Anyone needing support for anxiety/depression come over here! (Please)

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I'm struggling so much just now and could use the support of fellow sufferers.

Right now I'm just putting one foot in front of the other - getting though the day.

studiously ignoring the piece of paper with the number of my old counsellor

Currently unmedicated and trying not to go back but not sure how long that will last.

I would like this thread to be a safe place to come and help each other through the days (and nights). I know there are other threads but feel they are well established and just would like to hear about how people got into their issues and what they do to help themselves.

I am taking my dd2 for a cream tea after school today. It's my say off work. Always a struggle but I'm getting through it.

Anyone? All welcome from those of us feeling a bit sad to those of us battling serious my issues. No judgements allowed just whatever helps xx

Please do. I feel less alone when others around who undetstand

Thanks xx.

I have anxiety and feel low sometimes at the moment. Not a good day today x

Another one with anxiety and depression
Some nights i just wish i could sleep forever when i cant even lay down as anxiety has me pacing at 2am.
Depressions up n down.always worse in winter.once clocks go back and its dark so much its like someone threw me down a dark well
Sending light n love to all here.its hard in RL be around people who dont understand."pull yourself together/depression is a selfish illness" kinda remarks make me want to do violent things (disclaimer i am not a vicious person)

Morning! Been awake since 5am again, DH went to the loo allowing for just one anxious thought then the torrent started! Lots of mental health at work conversations on BBC this morning very interesting Hope everyone has a relaxed day

Also up since 5
Tend get up n do chores.pop shops before its busy and then i know if i power down later things still get done

That’s a really positive way to see it! I went to work early so that I can finish earlier when I crash I’ll feel less guilty

Exactly cant.always best to work with ehat you can and i deffo more a morning than night person in terms what i can motivate to do
Am plan do a pedicure with my dd2 this pm
Have been to our local church and weigh in for junk food community cafe.means ive had bit time around others and good to feel done something useful(not well enough consistently to work at preseelldp taking dc to the theatre tonight to see OZ. I cant cope with that so rather than beat self i try to think positively bout not have fight over tv remote later
Hope everyone is doing the best they can for them today.
Remember you would never judge a friend as hard as you judge yourself.x

hope everyone is doing ok.

Hope everyone is doing ok. Hate it that the clocks have changed as I find the dark of winter really hard. Always have.

Children back to school tomorrow so ill be back to work. At least I'll have less time to dwell on stuff. They're coming to measure and value the house on Tues

Children getting excited about Christmas and I can't even begin to feel cheery. I usually love that time of year but this year we need every penny as the cost of finding somewhere to live will be horrendous, not to mention the worry of getting notice on Xmas eve. I know we could wait until we're formally evicted but I don't fancy being taken to court etc. We'll still be making our cake this afternoon though and everyone will get to make a wish....

Oh and to top it all my gran got rushed to hospital last night m they think she's fractured her hip. She only came out of a care home in Feb after a series of falls. Have not heard yet how she's doing.

And I'm now on zopiclone but my God I've got a horrible taste in my mouth

Life really is bloody hard isn't it.

Hello LEM Good memories of your first threads that got me out of a terrible black hole

Love to all on here Posting how you feel really helps.

Sorry to hear about how your feeling. Currently I am ‘free range’ too, apart from a little amyltriptilene at night (10mg) which keeps me asleep, and loads, I mean loads of counselling through the GP. Compassion based therapy has helped. Basically allowing myself to be kind to myself, talking therapies round my way are good at the moment. Go for the counselling..maybe a different therapist?
Meanwhile lots of and

Just went through the other threads. Gosh, there are no easy answers are there? For me things did get better but it took so long..all we have to do is keep plodding on and try stuff that may work.
Smile, I hope you have a good day. Get some breakfast, get out for a walk and don’t think too far ahead, it becomes overwhelming if you do. You sound like a strong woman and a good mum. All the best

Heey hooch! I can't take credit for those threads - I think it was a certain tutu wearing vicar that we have to thank for those but they were a great comfort to me.

I've been off work this week with dd and it's been mixed. First her vaccination that was a disaster. Then I've done my back in so it's been restrictive. Otherwise I've had some nice times with dd. I needed it.

Back to work tomorrow and I feeling anxious about impending exams. Arrghhhh

Smile has your 'LL given you any indication 're time scales?
I am catastrophise like a demon! All the trivial things that happen get magnified to a point where I can no longer enjoy anything.

Smile I'm impressed with the cake Making. I'm very mixed about Xmas - I want to love it but I don't think my oldest Dd will come and it's put a cloud over it for me.

