SPRINGTIME in the VILLAGE (Support for all Mental Health Issues)

[NanaNina]

Thought I'd start a new thread what with it being the Spring Equinox and all that..........and there's another reason. I'm hoping to re-connect with people who used to be frequent village visitors, but like me, seem to have fallen by the wayside. Of course everyone is welcome in the Village, so I hope more recent visitors understand my post and will not feel de-valued in any way. The stigma of mental illness is alive and well I reckon so we all need all the support we can get.

SO - CALLING

Vicar (she started the Village thread some years ago and occasionally pops in) Edwinia'sRevenge SnowyMouse (where ARE you?) SilveryPussyCat CIQ (I know you were having a tough time) Lem (once a very regular visitor) Hoochymama Pyrrghena collardove Victrix Pulled Creamhearts (previously FDG) MentalPsychiatrist KeemaNaanAndCurryOn (miss you and your wit)
FaithLoveandGrace MySpideySenseTickles

Would love to hear how you're all doing. I'm much the same, up and down, mostly down this month.

I've probably forgotten lots of people, but that's all I can bring to mind just now.

Hello people I occasionally post as fluffy bunny but not this thread and forgotten log in. Grr.

Hope everyone is having a good day.
I've failed to take the kids to school. They are buzzing about the house. I'm hiding in my bedroom. What a disaster

Literally spent the whole day in bed and slept as didn't get much sleep last night.

ciq u have a lot more insight into ur mental health than ur mum so I have no doubt you will not turn out like her. I guess everyone deals with these symptoms in their own way and in ur mums case it is most probably avoidance. She might find it too much too deal with if she thinks she has mental health issues.

sillymummy sorry ur feeling the way u do. I'm sure the kids enjoyed the day off, just don't get yourself to stage where it happens too often as I know schools are very hot in attendance nowadays. Is there anyone that can help with school run when u feel like this?

pulled hope you feel better for a good sleep.

Have managed to get more done today which is good. But I would Really like dh and dcs to leave me alone now.

Thanks ciq sleep helped but now the headache is back just taken my meds so hopefully will calm down. Hope u get some me time. Can DH take them out for some ice cream or something?

Good night everyone x

pulledapart no unfortunately. 2 separate primary schools, one 2 miles away. We don't live near anyone who goes to either- moved and no space at the local school or for them all to be at one school. Husband works away a lot and travels so pretty screwed really.

Hello everyone. The thread dissapeared from my 'threads I'm on' list as I hadn't posted in so long. sillymummy sorry you had such a bad day on Friday. I hope things are a bit better for you? Is there any help you can get- friends, dh, other mums at the school?

colouringinagain some months ago, I was diagnosed with fibromaylgia. The exhaustion was so much that I had to lie down after every little task. It has gradually gotten better. It can get better.

I'm still looking for a job, no luck there. Will be starting a tablet to help with the side effects of my anti psychotics soon :/ Feel a bit dosed up with the meds now, and am a bit down with the weight gain side of things.

Currently hungover . Family wedding yesterday and I had too much to drink o top of my anti psycotics. Not a great combination. DD is out with friends today so trying to get the motivation to update my CV (again) and do (another) job search. Feeling very, very low and tired today.

loveis sending hugs. sounds like a tough ask job hunting at the mo but I guess that's life. Sorry to hear about your fibro - that sounds rubbish.

Can you take this easy this eve and watch something you like on the tv or something? Thinking of you.

silly that sounds rubbish re: schools. Hope you're hanging in there today.

Have to cook dinner now... back later x

It is tough, colouring in again.
I went to some training today, for some summer work.
Only to find out I'm on the back up/reserves list along with 90 other people, and haven't been allocated any work. I presume I'm on Tue list in case any one calls in sick , but being a single mum, I can't just stop everything to fill in at short notice.

Feeling really very low tonight. My job applications are reaching into hundreds easily now. I think it must be me.

How are you all? It's gone quiet in the village.

