Hmmm we need a name, the safe place for all the people that need it

[WristBoundLatexBitch]

Hi so here we are

Wolfie,

I probably could get signed off, but don't really want to work are very supportive, spent half of yesterday doing paperwork hidden in a quiet room with only a couple of people knowing where I was and why. Problem is if I go off my collegue who has depression will get all my crap dumped on her too, we have stupid ammount of sickness, (all injury related not stress -and exercise is supposed to be healthy!) And we work with people so its not the kind of work you can leave to pile up in an in tray. If the 2 of us can muddle along suppoting each other this week 2 people come back off leave next week to bost our numbers.

carer your colleague is so lucky to work with such a considerate person as you

Not heard of that tea, but I have a lavender (& other things) pillow spray that I've just used, it's lovely.
I hope they both work!

Salted, we are a very close knit team, we all support each other.

Finally got some sleep, hope everyone did. Thanks to everyone for helping me through last night.

I managed to drop off as well... Woke up early to take some AB's for a sinus infection and am now tired but not sleepy...

Also thoughts running round in my head...

Morning all!
So glad you both got some sleep, carer & bear. I did too, about 5 hours I think.
How are you today, latex & wolfie & wooden?

Dear bear's thoughts - please show yourselves down a little. She has plenty to do without you making it worse! Did you know that if she sits down quietly & focuses on her breath6ong (slow & deep, in 1-3 & out 1-6) then that's your cue to quietly sneak off & come back when she asks you to? Go on, try it & see!

Hope you all have a good day x

*slow down

Signing in as a newbie to this thread. Sadly no cats or any other pets due to rules from LL. So I make do until I can move into my own place and have all the cats.

I am depressed, left STBXH in April, abusive r'ship and kept it together til Sept, when I exploded. Signed off from work and I'm getting worse. Started a thread in 30days about my totally OTT reaction to a colleague/friend where I was vile and all I wanted to do was die. Luckily I had my DC with me and they kept me going, now they're with their dad and I am scared. Drs appt at 3 today, I have to tell them what I was feeling and beg for talking therapy from the MHT. The normal channels can't deal with what I've gone through and that makes me feel like shite.

Oh pinksquash you poor thing, that sounds like a bloody awful situation to have gone through. Have some & from us, to welcome you to this thread.

Fab that you have an appt today, that's a great opportunity for you to get the support you deserve.
Please try to prepare for the appt, personally I don't think you can go wrong with a list - mine have always taken the same format: crying all the time, exhausted, no motivation to get out of bed / the house, constantly thinking of the awfulness of my situation, etc etc.
The NHS will be able to 'deal with' you, please be assured they will have seen stuff much, much more challenging & awful. I don't say that to minimise what you are going through but to try to put it into perspective from their side & to let you know that the Doctor does have the mechanism to help you.
Are you able to have a quiet & calm day otherwise? Get yourself washed & dressed, go for a walk, maybe in a park if you have one nearby.
You are precious & wonderful - but whilst you're going through this rough patch I don't expect you to believe me! In time you will start to climb back up again & feel better & be the Oman you can be. Meanwhile, many congratulations on getting out of that abusive relationship, that's an amazing achievement & you should truly be proud of yourself!

You'll be the woman you can be. Not a Middle Eastern country.

Thank you salted, your words are soothing and I really needed to hear them.

I have to wait in for a delivery and for someone to sort my extracts out in the bathroom but hopefully they'll come sooner rather than later and I can briefly meet a friend/colleague before my drs appt, I need to apologise to them face to face!

Oman made me actually LOL. I want to be a whole country

Thank you for your words too, pinksquash, you have made me feel good too - all round hugs of loveliness this morning, I think!
I'm glad you have a plan for the day, that's very important. Hope the delivery doesn't restrict you, but don't get down about it if it does, ok? (Cos it's not your fault!)
I shall put NATO on alert for a MN country takeover. I'm sure they won't mind

We all need the joy and loveliness as we are all lovely people!