Cake is in the oven 🎂 I'm like you LEM. Just can't get my head around Christmas. But my children are all at primary school so still of that believing age so I need to make the effort for them. I broke down at my mum's the other day and begged her to take them away from me. I'm so stressed that I'm not good for them. They are so young and full of joy that I'm just going to fuck them up. She was having none of it.

Apparently (according to 10 yo DS) Churchill once said "if you're going through hell, keep going". He spent ages this morning in the supermarket deciding which box to put his token in. He chose Shelter at Christmas so that those without a home and worse off than us can have a meal at Christmas. God knows what I did to get such an empathetic boy but I'm so bloody proud of him.

Sounds like everyone has been busy!

Hope the back is recovering LEM and hope the zopiclone works smile. Glad things are better hoochymama

I get the begging ppl to take your kids smile. I keep telling ex they are better with him but he doesn't listen.

I currently can't get it out of my mind that the government really don't want people like me to exist. I.e. People on benefits for more than a short period of time with depression. I really think the system is designed to push ppl like me over the edge...survival of the fittest or something. But I don't know if that comes across as paranoid (it must be true though). I think the govt are horrible.

Anyone a self harmer, sorry if its frightening ,I did harm and stop now things r bad again and its started again and its a vicious circle to stop

Dangermouse - the government are a crock of shit and they have a lot to answer for.

I used to self harm as a teenager and I understand it's a common thing for that age group. The desire often resurfaces when unwanted thoughts plague me.

Hi everyone, I get the pending doom.of christmas. Struggling to be happy with DC about halloween. My little girl wants to spend the day tomorrow doing pumpkins and decs. I feel so guilty as she loves all holidays as I used to but i can no longer muster the enthusiasm.
Does anyone just want to run away? I wouldn't ever leave my kids but i just want to run somewhere. Had a lot of the people that bring me down around for the last week. Agree too about darker nights. Hope everyone gets some sleep.

my lo is 8 months old I love her with all my heart but just after she was born in was diagnosed with severe anxiety and pnd. my gp prescribed me citralopram but they made me suicidal so I am now on sertraline. she has recently upped my dosage but they are still not working. I am so so low always sad regular panic attacks and to be honest I'm at the end of my tether. I'm starting to see no way out of this and no end in sight. I am so close to giving up its scaring me. I was attending mental health counselling but I feel it's done more harm than good. this is my last resort. my oh tries so hard as do my family and they are all so supportive. I feel like a failure before I had this i was so bubbly and outgoing and right now I feel I will never be myself again. please help

Hi Shoena, sorry to hear you are in such a bad place since the birth of your lo. Have you been back to the doctors to say the increase doesn't seem to be helping? They may try something else... what works for one might not work for you. Keep on them.
I would also speak to the counsellor about how you feel that it isn't helping. Is it a case of it needs to feel a bit worse before it feeks better? Do you have anyone else irl except your partner and family. Friends? I can't talk to my family about my depression and anxiety as it upsets them too much but find friends a real help. We are all here for you xx

Did someone say run away? Sometimes I think I would if a) I was brave enough and b) I could leave the children which I don't think I could, but then what kind of example am I setting them.
shoena you aren't a failure. It's tough being a parent without experiencing anxiety and pnd, and much harder with it. Why do you think that seeing the counsellor caused more harm than good? Could you maybe see a different person. and to you.
Shit day here. Basically had a panic attack at a toddler group then had to call dh and ask him to leave work to help me. He did and I'm grateful but I'm feeling overwhelmed and really struggling.

They’ve sorted my meds’ out for the first time in my life.

I feeel amazing.

I have my life back. 😊

Still wish I could get a nanny and fuck off to a spa for a week 😂

Just woke from a terrible dream. My dd just vanished in my arms. It feels like a premonition. I'm going to lose her. Sometimes I wish I'd just not wake up.

dangermouse def not paranoid.the goverment are picking on the vulnerable
LEM i had arecurring dream one if mine was in a coffin.vloody scared me silly as i was convinced as it happen 3nights runnig must be very true.shes still here((grateful))sometimes dreams let out our biggest fears

Hi, can I join?

I suffer from health anxiety and depression. I've always been a huge worrier but in the last few years my focus for my worrying has been about health. Cancer is my biggest fear and has become somewhat of an obsession. I'm currently going through a bad spell and I'm having cbt.

Every day is a huge challenge and I feel incredibly guilty that I'm not my usual self, I try to hide it from my kids but I'm sure they are picking up on it.