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i cant cope anymore, i want it all to end

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penniless · 25/11/2006 23:40

following on from my thread in lone parents, wanted to post at how bloody depressed i am,i feel like ive been chucked down a black hole, i cant get out of it, feel lile im suffocating, im drowning in all this worry, i feel ill, even with the help ive recently received from mumsnetters which im eternally grateful for, im still struggling.i cant go on like this, im not sleeping, i feel sick and i cant stop crying, if my car wasnt broken down id get in it now and drive into a brick wall, ive had enough.

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penniless · 26/11/2006 00:52

quootie-they wont sadly, i dont have the ebergy to top myself and i woukldnt do it when the cxhildren were in the house

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QuootiepiesBetterThanMincePies · 26/11/2006 00:54

thats good. As long as your definatly not going to do anything silly. Definatly ring GP 1st thing monday and get an emergency appointment. xxx

HazelnutsRoastingOnAnOpenFire · 26/11/2006 00:55

penniless. I was just about to log off but I thought I would just have a look through the last hr posts and seen your thread. I read your thread about not having any money the other day too.

I thought my life was shit until reading that thread, it got me thinking. So your thread as already helped me. I know your thread has made a lot of people think and has helped them too.

Things will get better!! you have to believe that. so please do. I was just like you are now last year. It was my DC that kept me going. Your DD is only saying that she does not care b/c she does not know what to say. Thats older children all over.

I was beaten by my xp1. And I thought my life was going to be hell for the rest of my life. But luck was on my side one day and he walked out. (To this day I don't know why)

I then meet someone else, he was great. I soon fell in love with him, but then xp1 started to make things bad for us. I sure he used my DC to do this, well DS1. To cut a long story short my new DP was to be come my xp2 as we had to split up or my DC would be taken into care.

I thought my life had ended there, yet again xp1 was getting to me and making my life not worth living. My DC kept me going, yes its still very hard at times now. Just the last 2 days DS1 has been Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!! very bad moods that have gone on for 2 days. We just made up tonight.

Your life will get better, it might not be tomorrow or the next day. You need sleep!!!!! get some help to help you sleep. A few good nights of sleep will help you think better.

Fight to get some help. There is some if you fight. ( so many other use this help that don't really need it and that makes life harder for the ones that do)

Every one on MN feels for you so you are not alone.

You will soon be having a different better life again to what you are having now. This time will come.

Its like going from having loads of money to benefits, you think " how the hell can I live on that much" but you can, its dam hard but you can. Then when you start to get money again, you know how to spend that money in the best way and make the most of it.

You know you have friends here in MN, some you don't even know ( like me ) we wont let you go with out!!

Please be brave and work through this hard time you are having. We are here to help.

Thinking of you.

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penniless · 26/11/2006 00:58

quootie, thanks for your help, im going to bed, i will actually ring the gp tomorrow when im in a better position to go and see one

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EmmyLou · 26/11/2006 00:58

Penniless - if you are still here, please realise how many MNetters are out here thinking of you and wishing you well.

Hold on in there and see your GP. It can really, really help. There is light.

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penniless · 26/11/2006 01:00

i will do
hazlenuts, thank you, my major problem is that o dont actually have any money. so as more bills go out of my account, i sink more and more.
there are lots of other things that have gone on too.

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QuootiepiesBetterThanMincePies · 26/11/2006 01:01

Ok, sleep well xxx

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penniless · 26/11/2006 01:01

thank you for listening everyone

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AitchTwoOh · 26/11/2006 01:02

oh, my gps are like that too, penniless. although they do chop and change, sometimes they are signed up for home visits adn sometimes you have to pop to your nearest hospital. PITA imho.
ooooh penniless, i'm gutted for you that things are so difficult right now, i'm going to buy a lottery ticket on wednesday and i promise i'll sort you right out if i win...

HazelnutsRoastingOnAnOpenFire · 26/11/2006 01:03

penniless

Go to bed and think of all of us helping you and how good you feel about that.

Think of only good thoughts and then try and dream them.

Sleep well, I will be thinking of you.

HazelnutsRoastingOnAnOpenFire · 26/11/2006 01:10

you need to get yourself down to benefits. They have to do something!! they are hell to deal with but they have to help. Take the Dc with you.

Stop the bills from leaving the bank and then go to the CAB for help. The bank are only out to make money so stop them making that money.

You cant pay out what you dont have, the banks pay it out hopping to get more back one day. You just need to know how to fight them and the CAB know that

take care and sleep well xxx

fussymummy · 26/11/2006 01:35

penniless i've just found this thread.

I really know how you're feeling, i've been there as well!!!!

Do you suffer with depression???

Please see your GP a.s.a.p.

Out of hours GP's, even at health centres, always have a doc on call who can do an emergency home visit.

Explain your situation, say you have no-one to care for the kids, no car, no way of getting to them.

You need help NOW.

Wish i could give you a big hug, as i know how lonely you must be feeling right now.

If you're still up, i'll be around for a bit longer.

xxxxx

fullmoonfiend · 26/11/2006 07:04

penniless - this must all seem overwhelming and I know when you are depressed, it's sometimes feels impossible to even contemplate doing something. But I want to add my good thoughts (and feel free to CAT me if you need another virtual shoulder to cry on/outlet for a rant etc)

Please do go to your GP and be honest about how you are feeling at the moment.

I'm not up to date on your other thread but there are so many people on MN with areas of expertise who may be able to help you - and many others just to hold your hand through it all. x

Flamesparrow · 26/11/2006 09:53

My first thoughts were of you this morning - how are you doing sweetheart?

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penniless · 26/11/2006 12:19

im still here, i felt sick when i woke up

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penniless · 26/11/2006 12:20

fullmoon, thankyou

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emmatom · 26/11/2006 12:50

well done in getting through another night penniless - little steps and all that.

Hope you managed a decent bit of sleep last night.

Be kind to yourself today. Take a minute at a time if necessary.

AitchTwoOh · 26/11/2006 13:11

good to hear from you today, penniless.

Flamesparrow · 26/11/2006 16:04

How are you getting on today? I can be online tonight if you need someone so you aren't alone.

I'm flamesparrow at hotmail dot com if you need someone on msn at all.

fullmoonfiend · 26/11/2006 16:47

Was going to say same as flamesparrow. fullmoon at hotmail etc.

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penniless · 26/11/2006 17:41

thank you flamesparrow
full moon, i appear to already have you on msn

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Nemoinapeartree · 26/11/2006 19:17

penniless hope you are ok today and will try to catch up on msn later...take care

EmmyLou · 26/11/2006 22:54

Hope you are OK penniless. Thinking of you.

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penniless · 27/11/2006 10:07

nemo, sorry i didnt get on msn, dd1 was on the computer all day, then dd2was throwing up last night
o still feel dreadful, i cant stop crying, im dreading christmas

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fussymummy · 27/11/2006 10:23

Penniless have you been to see your doctor yet???

You really need some help to get you through this awful point in your life.

Christmas might not be as bad as you think!!!

I think MN have that covered for you, so please don't despair.

Just what you need is one of your kids being sick!!!!!

How is she????

How can we help you????