The extract guy has just been, I had to apologise about the mess on the floor and he exclaimed at how clean the place is compared to most he's seen. Even if he's only saying it to be polite. I'm taking that one and feeling the happiness it gives me.
I am not letting the darkness win any more, I need the light to come back, I want to live and not just exist.

That's a triple victory: guy has been, you took his compliment as it was intended, and thirdly (& most importantly) your attitude is spot-on perfect!! Well done!

Welcolme pinksquash, big hugs to you. Does your work offer any help through OH dept? I'm having councelling from mine and they have just refered me to a psychologist. Much shorter wait than NHS. I wouldn't be surprised if you have an element of PTSD too after all you've been through.

I tried work, didn't cope, pannic attack. Going to gym now to try and exercise out of this.

It is a victory, thank you salted, it's a great way to look at things!

Carer- Work does have a contract with an external OH team, but they only do 5 sessions of talking therapy and the person I spoke to said I probably wouldn't gain anything as I struggle to open up and trust people, so back to the NHS I go.
I work in an environment where safety is a huge priority and on the last day I worked I made some huge errors that could have been fatal, I finished my shift and havent been back since then as I realised I was bloody dangerous. I do miss working at the moment as it kept me occupied but my colleagues are happy for me to come in for a coffee and a chat so at least I get their company.

I saw another colleague yesterday who wondered where I was as they hadn't seen or heard from me and when I explained the past few months, they were shocked as they thought Id been doing so well on the outside, internally I look back and see that I wasn't.

Shame about your works OH. I'm really lucky with mine. My concentration is rubbish at the moment which has let to minor mistakes but again in my area could impact on peoples safety. Although most of the time Iits just been walking into a room and not knowing why I'm there! Its a fast pace environment with decisions with life threartening/altering consequences though and not worth risking mistakes.

Morning, managed a bit of sleep but woke with awful cold/sore throat and just really cannot be bothered. Children all playing nicely together which helps. I've cleaned the kitchen and loaded dishwasher but have no motivation to do much more.

Hugs to you all and welcome pink . I'm sorry I'm not very good with words but I do read and understand sorry.

Well done in the kitchen latex, sounds like another victory, particularly as you've got a cold too (boo, hiss to viruses!)

And carer, I'm impressed at you going to the gym - mind you I'm impressed that anyone going to a gym, it's not my natural habitat But it's a great way to work out anger. And I know what you mean abt concentration, isn't that a common co-symptom alongside depression?

Pinksquash, could you get to a gym like carer has?

Afternoon you lovely people! I got some sleep but woke up feeling a bit rubbish. Made it to my exercise class. Feel a bit better. Anxious about my car in the garage at the mo. Hoping it won't cost a fortune!

Well done wolfie !
Can you not be anxious for a while, please, it'll not make the garage charge you less

Hey pinksquash are you at the Doctor's yet? Just wanted to say 'good luck' to you. If you can, try to stay strong enough to explain some of your situation & how you feel. Discuss medication that you could take time help you & also what talking cures are available & how to access them. Make a follow up appt too, maybe for 3 weeks time.
Keep in touch!

Salted, exercise produces your bodies natural antidepressant. For me its not anger I need to work out its anxiety. Gymed, swimmed and saunad this morning, just got a bit more sleep and hesding back to the gym for a class. I think distraction is a big part of the benefit for me, also worked off that whole bar of dairy milk I ate this morning!

Hope Drs goes will pink. I've got a review with mine in the morning.

Hello Elves of Cake Eating and Cat Cuddling.

I'm Purple, and I am often down in the dumps and anxious, with my various MH problems. Currently cooking dinner for me and my 2,5 year old tornado boy, with the dinner cooking itself and me browsing Mumsnet.

Jealous of gym bunnies!

Quick update from me as I'm drained. Dr recommended I go to A&E to get access to the MHT, upped my meds in the hope they'll work better too.

to all.