Anxiety support, Hand hold or chit chat come say hi #2

[Fairydust26]

Hi everyone this is part 2 as the original thread is full up! But as the title says this thread is support for all that are struggling and could do with a handhold and a chit chat so come and say hello😊.

What’s wrong Embracethechaos? I feel like I’m having a hard time too☹️.

Last couple of nights I've not been sleeping well. I think I have undiagnosed bipolar and had a couple of manic episodes in early pregnancy where I crashed horribly.

To me I like to think of manic as high levels of anxiety but I'm very productive with that nearly contestant unseasy sense of doom.

I feel great as soon as I wake up, 5-6 most mornings. I realized I have actually been sleeping OK, just not napped/relaxed during the day which I'm normally quite good at.

Basicly, I've been waiting for the end of may for the last 2 month, now it's all go, NCT course this morning, drs appointments next week, getting the keys for our house next week.

And I've been losing things, worst my £100+ new transision glasses in town. Most other things I'm sure I've lost at home and should find it as I pack/unpack. I only have prescription sunglasses for now.

I have got good support and do feel better in the mornings. Was just yesterday I wanted to have a relaxing day with my husband but we were so unconnected, He had a lie in in the morning then fell asleep before me. I'm not used to not working,

Also was thinking and reminiscing things that aren't nice in the bath last night. Things I'm not proud of. Be nice if I could cry more easily...

I think I'll take a break from mumsnet for a bit as I've now. Without work I need to get out and socilise more, really nervous excited about the course starting today.

hope you are feeling better soon fairy dust.

embracethechaos not sure if you’ll see this, but I hope you are ok.

I’m struggling a bit just now cos I keep thinking about my childhood. My DD is currently being assessed for autism and my DM is so sympathetic and patient with her. The complete opposite of what DM was like with me. I was told I was being ridiculous or to snap out of it all the time. I don’t understand how my DM can be so different with DD.

Hi Julie cloud, I'm back because I'm tierd and don't have the energy take a break from mumsnet. I'm okish, very up and down because of everything that's going on. I want to get things done but have overdone it recently. I've noticed/heard that a lot with parenting in my family, lots of the women have obvious faverates in families and people I think can learn patience with experience.

I really hope you get good support with her as autism is much better understood thesse days. My dm got got so much grief from teachers and other parents for my brother who showed far more classic autistic traits than my diagnosed younger relative.

I have actually been dreaming of having a high functioning autistic child who has a special interest I can nurture... Is that weird, wishing my child will be autistic? Just with my experience and the support and awareness these days I feel like I could deal with the tantrums and delayed communication skills if they were really into something like music, books or maths. Your dd could be a little genius in the making.

My nct course was really intense emotionally. I'm in a really airy fairy mood right now, trying to distract myself from anxieties but I can't focus on doing anything productive without tiring myself out.

Hi

I feel so lost right now, ive had work related anxiety and depression for months i get awful panic attacks. They did an investigation at work and found in my favour but its taken then a further 7 weeks to decide what to do with the report meanwhile they are still working in there and i will be moving onto ssp as my osp has run out

My gp has me on beta blockers 1 x 3 times a day, diazepam 5mg 1 twice a day and lyrica 75mg 1 x 2 times a day thats on top.of my 40 mg fluoxetine.

On sat i tried to go into town so i thought i wont take my tablets incase i get to sleepy well i got really ill my headache was something else and i was shivering and i kept walking round and round in circles even though the train station was in front of me.

Eventually made it home my dad picked me up and i took all my tablets then just slept now im trying to wean myself by taking the propanonol as normal but 1 diazepam and 1 lyrica at night. I seem to be doing ok i just feel so down. My dr was planning to wean me after 2 months as im supposed to start nursing at uni i have so many things i should be excited but the anxiety just taking over my life i just lie in bed as much as i can

Worst fear what if they dont let me study nursing i have to do an oh report with them

I just feel so down and worried

Sorry for going on a bit

This feels so so minor compared to so many on here, but I seem to turn every little worry into something bigger in my mind. After a peroid of huge upheaval and uncertainty about 5 years ago, everything is finally starting to come together after a couple of stressful months- but it is almost as if I am determined to sabotage it.

As a child, I had a temper that I truly believed I had conquered. After sorting out a couple of health issues (low thyroid, low vit d this year), I don't feel better. I feel so much worse, the last couple of months. I am snappy and irritable and feel like with my returning energy has come rage. I feel so angry with myself and so, so guilty. But losing my temper is a release, in a way. I feel so conflicted in so many ways right now.

