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can anyone hold my hand about to take my first ADs and very scared

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43mumof2 · 18/07/2015 09:51

doctor wants me to take them for y anxiety and depression , but im so scared about taking them ...anyone can help me through it , hold my hand ...shes prescribed citroparm (cant spell it ) not sure weather to take day time or night ?

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Newnamealready · 21/07/2015 18:14

Thank you Bake and OP

OP how are you feeling? Flowers

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43mumof2 · 21/07/2015 18:48

thank you everyone Smile , im still here Grin have felt a little nausous at odd times this afternoon ,but nothing to bad , so far........ Hmm
and quite thirsty but all this could just be me ...

how are you doing Newname ? how long have you been on it for ? x

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mjmooseface · 21/07/2015 20:28

Hey 43mumof3 I'm a bit late to your thread but I realised we started taking anti-depressants for the first time on the same day! So we can be AD buddies! ;D And I am on citalopram, too. I am sad I have to take medication, tbh. But I am looking forward to feeling more myself again :)

I have felt a bit nauseous but nothing too bad. My jaw hurts a bit when I yawn and I have been yawning a lot but it's only been a few days! I take mine first thing in the morning. I have been referred to the community mental health team as I score high for depression, anxiety, ocd, adhd, aspergers/asd and borderline personality disorder! Eek. The AD's are because my depression and anxiety is really high and I have been having the symptoms for a long, long time!

How are you feeling?

Bakeoffcake · 22/07/2015 07:47

Hope today goes well Mumof2, did you say you have the day off? Smile

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43mumof2 · 22/07/2015 07:48

Hi mjmooseface ,thanks for kind message , im ok ....felt bit rough yesterday afternoon nausous at times , and just a bit rubbish really , did wake up last night and got a bit anxious about it all tearful and couldnt get back to sleep for ages , did eventually .....
so am going to take today but i must say not feeling to great ....bit worried ...

does this pass ? i know only day 2 ....

how you feeling now ? hope your doing well , what day are you on ?

im on 10mg by the way

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43mumof2 · 22/07/2015 07:50

hi bake , i did , but dont now , got to work but only till lunch , will keep mind busy so thats a good thing i think ...do feel bit low today , but will take the pill ....hope its going to pass all this feelings

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LosingNemo · 22/07/2015 11:19

The benefits will definitely outweigh the draw backs, but it will take a few weeks to feel those benefits.

I didn't have the side effects you describe but I would imagine that they are made worse by your anxiety (anxiety can manifest itself in physical ways e.g nausea). If they continue you could talk to your doctor and they could fiddle about with your dose.
I know I sound like a drug pusher, but keep the faith for now, I really believe that they'll help you xxx

MrsEvadneCake · 22/07/2015 11:49

I did 10mg for four weeks. Symptoms passed after first week. Then upped to 20mg with no symptoms. It will be worth it and the anxiety will quieten down.

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43mumof2 · 22/07/2015 12:57

thanks , yes looking forward to further down the line feeling better ...
anxiety is high as im waiting for blood test results and another test so yes thats prob not helping ...
iv got an appointment with doctor next monday so will talk things through then , but hopefully side effects may be slightly better .. Hmm

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43mumof2 · 22/07/2015 15:12

feel awful today , not sure i like this feeling ....got acid reflux to and feel bit odd , making me anxious ...not sure if want this to go on

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LosingNemo · 22/07/2015 20:16

Talk to your doctor, they might be able to reassure you. I was given diazepam to see me through the first couple of weeks. I was terrified of the stuff but it helped.
Don't panic. Keep busy, have a glass of wine and try not to focus too much on the tablets.

postponishment · 22/07/2015 20:25

The tablets will help to stop 'this' going on if they have time to.

Anxiety is a thing that itself has side-effects - real physical feelings - so anytime you feel something (feel odd, or have acid reflux, or whatever) you need to consider that you can't really know the exact cause of that effect. It could be something new like medication, or it could be the big furry monster that is anxiety sitting on your shoulder making you tense up and feel sick and pay five times as much attention to tiny feelings as you would at other times.

After only one day I would assume it's much more likely to be the anxiety, especially as it will have been temporarily dialled up higher due to you having only just done the scary thing of taking the first tablet.

If you stop now, the anxiety problem won't go away, so the GP will have to suggest something else, another medication. The GP has probably already suggested the one they think's best in terms of effects and side effects, so the next choice could be worse.

If the current 'side-effects' are vague and mild and not definitely caused by the medication rather than anxiety, then it's a bit early to give up on these tablets - eventually you'll end up on whatever the second-choice of medication might be.

Bakeoffcake · 22/07/2015 20:29

Oh poor you Mumof2Sad

Yes do speak to the dr.

