to wish that suicide was an option for me?

[user9512736123]

I wish I could commit suicide, I can't but AIBU to wish I could?

Hi I’ve no advice but really hope you are okay. It’s never the answer. Have you anyone you can talk to in real life?

Can you explain further? Can we help point you in the direction of some real life support?

It’s very sad that you are feeling that way? Can you talk to anyone in real life or say a bit more here?

Probably not but you are right that it is not an option if you want your children to avoid the total and utter devastation of losing a parent to suicide.

Stand strong brave lady.

Op if you feel like you are at risk of harming yourself or commuting suicide then please call a family or friend , please even go to an a&e department and tell them you have come because you are suicidal and need help....

Life is worth living , you are not alone, we are all here for you to offer advice...but please get help

*commiting

You can call the Samaritans any time on 116 123. The call will be free and won't show up on a phone bill.

It's not unreasonable to have a feeling, OP. What's going on for you right now?

It sounds like you are very low and just want someone to help you. Whats going on OP? What has made you feel this way?

Suicide really ruins the lives of those you leave behind and causes them unbelievable hurt and pain.
If you think the world and your family is better off without you then you are very very wrong. Please get help, speak to someone.
Speaking from experience.

We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources - here. You can also go to the Samaritans' website here, or email them on [email protected].

Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.

We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.

Sorry for hijacking your thread, OP. Please don't miss out on real life help if you need it.

i've been in touch with the samiritans but it doesn't help long term neither does my gp
nothing has got better over the last three years and i wish now i could do it.

Has your GP ever referred you on to specialist services?

i had one session with a mental health counsellor and then cbt for six weeks thats all
it helped my self esteem stop being floor height

I'm glad to hear that was helpful for you. Maybe getting re-referred could be good. IAPT do a lot of CBT (and some people find more than one course helpful) but they offer other therapies too.

Could you give a little information about what the main issues are?

Mental health services are terribly underfunded, it's so difficult to get the help you need.

Is there something specific that's contributing to your feelings? Are there any changes that might help (even if they feel insurmountable right now)?

I'm so sorry you feel like this OP.

Can you tell us a bit about why you feel like this?

My opinion is that no one actually wants to die, they just want the things in life that are causing them pain to change.

Maybe we can help?

child with sen, poverty, elderly parents with health issues and unemployment

That sounds like quite a load.

That is a LOT.

I wish I had something useful to say. To be totally candid I don’t, but I really wish I could give you a hug

It’s horrible OP. I wish there was more I could do to say or help but I know the feeling.

Saying that, there’s a huge group of people on here. Collectively we cold make a change (cheesy as that sounds).

Could*

I am sorry for how you are feeling OP, I hate the phrase ‘commit suicide’, people commit crimes and suicide shouldn’t be viewed that way, your life should be yours to do with as you wish BUT please don’t end it, you are loved, I know you are, and I also know how it feels to buckle under such a heavy load, is there anyone who could take care of you for a while?

@user9512736123 - I am terribly sorry you feel like this. I get how you feel, completely and totally.
Don't think you are on your own with these thoughts. Talk to Samaritans. Talk to us. Get support for your child and think about them. They will miss you should you decide to leave.
Set yourself milestones connected with the people you love. Plan for small stuff. Move from one week to another, enjoy the happy moments. There's always something to live for.

Please seek help from somewhere, either in real life or here on Mumsnet.

There must be another way, there must be something worth living for.

Please look after yourself ❤️ X

is there anyone who could take care of you for a while?

no because i don't have anybody. all my family are elderly in their 90s and i have no DP or friends. I have always done this on my own.