You would never know, looking at calm, smiley, positive, capable me at work, that this person goes home and sobs. Or has nightmares. But I do. And then I snap again. This is so, so minor, but how do I make it stop. I'm worried about a medical at work soon, which doesn't help, but it's not the only thing and I feel like it would just feed the cycle.

Someone suggested cbt today. I am in tears at the thought of needing it, and about how to go about getting it. If anyone could guide or handhold, I would be eternally grateful.

I would love your advice. I have a DD of 15 with severe anxiety (about the future, what people think of her, social anxiety, endless judging and believing she gets everything wrong) - as well as ADHD - and often suicidal thoughts, and huge pain.

When she spirals into a very dark place, she is longing for a comforting mummy and daddy..... for us to talk about her, how it will improve and there is hope, how brave she is, how tough it is for her and how much we admire her, and that no one should have to suffer as she is suffering... All of which we do and feel.

But we would love to do more - especially as when she is in her darkest places, the noise is so loud she just wants us to talk and be there for her... the silence is terrifying to her as the voices in her head become too loud....

I would love your thoughts on what else we could say - what else to talk about - beyond our loving dog being there for her, with his cute cuddly belly and enthusiastic licks..... to help her weather the storm of horror that can last for an hour or two, or four at its worst.... before it calms and we watch american sitcoms together

We do have a lovely psychiatrist and are exploring other things to help... but this feels like an immediate caring and important thing we would like to do for her in these bleak times.... and we feel woefully ill-equipped

I always feel somewhat conflicted by being part of this thread. On the one hand, there are people way worse off than me on here, who are on various drugs or who’ve been suicidal. Day to day I function fine; I can get up, eat, shower, dress...
But I’m still not living any kind of “life” like anyone else my age. Aside from not having a job, I don’t go out and socialise or even go to the cinema alone or whatever, I just sleep until the afternoon and just drift around doing very little. I’m just too scared to do anything... and yet I don’t even feel anxious most days, I suppose I just do a very good job of pushing things to the back of my mind.
I really should go to the GP for a referral of some kind. I’m just so negative about everything. My poor mother is always suggesting things and I just leap to the negatives. It’s automatic now, like breathing almost. I need to get out of this negative and anxious rut, or I’m still going to be living this life in 10, 20, 30 etc years. Which is not what I want.

Toffee, I've been stuck in a rut, can't remember how I got out, maybe my mum nagged me enough and I eventually followed her advice... ?

Cyclotherapy, from my experience there is unfortunately nothing much else you can do except weather the storm. Fussing too much over her may make her feel worse. She really has to decide to accept help and work on her own mental health (not saying she doesn't allready) The only thing I can think of is no technology in the bedroom, see if she wants to redecorate or do anything to make it more cosy perhaps. I had some sleep issues as a teenager, esspesally as I was nearing the end of school and future was uncertain. I stopped going to my parents, just stayed awake then when I came down in the morning my mum made me coffee, asked how I slept and I often gave the teenagery response of fine or not great. But everyone is different and I hope your psychiatrist will help. Being pregnant I'm remembering more how I felt as a hormonal teenager with a big life change coming up. Its a stage everyone goes through, some just just do it more smoothly. When I was 15 I thought 16 meant was quite grown up and 18 was an adult. I'm in my 20s now and I think I was not mature at that age.

Also, personally when everything seems hopeless Id hate for people to disagree with me.

But then again cyclo, I was a teenager during emo phase, knew kids at school were self harming or wearing sweatbands round the wrists to just look like they were as I was a teen around the time of my chemical romance, Lincoln park and green day. I didn't like the bands as much then, didn't like that self harm was a fashion statement. That was when smart phones were just becoming a thing. Now the research is coming out on the effects of the Internet and information overload on mental health and brain development in children, I find it very difficult to go to public places where toddlers are glued to their screens. I find it hard when there's another celebrity suicide. I loved Robin Williams.

@cyclotherapy
I could have written that word for word, isn't it awful?

