I have been on ADs for over a year and have had my dosage put up twice in the past six months. They are for depression adn anxiety. They do work, at least they did work. I have had a very positive year in many resp[ects and have made a lot of necessary changes in my life, and everything seems on a much better footing in everyway, outwardly. I have much to be happy about. But I feel terrible just lately, I am putting weight on very rapidly, am tired all the time and insomniac, am having very black thoughts and moments of fearing that I am going to lose my grip on reality and do something just irrational or odd. I am very uneasy about being around people in case they notice that I am spaced out and not myself. Also something has happened to me three time that has never happened to me before, I have stammered when trying to speak to someone (a friend, not someone who makes me nervous usually) and actually had to start the sentence again and apologise. It was very frightening. I have even been self-harming, in a very non-detectable way. I had a bad panic attack last night too.
I just wanted to write it all down really.