As others have said you can get some side effects but they really do ease and you start to feel so much calmer. I've heard that nausea can last a few days but it should stop soon.

Try to keep thinking of how much better you should feel this time next weekSmile. It really is worth it.x

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43mumof2 · 22/07/2015 21:16

thanks all , feel bit calmer i think , comes in waves just want this all to go away , i woildnt wish this on anyone ....just want to feel well Sad

and losingnemo , can you drink on ADs ? not that im going to at all , just wondered

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mjmooseface · 22/07/2015 23:03

I'm on day 5 now 43mumof2 I have switched from feeling like I am seeing colours properly and singing and dancing and not feeling tired in my body and having lots of energy, to feeling meh and not wanting to eat and nauseous. I have felt much the same as before, but also felt as if I hadn't realised just how big and dark this cloud was hanging over me, until it started to lift a little.

I am on 20mg. I am aware that this is just our body getting used to something new in our system and we will get used to it. Hang in there! :) I had never felt such anxiety than the few days leading up to taking that first tablet! I couldn't even tell my OH to his face that I had been prescribed them, had to text him instead! lol He is very supportive of me, as he has his own mental health issues so is not a stranger to all of this. But he did think ADs were a bit premature, especially if I haven't actually been diagnosed with anything yet. I explained it's because my anxiety and depression symptoms are really high and very prolonged. I'm due to start a placement in September and am wondering if I need to tell them in on ADs?! :/

I'm just waiting to hear from the CMHT. I have no idea how long a referral takes so I am anxious about that, too!

temporaryusername · 23/07/2015 03:37

Well done on taking the tablet, you won out in the battle with your anxiety there which is brilliant. I really think you will be fine with this. I am quite relaxed about ADs as I have taken about 3 or 4 kinds over the years, never had any problems with them. If you do have any issues they will almost certainly be minor as your body adjusts, and will either pass or if they don't will just be an annoyance that may prompt you to try a different drug, rather than something to fear. I would happily tell anyone I take ADs and have been open about it for years - it isn't a big deal or anything to be ashamed of. It really is like any other pill for a medical problem. I bet some people you know are on them even though you might not realise it. Anyway, hope you are feeling better and well done again being brave and taking them - I know how hard it can be to overcome the fears.

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43mumof2 · 23/07/2015 07:33

thanks to you both , i feel so emotional this morning , a little sick and anxious , i just want this to end and wake up and feel better .. Sad
i told my DH last night as he could see i wasnt feeling ok , he was a bit shocked i had them and asked how long would take to make me feel better , so i said not sure couple of weeks he said to hang in there with them , thought i should tell him as i felt so rough if i should pass out or something he needs to know what iv taken , i just not sure i can take it today ...feel so low , but is helping reading success stories so keep them coming ...

is this normal to feel like this ? x
thanks all x

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hotandbothered24 · 23/07/2015 07:42

The first couple of weeks are really tough, so hope you get through this soon. I had some diazepam for the first couple of weeks and this really helped, just at a very low dose. Good luck

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43mumof2 · 23/07/2015 07:46

thanks , not sure can cope if feels like this for few weeks ....
not sure will take today

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Bakeoffcake · 23/07/2015 07:52

It's great you told your DH.

You've taken two tablets, they have to build up in your body to be effective, so don't give up now.Smile

As I said up thread, they gave me a sense of calm quite quickly, but everyone is different. My friend did feel rubbish for about a week so the first few days were difficult for her. She made a bargain with herself to just keep taking them for a week to give them a chance- and she was so glad she did in th end.
Could you say to yourself- I'll take them at least until I see the Dr on Monday? That might get you over the first difficult bit.x

MrsEvadneCake · 23/07/2015 07:57

If they are making you feel sick still try taking it at bedtime and sleep through the worst bit. I take mine at bedtime because it suits me better.

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43mumof2 · 23/07/2015 07:57

thanks bake , i just dont know if i can , i feel so low and im in tears wanting this all to end ....
i dont know if these pills are making me worse or better ...
your right i know should give it a go till monday till my doctors appointment , this fear and anxiety comes in waves along with the nousea feeling ...

its just horrid x

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43mumof2 · 23/07/2015 08:24

thanks mrsE x

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MyGastIsFlabbered · 23/07/2015 08:27

Hi Mum. I'm late to this party but how you're feeling now will pass. 4 months ago I had a total breakdown. I couldn't do anything. My ADs were changed and I got through it. I still have the odd wobble but I'm in a much better place. I'm not on citilopram though,

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43mumof2 · 23/07/2015 08:30

thanks , no not to late , will this pass i feel so low im crying myeyes out just not sure to take my tablet today or not or take tonight ...or just not at all , i know its only been 2 days but the thought of feeling like this for weeks is just so scary ....
x

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