2007 21:12

Samaritans helped me. Just brought me back enough one night so I could go to bed and decide to see the next morning. And then the next morning things were a little brighter.

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tulips · 13/06/2007 21:14

sorry everyone - I am overwhelmed by aol the posts

I don't know what to say

I got an nice email from teh Samaritans asking me to clal them...

I hurt so much right now

I am pathetic

I hgate myself

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lulumama · 13/06/2007 21:16

why not give them a call?

it is not pathetic

you are ill

nothing wrong with that

Scootergrrrl · 13/06/2007 21:17

If your leg was falling off, you'd do something about that. Just because your illness is inside your head doesn't make it any less painful or worthy of help.
Please don;t hate yourself so much.

Dior · 13/06/2007 21:18

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EllieG · 13/06/2007 21:19

Oh honey it is horrid that you have to hurt that much.
Why not give them a call? It can be helpful. But we are here if you need us. You are NOT pathetic you are a normal person trying to cope with extra-ordinary stuff. People have crumbled with much less to deal with, (I have) but it is important not to blame yourself but accept that this is part of being human

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tulips · 13/06/2007 21:20

Yes I a\m on medication

I am non=respondent, or whatevere they want to call it

I hve been told this is my life, just get on with it

VBut I can't

I never intended to end up like this

I want to cry

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Tentacles · 13/06/2007 21:21

Oh Tulips, call them a just let it all out. We're all here to help too. Please take up other mner's help if they are near to you.
How old are dc's and what's wrong with them? What is dh suffering from?

I hope that between us all we can support you.

lulumama · 13/06/2007 21:21

what meds? and what dose?

GPs are not always the best to get a prescription for ADs

took years and a private appt with a consult. psych, to get the right drugs at the right dose

EllieG · 13/06/2007 21:24

Then cry sweetheart. Try not to concentrate on the rest of your life at the moment, but just on getting through the next through hours. It might be a good idea to not drink anymore (not judging you, have been there and know it makes things worse) as it is a depressant and will most likely bring you down for longer. I have never heard of someone being unresponsive to medication - maybe you should ask for a second opinion/change of medication? It sounds like you're really struggling and it seems unlikely that nothing will help you.