SPRINGTIME in the VILLAGE (Support for all Mental Health Issues)

[NanaNina]

Thought I'd start a new thread what with it being the Spring Equinox and all that..........and there's another reason. I'm hoping to re-connect with people who used to be frequent village visitors, but like me, seem to have fallen by the wayside. Of course everyone is welcome in the Village, so I hope more recent visitors understand my post and will not feel de-valued in any way. The stigma of mental illness is alive and well I reckon so we all need all the support we can get.

SO - CALLING

Vicar (she started the Village thread some years ago and occasionally pops in) Edwinia'sRevenge SnowyMouse (where ARE you?) SilveryPussyCat CIQ (I know you were having a tough time) Lem (once a very regular visitor) Hoochymama Pyrrghena collardove Victrix Pulled Creamhearts (previously FDG) MentalPsychiatrist KeemaNaanAndCurryOn (miss you and your wit)
FaithLoveandGrace MySpideySenseTickles

Would love to hear how you're all doing. I'm much the same, up and down, mostly down this month.

I've probably forgotten lots of people, but that's all I can bring to mind just now.

Hi Mythical, Sorry to hear that. Did you get your phone call sorted?

I've been feeling suicidal today. Phoned The Samartians earlier. They erred helpful.

Were helpful, sorry.

((Mythical)) ((Loveis))
How are you both this morning?

Mythical, I hope work were ok & you have spoken to them,

Loveis, I am pleased Samaritans were helpful.

x

I'm really struggling with suicidal thoughts. My CpN is meant to be ringing me today. Feel very distressed by my thoughts- feeling a burden, as though I'd be doing people a favour, thinking what I'd do (though no plan) etc. So fed up of this and just want it to be over now.
One of my friends (usually very supportive) was v. abrupt with me today and that's sent me off on a spiral of feeling worthless and a total burden on other people. She was being nice but firm, basically saying get some help from cpn etc.
I just feel as though this has gone on too long and I really feel like ending it for good, though I've no 'real' plans to.
If my friend weren't coming round in a couple of hours, might be a different story though. I just keep trying to hold on, but don't know what to do.
Feeling very suicidal, angry and fed up all at once.

Loveis, can you call Samaritans again?
((()))
I am pleased you have friends coming over. Please talk to someone in RL

Anxiety seems a bit higher today. That might be to the increase of my tablets though.

Oh no love. Yes I second North can you call samaritans again? Sending hugs (())

How are you doing North?

I'm ok Mythical, thanks. Weird day, signed my separation agreement this afternoon. It has been at my instigation, but feels odd & allowing myself to feel it (if that makes sense).

Have you managed to get through the anxiety? Is it constant?

just need to sit and know others are around. struggling big time.

I'm here White if you want to talk

North, I saw ny friend today and had a long chat, that really helped. My cpn wants to give me chance to manage this on my own, I did ok with it today. Pleased because I've just found out I have a job interview and I've been finding it hard being unemployed (and after doing housework etc very, very boring!)

Just about, North. Am a bit worried im relying on the diazepam rather than the citalopram. Managed the school run without being too shakey so thats good but still needed pils there for support. Anxiety is pretty constant for me but much much worse outside or in social situations.

You are doing really well, mythical. Even if you do need the support of meds now, things will get better you are trying so hard and that counts for a lot

Loveis, that's great about the job interview! I'll have my fingers crossed. I'm pleased you've spoken to your friend too. The tone of your post is more positive.

Mythical, relying on meds at the moment is not a bad thing. They are keeping you functioning & that's a good thing. Really pleased you managed school run

Have just popped in, seen there's a new thread and seen I've been mentioned - it's really kind of you to think of me Nana thank you. I've had a slight name change but sure you can still recognise me.

Things are shit here tbh. DP's Dad been diagnosed with terminal cancer and given months to live, our relationship is hitting rock bottom and I've had enough of my PhD and just want to quit. In all honesty I feel like my entire irl support network has been whipped from underneath me the last few weeks as various people have been away for Easter and I'm really struggling to cope as a result. The anxiety seems to be back with a vengeance and despite having far too much work in far too little time, I have zero motivation to get it done.

Sorry to crash in when things are rubbish. loveis I'm sorry, I don't recall if you were about last time I was here. Sorry to hear you're struggling with suicidal thoughts and I'm glad the chat with your friend helped. That's brill news about your interview. Fingers crossed it gives you a confidence boost if nothing else!

(( Mythical )) as Northumberland has said, relying on meds isn't necessarily a bad thing. It sounds like you're doing great despite the anxiety.

i currently feel like I'm going to burst into tears so I'm going to have a shower and see if I can calm myself down a little!

Take care everyone and hopefully my next visit will be sooner than my last!

Thanks all. Been slightly better afternoob. Managed to do school run with mil. Made some bread and do some exercise.

Sorry to hear that faith. Sending hugs your way. Sounds like a very hard situation.

How are you doing today North and love?

Mythical, you sound more positive, I hope it continues. Making bread, exercise & doing school run might sound to some as small things, but this is great.

I am ok thanks. I'm supposed to be going out tonight, my MH nurse said that I should tell myself to go for 20 mins & then see how I feel. So that's the plan, my anxiety doesn't usually affect social situations, but has been a bit shaky recently.

Anyway, it's Friday - so i'll be at exercise classes in morning & that's guaranteed to make me feel better

Hoping your day is positive x

Poorly DD sleeping now but I can't switch off

Hope your dd is feeling better now.

Had a good day gardening with the family so relaxing in front of the tv now whilst dinner is cooking.

Hope your dd feels better, pulled.
I've been going in weird cycles, like I'm on a merry go round of emotions.
Have booked myself for a private counselling assessment.

Thats a positive step though love, sounds like it could be useful.

Thanks mythical and love DD is a little better. Manage to get some sleep last night too.

Well done for making the appointment love it is definitely a positive step.

Hope both you're day is going good and everyone else too.

It's a lovely sunny day here but of course I'm hibernating in my duvet no energy to do anything.

I actually managed a bit of shopping. Which is good. Got some bargain shoes to wear with a vintage dress that belongs to my mum for a wedding in a few weeks so thats one less thing to have to worry about as was stressed I wouldnt manage to go out before then.

Well done on shopping mythical they look good.

I've had a horrible night and early start thank to my psych appt. it went ok I'm just not motivated to do anything anymore.

Home to bed I think for me. At least DD is at school so can't get angry at her. I'm finding it difficult to control myself at the moment so irritable

How is everyone doing? X

Hi everyone. I can't do anything today. Feel crap/exhausted for no reason and therefore pathetic and failure at life. 5 of my medications list fatigue as a major side effect but I feel (irrationally) I should be able to battle through. Also don't want to spend my life feeling like this. Also can't face psychiatrist messing about with dosages etc any more! Scream.