can anyone hold my hand about to take my first ADs and very scared

[43mumof2]

doctor wants me to take them for y anxiety and depression , but im so scared about taking them ...anyone can help me through it , hold my hand ...shes prescribed citroparm (cant spell it ) not sure weather to take day time or night ?

[YouFargingIceHole]

I'm on sertraline, 43. Both my mum and sister were on citalopram and describe similar symptoms to you when just starting. Sister just took it for a year but dm has been on it for years and no plans to come off. You won't know if it's working for 3 or 4 weeks, please hang in there. You're doing brilliantly!

[43mumof2]

really thank you , feel but sick this morning gagging on my porraige ....so trying toast ...
could cry just feel so low ...
im on 10mg today is day 4 if i take it .....

[EmpressKnowsWhereHerTowelIs]

The vivid dreams were the one symptom I wanted and didn't get!

I don't know, but my friend started with taking Citalopram in the morning, felt wobbly and found she was much better taking it at night so it's worth a try.

[43mumof2]

ok , thanks not sure if will take it i cant stand this feeling to be honest ...

[LIZS]

But you will feel like that whether you take it or not. At leastif you take it there is a chance you will feel better, maybe not today or even tomorrow but in time.

[43mumof2]

thanks , is this all normal ...i feel so low anxious about it all , have i done right thing starting this ....if i stop now will i get withdrawal ....if i stop now will try something els .... that kind of thinking ...

im just a mess

[43mumof2]

sorry your all prob feed up with me ...im feed up with me ...i wish hadnt started this i think ..... so confused what to do ..

iv got my concoling session this morning to so hope that helps ...

[43mumof2]

ok had a shower , and chat with myself ...and taken day 4 tablet ...i want to kick this bloody anxiety so got to dig on ...

seems to come in waves the anxiety feeling and worse once i wake ...fingers crossed today will get better ...

please keep supporting it helps me so much ... feel im not alone ,

[MrsEvadneCake]

Well done for sticking with them. It will get better. I promise.

[MrsEvadneCake]

Oh and counselling, It's ok if you feel really tired after. That's normal. I didn't know at first but some kind MN told me. So be gentle with yourself

[Bakeoffcake]

Good for you for sticking with it! Hope counselling goes well.

[43mumof2]

struggling now , i feel awful , feel sick , spaced out , not sure i can do this , waiting for doctor to call back as just want to check effects , had few panic attacks ...

concoling was ok although did find hard to connect this week kept yawning ...

[LosingNemo]

Sorry I ducked out for a while - 43, in answer to your much earlier question, I do drink with my ADs (paroxitine), and I know of others on different meds who also drink. My DH started taking fluoxetine (we're both totally average by the way, just cursed with depression), he tries to avoid drinking as he thinks it makes him grumpy.
Anyway back to the issue of the moment. The side effects. Poor you, it must be miserable. I was warned with mine that they might make me feel worse before they made me feel better. I was lucky and this wasn't the case, but it sounds like you've got unlucky. Please persevere though, you've done so well to get this far. Anxiety is such a malicious condition it even makes taking the cure difficult.

[EmpressKnowsWhereHerTowelIs]

I drink on citalopram and it's fine, but I do limit it to just an occasional pint / wine with dinner.

[EmpressKnowsWhereHerTowelIs]

I was normally knackered after counselling too and cried during the session more often than not. When I apologised, my lovely therapist pointed out that a) there was a reason for the big box of tissues on the table and b) it was a much healthier reaction than self-harming.

[43mumof2]

im still here ! went to see doctor this afternoon as was so anxious about the side effects , but she did reassure me that they are all normal and will ease in time if i can get through this time will be worth it ....said can take up to 2 weeks but each day should get better ...so do feel bit better ...she also suggested i take it at night to see if that helps so think going to try that .....
she explained about how they work with the seritonin and why the side effects happen so was quite interesting ....so im going to try and keep going ...

thanks for answers on drinking , i really dont drink much at all , i was asking about the alcohol thing as im going to friends in whales next weekend ...god i hope i feel better than this !! ..... and wasnt sure if i could maybe have just one drink with them ...or if best not to ....ill ask my doctor to on monday .
thanks again everyone for support , is really keeping me going

[temporaryusername]

Good, I'm glad she could reassure you somewhat. Just keep going, and soon it will be a few weeks in and you'll have a much better idea how they work for you. Remember that when we get side effects and note a symptom or sensation, we get a secondary adrenalin rush too that often makes the symptoms feel worse. As you get used to them you'll probably react less.

I have had the odd drink on these kind of meds including Citalopram, but just a very occasional one or two. I wouldn't go overboard but a little bit should be fine.

[43mumof2]

thanks , hopefully wil get through this phase and in weeks to come i WILL see the sun in my life and be smiling x

[temporaryusername]

I think you will

[43mumof2]

thanks , temp x

so if im not taking at night ...any idea on time i should take them ....?? and will i get bad dreams ...feel ok in morning ?
hope can sleep through the bad stuff and feel better in the day ...as now about few hours into taking it in the morning thats when i feel worst .....so awful ....
any tips ? x

[43mumof2]

meant * now taking at night ...

[EmpressKnowsWhereHerTowelIs]

Glad the doctor helped! I normally take it when I'm going to bed and then if there are any side effects, I sleep through them.

I'm sorry though, I just don't know about the bad dreams.

[43mumof2]

thanks , hope will sleep through them to ....how are you now ?

[EmpressKnowsWhereHerTowelIs]

Put it this way... Eighteen months ago I was suicidal. The 40mg citalopram got my head to a place where I could make use of the CBT I was being offered and sort my life out. Now I'm down to 10mg and being happy just feels normal.

I really hope it works as well for you as it has for me.

[43mumof2]

thanks empress ,im so glad they have helped you and you are happy now , i really feel encouraged hearing such posotive experiences from people ,

iv been living on my nerves for years with this health anxiety , social anxiety , and things in general every day life life , i lost my mum 5 years ago very suddenly , something im still not dealing with very well , my DH is a recovering alcoholic , and we have moved house 3x in the last 15 months ....so im not suprised im needing some support of some kind ....i to have felt very very low at times recently like i just want it all to go away and the only time i get peace is when im asleep ...

But hopefully these will help me feel a little brighter so i can get through to a happier place x