can anyone hold my hand about to take my first ADs and very scared

[43mumof2]

doctor wants me to take them for y anxiety and depression , but im so scared about taking them ...anyone can help me through it , hold my hand ...shes prescribed citroparm (cant spell it ) not sure weather to take day time or night ?

Hi 43. I'm not sure if this will help you but I was prescribed citalopram by my doctor for anxiety. I felt very unsure about taking it and had to convince myself to take it. Within a few hours of taking it, I felt utterly revolting, nausea ,fear, horrible thoughts, could not eat and could not sleep. I actually fell into a depression and I was not depressed before taking them. I lasted 5 days and after losing 4 kilos and feeling like I wanted to lie and down not get up, I decided to not take them anymore. The next day I woke up and was so relieved that I didn't need to feel that way, it was truly awful and I don't believe I needed them in the first place.

I can get very anxious but I feel like things can spiral out of control and you can feel like life is turning to crap around you but finding the right solution, being diet, exercise, relaxation, time to spend on yourself doing what you enjoy can greatly improve things.

I happened to find a brilliant dr that specialises in women's health and my problem was that I needed to go back on The Pill ( I had to come off for another temporary reason) as my body needs the oestrogen to keep me stable and control the hideous pmt which was actually the problem. I didn't realise this until I keep a diary about moods at times of the month.

Just a suggestion for you. I understand how it feels when people say just keep going with the meds, if your head is telling you it's not right, then maybe you should trust yourself.

I understand everything you said and I hope you can find the best for you.

Life is too short to feel crap all the time x

Yes the negative thinking and anxiety is so what I describe my depression as and its exhausting. I wish i could just turn a switch and stop my thoughts swirling, it wears me out and drains my energy, so all i have energy for is sleep. I have talked about negative automatic thoughts a lot with a counsellor and it really helps me to write them down then challenge them or imagine what a kind friend would say to challenge them, as they can speed up the downward spiral for me. Or if you dont think that would work for you, find an activity that makes you think of other stuff even if its just walking the dog or cleaning a room or watching a movie if thats all you can face. Baby steps. I'm the person I want to be on anti d's. I am kinder to myself and if i had diabetes i would take the insulin and not beat myself up is how i look at it now. Something nicely, mindlessly trashy on the TV also takes my mind off myself - its whatever works for you.

I wish I had not persevered with the pills aldilogue. I wish I had trusted my instincts like you and given up after the first pill which made me feel so dreadful. But I kept going as was told these were the best things for me but the consequence was I was very ill for over a month and definitely not right for weeks after. 4 months later I started to come off, now 6 months on I'm starting to feel a little better (still withdrawing and getting side effects). But I'm scarred by the experience.