As my name suggests, been awake since 5am and I have been reading this thread with interest. Lots to identify with and I can fully understand some of the comments made which to others might seem trivial but to yourself it’s all you can think about.
I’ve been on MN for a few years (quite a few name changes for anonymity) but most of my posts have been prompted by my anxiety because I worry excessively at times. My first posts were about my worries over the dcs and all the teen stuff, thankfully now over, that’s how I found MN. But the past year I have literally jumped from one thing to another, and it’s making me miserable.
I won’t go into exactly what is worrying me at the moment but Dh assures me all is ok and that I should move on and forget it. But this is where my problem lies. I take hold of a thought, think of the worst case scenario, even though it would be highly unlikely, and then off I go. Can’t get it out of my head. That’s not normal is it?
I also used to suffer badly from HA and still do to some extent.
I probably should go to the docs about this but a mixture of being ashamed of myself, being reluctant to take medication (been on it in the past and it didn’t help much) and not wanting to admit things are bad is preventing me from going. My current worry will probably fade in the next couple of weeks and I will be ok. Till the next thing that is!
I don’t know anyone in r/l who is as bad as me, but then again, I put on a front and pretend everything is fine when inside I am in turmoil.
Anyway, hello and I hope to be able to find some support and give some too.