Don't suppose you want to buddy up on a support thread? I know we are not the only ones but dealing with this can be very lonely. I could start a new thread if you like maybe we'll hear from others who've come out the other side.

goawayquickly yes love a support thread... and would welcome more people... I'm very aware that I don't come on here every day as sometimes it feels too painful, sometimes I just get overwhelmed and need to do something a little lighter.... at others, I want to burrow in deep and understand about everything that is affecting DD

How is everyone doing? I’ve been having much better days but feeling myself slipping slightly trying to not dwell on it which can be difficult and just keep busy. Big hello to our new posters.

Hello, can I join this thread/group please. I suffer from anxiety for which I take Citalopram. I've had counselling in the past which really helped but it's expensive. I'm going through an anxious time currently but I'm using what I've learnt through therapy to try and manage it. So far I've managed not to let the thoughts escalate or spiral out of control.

Of course charliesweb welcome😊 great to hear you’ve managed to not let the anxious thoughts escalate I can find this difficult to do especially when I’m on my own but I find talking on here helps loads hopefully you will too.

Hi all. Pleased to hear you've been OK fairy and hello to all new persons.
I've been a bit up and down, not too bad currently.
Recently had a visit to the dentist, who asked some new questions this time, one of which was "have you ever suffered from depression or anxiety". I really did not want to admit that yes I do suffer from anxiety. I felt really awkward admitting to it, didn't want them to know but I know that they wouldn't be bothered about it, but I was. I therefore played it down, like I always do. I'm such a coward.

Pinkcoat124 I’m completely the same even the thought of having to tell someone I have anxiety gives me more anxiety! It’s like saying it out loud makes it seem real and I don’t want that to be the case if that makes sense..I even get embarrassed picking up my prescription.

Fairy we shouldn't feel like this. If somebody tells me they have anxiety, I wouldn't think anything of it tbh. I'd be sympathetic and understanding. So why I imagine anyone else would think badly of me I just don't know. Probably because most of my worries are ridiculous, and I know it, yet can't stop myself.

I'm the same, I've had a busy week, nearly half term which I've been waiting for as lots of family work in schools. I don't like to say as the follow up question is often has an assumption why I'm anxious... Upcoming childbirth... Nope more anxious about small things... Also nct class anxiety was a big deal for those who had misscariges... Not me. I just said I have non pregnancy related mental health issues, kept it vague.

Hi, I am fairly new to this forum. At Christmas I was diagnosed with depression and anixety. Still trying to get it all under control. Today is a bad day. All day I've been feeling out of sort, hands trembling, chest sort of tight. Can't really decribe exactly how my body feels.
My DS is 18 almost 19 and about to leave home. For the last year he's been pulling away, more involved with his GF who doesn't like me and to be honest I don't think much of her either, I liked her at the start but anyway that's a different thread on here.
My feelings are really blown out of portion due to my illness.
To be honest I feel a little redundant. Like I am not needed any more. I feel like just disappearing. I have a little fantasy about taking off with out telling anyone and finding a little cottage somewhere with no internet or phone signal.
In reality I think I'd last about two minutes and I could never do that to my family.
It would be good to hear that I am not alone because I really feel like I am.
Also I think DS GF is pregnant and it's had me awake since 3.30 this morning. I don't know why I think this. I don't know why I am so anxious about it.
Eating is hard today but I am trying although my last meal was a quarter slice of toast at 4pm.

Welcome larla😊 I hope your feeling somewhat better today..you sound like you’ve got a lot going on at the mo it’s understandable your feeling the way you do. My little ones only small so girlfriends are a long way off however I am dreeding when that time comes along! Sorry I can’t give much advice but didn’t want to leave your post unanswered hopefully someone will come along soon that can help .

Thanks fairydust26. I just needed to off load. Feel better writing it down.
My dr upped my medication dose so hope to feel better soon.

I spoke to my son too and he says his GF is not pregnant she's just put on weight.
Hope you're doing okay.
I have told people about my anixety and depression, my son included, but I haven't told my parents.

larla glad your starting to feel better and managed to speak to your son I find writing it down helps a lot too!, I hope you’ve got a good support system around you depression and anxiety can be tough when your dealing with it alone. Hope you have a peaceful bank holiday.

Hi everyone just bumping the thread checking everyone’s doing ok?😊.

Hey everyone hope you don't mind me joining.I've Had theyear from hell due to my Mothers mental health,children and husband illness and a family dispute.We've moved away for a new start but it feels like someone has put a curse on me as I've been suffering with an illness and other issues since we got here.I managed to hold it all together but now am tearful constantly anxious and embarrassed that friends are seeing me like this.