Im doing a bit better. Doing the school runs consistently. Managing to get out a bit but only with dh.

Hello Mythical. That's good on doing school runs. I'm doing way, way better than I was but still get very low days/times. My GP has increased my anti depressant to the maximum dose now, so hopefully that will help.

Well done love thats brilliant that you're doing better. I still get lows too. This afternoon I was shaking like a leaf as ds was back late from his school trip and dd kept running off whilst I was waiting. Luckily I had my friend M to keep me distracted.

Oh how horrible for you. I'm glad you are managing to get things done though. I recall you posting about how hard it was. Would you say things are steAdily improving or still hard to tell? I think I'm hard to tell still but seem to be having much much better days and my anxiety is going. I've got a new and very supportive boyfriend too.

I definitely feel im improving, just slowly. I think upping my meds is helping.

love that's nice. Its great he's so supportive, that makes things easier.

Hi everyone, really pleased to hear a little improvement mythical, loveis.

I'm doing ok. Turns out I have iron deficiency anaemia so am hoping to be less tired once the iron tablets have kicked in.

Hey ciq glad you are ok. Yes iron tabs are good. I've used the spatone liquid stuff before which I found easier on my stomach.

Hello
Waiting three weeks for GP appt cos crisis team won't speak to me and GP is the only one in the surgery who has a clue about mental health, and the only decent GP, so booked up.

Can I wait here?

It's as good a place as any other element
Why won't crisis talk to you?
Do you want to talk about what's been going on ?

Hi Element. Yes if you want to talk this is a good place to be.

Hello to all

Offers (looks down in shame from finishing a packet of )

Hope everyone is well.

I've been up & down but really down today as job centre have totally messed up my claim for ESA and now starts a long road of appeal its pushed me over the edge and I feel completely deflated.

Glad to hear things have improved loveis mythical & ciq

Welcome element like others have said this is a good place to talk. Everyone is lovely & supportive. I'm sorry crisis Won't talk to you, it's really horrible to be waiting for an appt.

Im not worthy of help. Im a bad person. I dont know why though because I tr to do everything right.

They used to get cross when I called, so I stopped giving my name, which helped. But now they get cross about that. I called because I was getting strong urges to OD and asked if they could just chat to me a mo til the worst passed. She wasn't nasty like the person yesterday but they just can't/won't do anything. It would have helped to be kind but they are just palming you off on the next person. My GP is the only one who at leats acts like he gives a shit.

I'm tying so hard to fight all the bad feelings but people think i'm horrible. For some reason I am not 'allowed' to be sad or struggling, if I am it's considered attention-seeking or something (?) certainly treated like I'm 'bad' not 'sad' iyswim. It was ever thus, since childhood. (Which is why I didn't/couldn't ask for help/support when things happened and suppressed everything.)
I just want to be able to say, look I'm struggling with these things, and have that acknowledged in a vaguely sympathetic way. It's going through the distressing memories trying to make sense of everything, and having it reinforced that i'm somehow 'misbehaving' for being sad thats so hard. I had a minor op a few weeks back and I was 'allowed' to be in pain but still try to be ok/work through it. But with mental it's not allowed, any sign I'm showing pain or just wanting to say "gosh this hurts" makes me 'bad'.

ps. I very, very rarely call the crisis team or try to get professional help (aside from private therapist) because it does make it worse. But when it gets vey close/dangerous sometimes I call. It is very sad when you try to 'do the right thing' and survive but are labelled badly and the pain re-inforced by the judgements.

You are not bad. do you have any other form of support?

Oh element big hugs to you. You are absolutely not a bad person you reach out at the right time when ur vulnerable to doing something. That takes courage so be proud of yourself. I am sorry that the services are not responding to you in the way they should at these times. You mentioned private therapy so I'm thinking maybe they expect you to ring your therapist at these times rather than call them (completely wrong attitude from them if this is the case). I could have that completely wrong though as I'm not really thinking straight myself tonight. Keep talking here if it helps. Are you on any meds?