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so low I can't wash

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Aveiam · 28/04/2016 17:11

I feel so terrible right now that I haven't been able to make myself wash in 3 days.
I feel disgusting please don't be mean to me about it.
I really want to be fixed. I'm on 60mg fluoxetine and have been waiting for the psychiatric team to get back to my GP to see about a change in medication. The diagnosis is depression.
I just feel so low. I just want to be better.
Any advice on how to change this, how to get better for myself without tablets?

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greengreenten · 03/05/2016 09:00

Just read your thread for the first time. I'm so sad you're feeling so desperately low.

Hold on, try and do some deep breathing, slow your thoughts a little and maybe try and get a little fresh cool air. Only small things to do I know but you feel out of control.
I have smaller feelings of this and breathing helps me. In through your nose and out through your mouth (like blowing through a straw). Do it slowly though. I don't mean to give trite advice but please try it.

Giving you a warm hug too.

A4Document · 03/05/2016 09:31

Hello Aveiam.

What a very difficult time you are having.

I'm sure you will have heard of some/all of these, but here are some links just in case. It looks like their helplines are more specialised than the Samaritans.

Cruse Bereavement Care
The Compassionate Friends
Child Death Helpline
Child Bereavement UK

MiddleClassProblem · 03/05/2016 10:06

Thinking of you x

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BeccaMumsnet · 03/05/2016 13:29

Hi Aveiam - we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources - here. You can also go to the Samaritans' website here, or email them on [email protected], although we can see that you've already given that a go.

Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.

We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.

Take care Aveiam Flowers

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Aveiam · 04/05/2016 20:05

I'm sorry I think I made people angry

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MiddleClassProblem · 04/05/2016 20:06

No one here is angry with you. Just care about you x

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Aveiam · 04/05/2016 21:54

I'm hurting lots

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Aveiam · 04/05/2016 22:28

:( I'm so alone

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LondonKitty · 04/05/2016 22:40

Sorry you feel alone. Is there anyone in RL you can talk to?

AuntyElle · 05/05/2016 03:16

Not angry at all, Avieam, but concerned for you. What does an average day look like for you at the moment?

MsMims · 05/05/2016 03:40

I'm so sorry you're hurting, it's tangible in your posts. Offering you a hand to hold.

MiddleClassProblem · 05/05/2016 06:52

Do you think you can walk to a park and sit on a bench for a bit today? You can wear anything, dirty tracksuit bottoms, a t shirt days old, it doesn't matter. You don't have to talk to anyone. If you have any outside space at home, they might do if you can't face going out. Just to feel the sun and the air. No need to do anything. If you feel self conscious you can look at your hands, look at all the lines, see what shapes they make.
And obviously, you don't have to do any of this if you can't. It's just an option Flowers

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Aveiam · 06/05/2016 00:24

I'm too tired. I'm too too tired to do this anymore

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AnxiousMunchkin · 06/05/2016 01:29

Grief and depression are tiring, Aveiam. Please be kind to yourself. What did you manage to do today?

PirateFairy45 · 06/05/2016 05:53

I have no advice Hun, but hugs hugs from me. I always find a hot shower helps me feel better :) what does it normally do for you?

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Aveiam · 06/05/2016 10:26

I didn't do anything yesterday and I don't want to do anything today, I can't handle any more

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AuntyElle · 06/05/2016 13:34

Hi Aveiam, Are you managing to eat something and drink enough? If so then that is something.
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Winterbiscuit · 06/05/2016 13:41

Keep on going Aveiam Flowers

MiddleClassProblem · 06/05/2016 14:09
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Aveiam · 06/05/2016 15:16

I can't eat but what's worse is I can't sleep anymore

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AuntyElle · 06/05/2016 15:44

I do feel for you, not sleeping is so hard.
When I struggle to eat due to MH I find I can eat just a few things, for me bananas, cheddar cheese and crisps. Not healthy but enough to keep going on. Is there anything you can face eating? (Do say if questions are annoying/overwhelming) x

AnxiousMunchkin · 06/05/2016 22:40

Sorry you're still having such a rough time, Aveiam. When are you next seeing a HCP?

Do keep posting, even if you can't think of much to say that's ok. Just take things minute by minute if need be.

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Aveiam · 07/05/2016 02:08

I just can't cope

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AnxiousMunchkin · 07/05/2016 04:51

I can only imagine the grief of losing a child, Aveiam, it must be one of the most distressing things anyone can go through.

Have you spoken to anyone else at all, perhaps others that have lost children? There are threads on here where people talk about their experiences and feelings around bereavement, or the specific support services upthread.

MiddleClassProblem · 07/05/2016 09:36

Even if you don't post, just have a little read through if you can. You might see something that resonates Flowers